You want to hear something stupid? I think I'm addicted to anxiety. Isn't that crazy? Well, I think I am.
Maybe that's an oversimplification. But what would you call it? When there's nothing looming in the near future that threatens me, I keep checking anyway. Like a bad tooth thats been pulled, you keep putting your tongue there, as though you miss the thing thats been causing you pain. Well, I do the same thing with lifes challenges. Whats worse is that I seem to be motivated by this anxiety! I catch myself slacking with responsibilities because they're not yet urgent....then I take care of them in a panic. I have had times when I've been totally content...and abuse that peace with irresponsible behavior, basking in comfort. I wonder if I'm not "Crisis Oriented"...or missing some internal trigger that would allow me to accept the contentment the Lord provides, while leading a productive life without pushing the bounderies.
I know the Lord doesn't want me to fear Earthly things. I just need to learn how to live without anxiety.(I hate to say it, but I think I might actually miss anxiety when there's none in my life.) Isn't that stupid?
Maybe that's an oversimplification. But what would you call it? When there's nothing looming in the near future that threatens me, I keep checking anyway. Like a bad tooth thats been pulled, you keep putting your tongue there, as though you miss the thing thats been causing you pain. Well, I do the same thing with lifes challenges. Whats worse is that I seem to be motivated by this anxiety! I catch myself slacking with responsibilities because they're not yet urgent....then I take care of them in a panic. I have had times when I've been totally content...and abuse that peace with irresponsible behavior, basking in comfort. I wonder if I'm not "Crisis Oriented"...or missing some internal trigger that would allow me to accept the contentment the Lord provides, while leading a productive life without pushing the bounderies.
I know the Lord doesn't want me to fear Earthly things. I just need to learn how to live without anxiety.(I hate to say it, but I think I might actually miss anxiety when there's none in my life.) Isn't that stupid?