This is a heartache for most mothers. Starting school is a major turning point in ours and our children's lives. I was the same with my boys, I cried my eyes out at home, I was a bit of a mess really. LOL I also got emotional the first time my son rode on the school bus. He seemed so little, climbing up those steps onto the bus and I stood their watching the doors close behind him. Then I was straining to see through the bus window from where I was standing, to see if I could catch a glimpse of my baby. He was too excited and probably embarrassed to make a big deal out of waving to me through the window.
Man it's tough, but these are the baby steps towards us letting go of our children, we have to let them go. It isn't easy, but having faith and trusting God with our children is paramount for us mothers, we need to maintain emotional stability. We cannot allow fears cloud our minds and be worried or clingy over our kids. You know some mums get very depressed, they have separation anxiety for alot longer than they ought not just in the primary years but mums whose children who go off to college or leave home. It can become an unhealthy type of depression. When my oldest son left home, and then we moved far away, it was painful and I missed him terribly and I cried, but after a couple of days I understood that I had to keep my emotions in check and look at things realistically and it just led me to seek the Lord more closely for comfort and strength.
Learning to let go is important, it is the kindergarten and early years where we learn and understand that our children are really not our own. They belong to God. And we can constructively use the new free time for us to do grow and try new things, new hobbies, go back to work, or to school or be more involved in church. I think crying is a very natural emotion and is healthy to do for a short while, but definitely to be done out of ear shot and out of view of the children. We don't want our kids to develop a guilty complex or develop fears of some kind or have fears of leaving us.
But you know we will never stop being mums and never stop being concerned for our children. Although I got over those kindergarten days, my son is now 16 and he goes back to school next week, and I know a lot of mums are probably glad their kids are back in school and in a way I am too but I will still miss my son being around. I won't be crying though! I will be doing alot of praying.
Calluna
