am i evil

[Serenityriver]

I am worried that i am evil.
I lied to my husband about having other personalizes and he found out and was very understanding about it
I feel that i live in a fantasy world most of the time and the personalizes helped me feel like i could cope with things outside my fantasy like issues like flashbacks from abuse and going outside the house witch is really hard for me
I feel that am evil because i let it go on for years and that i didnt stop to think how it was effecting my husband making him worry about me and the personalizes
I had to tell him about it because things were beginning to fall apart
and that i couldnt keep lying to him
My dr says i have Psychosis and that it was part of my delusions
but i think its because i am evil or that i am possessed by a evil demon because i use to practice wicca.
i dont know what to do about this i feel i have to punish myself in some way because of this

 

[Romans 8.28]

Dear Serenityriver, I'm new here also and so I have no idea if I'm correct in responding to your question in this area, but I'll give it a shot.

I am worried that I am evil.

I lied to my husband about having other personalizes.

I don't know what to do about this I feel I have to punish myself in some way because of this.

I'm do not understand what you are talking about when you say "Personalizes," but regardless of its meaning your conscience is harmed by it and indeed will keep you from going to God for His help.

We are told in 1 John 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

We read in Hebrews 4:16, "Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need." Take your burdens to the Lord and leave them there is a song we sing.

Next you must believe it. Psalms 103:12 "As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us."

In dealing with some with similar symptoms as you describe if not medical, their faith was not where it should be and that is something you can gain through taking in the word of God. Romans 10:17. "So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God," and then 2 Peter 3:18 tells us to "Grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ."

May God show you His perfect will for your life in the precious name of our Lord Jesus.

 

[Serenityriver]

i mean personalties like someone with multipliable personality disorder
were they have more than one personality eg one that is child like or one that is male and one that is female

 

[Romans 8.28]

I mean personalties like someone with multipliable personality disorder
were they have more than one personality eg one that is child like or one that is male and one that is female.

Well since you're seeing a doctor I would certainly advise continuing. In addition to that, the day you forgive yourself as God already has if you took your problem to Him, you will find great peace. There is a saying, and that is that we may be able to live with the consequence of something we have done, or not done, but we cannot live with the guilt of it. Go to God with it and seek His help; there is no far land we can retreat to or withdraw from Him that He will not welcome us back. Check out Luke 15:11-32 concerning the prodigal son. God loves you.

 

[PrayerWarr1or]

Devil's Magick

Hey Serenity, evil is correct. We are actually all evil naturally and that is the very reason Christ died for our sins.


Matthew 14:14 When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them and healed their sick.

Jesus is the key here, know that Jesus takes compassion on all of us and longs to heal us by washing all those evil things away which we have done. He; also above, shows that there is not medical condition nor anything in this world that beyond his ability to heal. Im not saying that God ever promised to heal us physically but never underestimate the power of prayer.

God Bless
Casey Vermin

 

[Brighthouse]

Dear Serenityriver, I am not a doctor,I am just a believer who has seen much,When Jesus found me,I was in a mop closet in College,I had been in a coven, started way back in 1966 by Anton Levey now deceased.

My special gift from the Lord is helping those who were once in any kind of occult bondage. Some of those who have fooled around with the enemy like you,have even lost track of time during one of these changes.I do not know if you have or not,but I am aware that some have.

If you believe something is controling you,and that you do not have any control,during one of these changes then you are probably correct.You have a problem. I would find a good bible based church in your area,find a good Pastor who understands the spirit world is even more real then ours,and through Jesus,because to be honest with you,that is the only way to be totaly free,become free indeed. You yourself are not the problem,it is the entitys.You fault like mine,was giving the devil an oppertinity( eph 4:27) Because you have gone through so much,believe me I know!!

Jesus understands you!!AND!! yes He LOVES YOU! Let him give you the love you have been running from most of your life.It took me till 24 before I stopped running,and I sure am glad I did! You will be to! I want you to know something.We here, which are part of the part of the Body of Christ love you to!Because reading scripture may be hard for you,I want to share something with you that comes from Jesus in me.Jesus loved you so much,that he sent his only Son,to not just die for you,but he is the only person to have been dead for 3 days,and come forth on his own! The devil himself could not hold him!! NOR!! though Jesus can he even keep hold of you!John 3:16 is not just a verse from the Bible,it is a fact from the Bible! My prayers are with you. YOU have GREAT WORTH!! If you are trembling as you read this,I understand,and you know what?? so do they! Hold onto this scripture and say it outloud when you feel a change taking place.Luke 10:19 which says,behold I give YOU authority to tred on serpents and scorpions and OVER ALL the Power of the enemy!! and NOTHING by any means shall injure you! We will always do what we most want to do.With this in mind,let Jesus take you life,you will not be sorry!! Blessing.

 

[sharen]

praying for you.

 

[PhoenixRising]

Serenityriver,

Just one very vital question to you, are you saved? Have you confessed your sins, repented of them and accepted Jesus as your Lord and Saviour?

That's the key. If you're not saved, you'll simply be spinning your wheels and everyone trying to help you with words and scripture will be doing the same.

A born-again child of the almighty God cannot, repeat, cannot be possesed by demons. They may throw their darts at you relentlessly, but they can never be inside you. As a child of the most High, the Holy Spirit dwells within you and demons cannot occupy the same space as God's precious and Holy Spirit.