Angry...

[Knight1]

Need prayer for family. Single parent with two kids, that have all but
seen the fires of hell! Been a christian for over 20 years. Have seen more
than our share of abuse, injustice(that's the big one) betrayal. I know the
Lord, I know his Word and his promises. Can't hold on anymore.
I'm tired, I'm angry and ticked off at the injustices that just seem to keep
coming at us WITH NO END IN SIGHT!!!!

I'm tired of crying, tired of fighting, tired of waiting, tired of holding on!!!
I think if someone else tells me to hang on and God will do something, I'm
gonna SCREAM!!!!

Where is OUR PROTECTION, OUR VINDICATION, OUR HELP, OUR JUSTICE!!!!!
IT HAS BEEN WAY TO MANY YEARS AND AFTER TODAY I JUST CAN'T HOLD ON ANYMORE!!!
EVERYTHING IN ME WANTS TO JUST SAY FORGET IT, I'M FINISHED, I QUIT!!! IF THIS IS WHAT IT IS TO BE CHRISTIAN...I QUIT!!!

BETWEEN THE INJUSTICE OF THE COURTS, THE SODOMY OF MY KIDS, THE DRUNK EX WHO BEATS UP MY KID AND THEN MAKES IT LOOK LIKE IT'S MY KID'S FAULT, TO AROGANT POLICE WHO BELIEVE YOU ARE GUILTY BEFORE PROVEN INNOCENT, TO CHILDREN WHO ARE TIRED AND WANT TO KNOW WHEN GOD IS GOING TO DO SOMETHING AFTER ALL THIS TIME OR IS HE GONNA WAIT TILL WE ARE DEAD TO MOVE ON OUR BEHALF!!!! I'M OUT OF ANSWERS, OUT OF PRAYERS, OUT OF TEARS, I CAN'T ENCOURAGE MYSELF IN THE LORD ANYMORE. I AM A WOMAN OF SCORN. WE ARE SO BEATEN DOWN WE CANNOT EVEN SEE UP OR EVEN LOOK UP ANYMORE.
I AM FINISHED!!!!!

SWEET JESUS PLEASE HELP ME...I JUST CAN'T HOLD ON ANYMORE. WHERE ARE YOU???????????
THAT ONE SMALL THREAD I WAS HOLDING ON TO HAS BROKEN, SO I AM FALLING INTO YOU, I HAVE NOWHERE ELSE TO GO!

WITH THE EXCEPTION OF THE SODOMY OF MY CHILDREN, I HAVE NEVER
BEEN SO HEARTBROKEN OR FELT SO LOST!!!!
I KNOW YOUR THERE, I JUST CAN'T FIND YOU!!!!

Forgive me Lord, I'm tired. I have been helping others and trying not to keep my mind on my own problems, but this is just out of control!
The only thing that comes to mind is that our breakthrough is here.
It always gets really dark before the dawn. Oh Jesus, please let the day be here!

 

[ladylovesJesus]

God longs to hear us say I give it all to You. I cannot do it. Then He can take over and lead you out of this despair.

Don't Quit!
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but do not quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,

And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
by Quinton Howell

Father I pray that You will make Yourself known to this dear lady and show her that You are holding her in the palm of Your hands. Help her to find You and stick close to You. You are her protector, her guide, her helper. Give her Your perfect peace and I pray that You will do a mighty miracle in this situation. Only You know her heart and her situation as You know all things. When we cry out to You I know that You hear our cry and reach down to help us up. This is a desperate cry to You Lord to help her in this predicament so I pray that she will see You at work in her life and in her children in Jesus' name and for His glory amen.

God bless you sister Keep the faith, without Jesus we are nothing.

LLJ :rainbow: :rose:

 

[Chad]

I will pray for you sister. Quitting will not solve your issues. Just try (if you have not) surrending your entire self to Jesus and He will take over. GOD is Sovereign and GOD is perfect in His justice.

 

[Dreamer]

Knight1, Jesus is Lord. And I hear you...I hear you loud and clear, sister....you may not believe it, but I've been through similar.

My child was sodomized too. And no one listened, nor did they believe me. If they had listened, maybe they would have believed. Satan seemed to have shut their ears?

However, it is has been 10 years now and things are finally getting better. I did lose my oldest son through this, and it was not fair. But God allowed it for some reason. I miss my son very much and talk to him every day now on MSN. He is 19; He will be 20 soon! I also have a beautiful 14 year old daughter who lives with me and a new 2 year old son, as I remarried 3 years ago.

I pray that God will zoom you through this horrible ordeal! And that soon you will come to some light at the end of this dark, dark tunnel and experience peace, light, hope, strength, wisdom, and SECURITY in you and your childrens' lives! This is my sincere prayer for you.

Sister, I hope that I can be of support to you. My heart goes out to you; and I will be praying for you today. Please get in contact with me through a pm; I would love to be your friend.

Yours in Christ,
Dreamer

 

[rizen1]

Jesus is Lord

Heavenly father I bring this family to you, for only you know the pain they are in.

Hear her cries Lord, comfort her, bring the right people into her lives Lord.
Lord you've promise to be our strong tower, our protector, Lord you said you'd be our provider.

Lord show your promises to her today Lord, break the chains of bondage, remove the family curses. Restore that house for your temple. Remove all idols and falsehood. Allow her and her family to stand in your truth.

In your precious name Lord, let your will be done. Stop the pain now Lord, catch her tears, protect them with your shield. Lord you see and know everything, even though justice can not be seen today. Lord I know your judgement will fall.

I plead the blood of Jesus upon each member of that family, take control of their lives remove the pain and the shame. Cast out the anger and give her peace.

Have mercy on your children.
Amen

 

[Knight1]

Thank you for your prayers. I know that quitting is not the answer. It has been three years since the sodomy of my children(a second time by different men)It is just that none of the men that sexually abused my kids were their dad, it was my nanny. My ex and his abuse of them while drunk has been going on for years. The courts have not stopped it(long story) and now my oldest is 16 1/2, and my youngest 13 1/2, the neighborhood that I just had to move back to because my sister died on March 4, 2007(took care of her for years because she was terminally ill, and lived with her for the last 6 months of her life)is a powder keg of loud mouth gossips, foul mouth teens,
cops on bicycles with attitudes thinking every teen is a potential jail bird, it is awful. Have been looking for work for last two months with no success, no car, no nothing. It has been an uphill battle for so long. Always something major going on to test our faith. Our life reads like a bad novel.
But, we have seen victories, I have held on to Jesus and our ministry with both hands, and God's strength. I know the devil want's to stop us in our tracks. HE IS A LIER!! I know we are called, chosen. But I also know that hard times are hard times, and we must be real in dealing with them. You do not have to have a relationship with the Lord that is taxed to have trouble. You can be right with the Lord and be tested. I am not a novice to spiritual warfare, however we are living in the end times. The Word says, "Darkness will cover the earth, and gross darkness the people, but my light will arise and shine upon you.
I know the Lord will work it out for good, but I'm human and I'm tired.
Too many things going on all at once. I have put it all in God's hands. I'm still here right?!
We just need some prayer support, that's all. Thank you all for your prayers.

 

[justin1979]

Praying intently for you and your children, Knight1. Read Psalm 121. Speak it out loud. Speak it against any evil that is attempting to divide you from God's will. You and your loved ones are in my heart and prayers.