I understand your concern, but I believe the confusion here comes from viewing sin merely as a financial transaction, rather than understanding the deeper moral and legal implications of our guilt before a holy God.
I believe the confusion here comes from the rejection of God having the sovereign right to Forgive sin - as Jesus taught.
Calvin, being a lawyer, saw everything as a legal transaction. Rather like the person who, having only a hammer, sees everything as a nail.
Show me one teaching JUST ONE, where Jesus said that "the deeper moral and
legal implications of our guilt before a holy God" demands that His (Jesus') blood
needs to be offered to God as a payment. Having had this conversation hundreds of times, I already know in my heart the only verse(s) you can point to, so I would first ask that you read the Greek text, and then translate it accurately without depending upon your tradition's theology.
Imagine you committed a serious crime—say, theft or assault—and you're standing before a judge. You admit your guilt. The judge, being just, cannot simply overlook your crime and say, "You're forgiven, go free."
I think I see the problem -
Imagination causes real heresies. Dangerous heresies. Beliefs that kill. (Just ask Servetus.) Such imagination depends upon human ideas of Righteousness that contradict the teachings of Jesus.
The judge, being just, cannot simply overlook your crime and say, "You're forgiven, go free." That would be unjust.
According to
human ideas of Justice and Righteousness. Haven't you ever considered (of course you have.... but perhaps not clearly... I don't know which is why I ask...)
And when he is come, he will reprove the world (prove the world wrong) of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:
- John 16:8 KJV
The ultimate conclusion of your premise here is that there are venial and mortal sins. A sin that can be forgiven (venial) and a sin that must be paid for (mortal). And yes, I know that this is a very Catholic view, but from what I have read of your posts so far (time is fleeting), I see a significant Calvinistic bent with some odd Catholic ideas thrown in.... My apologies if I'm wrong.
The thing is, even your own testimony states (and I quote) "I knelt by my bed and asked the Lord to forgive me." Why didn't you kneel by your bed and ask that God accept the blood of Jesus to pay for your sins?
Why wasn't the Lord God's forgiveness enough? (Or was it?)
But now imagine someone steps into the courtroom and offers to pay the fine or take the punishment on your behalf. The judge can now legally let you go—not because justice was ignored, but because it was satisfied. That is what happened at the cross.
But that wasn't what happened at your bedside.
What happened is that you repented and asked forgiveness - the very gospel that Jesus taught.
Before we continue, though, I should point out that I am an Acts 2:38 Christian. (Period.)
(37) Now when they heard this, they were pricked in their heart, and said unto Peter and to the rest of the apostles, Men and brethren, what shall we do? (38) Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.
- Acts 2:37-38 KJV
But sometime between your beside and now, something changed, no? (You learned theology!??) You had followed the teachings of Jesus, crying out to the Father for forgiveness, (at your bedside) and then somehow lost the pure word (LOGOS - teaching) of the Messiah. PLEASE, this is not an accusation, this is not a debate, because from your testimony I know you to be my brother in Christ. But at what point did you start to teach a different Gospel than that which Jesus taught?
But now imagine someone steps into the courtroom and offers to pay the fine or take the punishment on your behalf.
I understand the idea, but such an imaging cannot be found in the teachings of Jesus. Rather....
And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on. There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty. And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. ....
- Luke 7:40-42 KJV
Nobody stepped in to pay the creditor anything. The creditor frankly forgave them both. Period. Anything else changes the gospel message here.
Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants. And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents. But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made. The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all. Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.
- Matthew 18:23-27 KJV
Nobody stepped in to pay off the debt to the King. The King loosed him from the obligation, and forgave the debt. Anything else changes the gospel message here.
At times I tell a parable about a kingdom where a king takes account of his servants, and one was brought unto him who could not pay. But there was an ambassador from a foreign country at court. A very, very strange country that did not use gold, but kraydit kards of playstiq, and the one who owed could declare baankaruupcy and just walk away from all he owed, where the one who loaned money was responsible, rather than the one who borrowed. (HOW BIZARRE.) This ambassador, knowing the King would command his servant to be sold into slavery (a thing the ambassador considered barbaric) stepped in JUST as the King would have been moved with compassion to forgive the debt and declared that he, the ambassador would pay the debt. And the King's will was thwarted.
And Christians go YES... THAT'S JESUS. But that's NOT what Jesus taught. It's a Jesus that cannot be found in Matthew, Mark, or Luke, or even the Gospel named John for that matter. It's a fiction made up about Jesus, where the Father King is paid. So how is it even possible for the King to Forgive a Debt that was paid?
But what did Jesus teach? He taught what you actually did at your bedside.
And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
- Matthew 6:12 KJV
And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us.
- Luke 11:4 KJV
Who are these people who declare that the Sovereign God cannot forgive sins as He so wills? Who are these people who would reject the very Gospel of Jesus who taught us (nay, commanded us) to pray to the Father, "forgive us our sins"? As if the command of Jesus was not enough? That the Gospel of Jesus was insufficient?
Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. Amen.
- Matthew 28:19-20 KJV
Now after that John was put in prison, Jesus came into Galilee, preaching the gospel of the kingdom of God, And saying, The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.
- Mark 1:14-15 KJV
If Jesus came preaching the Gospel, then the Gospel is what
Jesus preached. Why should we believe anything else?
In the name of the Lord,
Rhema
The Bible tells us “the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23),
Paul did. Where did Jesus? (And I'm asking a most serious question.)
and “without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sins” (Hebrews 9:22).
Says the author of Hebrews. But John, the cousin of Jesus, taught differently.
John did baptize in the wilderness, and preach the baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins.
- Mark 1:4 KJV
John frankly preached the baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins. No animals. No blood. Don't add to the gospels.
And with regards to this "shedding of blood" -
For in the day that I brought your ancestors out of the land of Egypt, I did not speak to them or command them concerning burnt offerings and sacrifices.
- Jeremiah 7:22 NRSV
All things are delivered unto me of my Father: and no man knoweth the Son, but the Father; neither knoweth any man the Father, save the Son, and he to whomsoever the Son will reveal him. Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
- Matthew 11:27-30 KJV
Why would any sane person adopt a religion that offers up human blood sacrifices to the gods? (Okay, just one God, and one sacrifice, but it still declares Jesus to be a human blood sacrifice.)
Peace in the teaching of the Lord Jesus Christ,
Rhema