Hey Everyone!
I'll try to put this as succinctly as possible however I'm not really sure how to word it so sorry for any rambliness. Basically, I would like some advice because no matter how hard I try I don't seem to be able to accept Jesus.
I'll try to explain. I started looking into Christianity out of curiosity, reading the Bible, doing the Alpha and Christianity Explored courses, reading books and websites, and essentially taking an intellectual approach (I was originally interested in Christianity and not in becoming a Christian.) I realise that this isn't the best way to come to Christ but I was brought up to research everything and be informed before making a decision. Having done all this, I have come to realise that accepting Jesus isn't about knowing and being able to explain everything. I know that I need to trust Him and accept that there are some things that I will never understand but I can't seem bring myself to do this. It's like although I believe with both my head and my heart that God is real and Jesus died to save us, there is a part of both that doesn't completely believe and is always questioning (I know that sounds very cliched but it's the only way I can phrase it). I have prayed that God will open my eyes and that He will help me to allow myself to accept the truth, but always there is a part of me that objects, that thinks that it is all nonsense. I truly would like to be saved but I don't know what to do. I know that I need to put my trust in Jesus and just believe but I don't seem to be able to. Has anyone got any advice? Or has anyone been in a similar situation? If so, what made you fully believe and silenced that voice? Any comments or advice would be welcome. I know that I haven't expressed this very well so I hope it makes some sense!
Thank you in advance,
Claire
ps I hope this is in the right section! Sorry if it's not.
I'll try to put this as succinctly as possible however I'm not really sure how to word it so sorry for any rambliness. Basically, I would like some advice because no matter how hard I try I don't seem to be able to accept Jesus.
I'll try to explain. I started looking into Christianity out of curiosity, reading the Bible, doing the Alpha and Christianity Explored courses, reading books and websites, and essentially taking an intellectual approach (I was originally interested in Christianity and not in becoming a Christian.) I realise that this isn't the best way to come to Christ but I was brought up to research everything and be informed before making a decision. Having done all this, I have come to realise that accepting Jesus isn't about knowing and being able to explain everything. I know that I need to trust Him and accept that there are some things that I will never understand but I can't seem bring myself to do this. It's like although I believe with both my head and my heart that God is real and Jesus died to save us, there is a part of both that doesn't completely believe and is always questioning (I know that sounds very cliched but it's the only way I can phrase it). I have prayed that God will open my eyes and that He will help me to allow myself to accept the truth, but always there is a part of me that objects, that thinks that it is all nonsense. I truly would like to be saved but I don't know what to do. I know that I need to put my trust in Jesus and just believe but I don't seem to be able to. Has anyone got any advice? Or has anyone been in a similar situation? If so, what made you fully believe and silenced that voice? Any comments or advice would be welcome. I know that I haven't expressed this very well so I hope it makes some sense!
Thank you in advance,
Claire
ps I hope this is in the right section! Sorry if it's not.