At warr with myself?

[Sheep]

Hi everybody.

I'm about to start with counseling at my church this friday.

I just want to know if anyone experienced this before? I am constantly in warr with myself. Mostly it goes like a rolercoaster. One minute I'm very happy with all that lives and the happiness and love of God really flows through me. I'm at peace.

But the next moment. I am at warr with myself. I tend to think I'm not good enough or on worst days I even hate myself (please forgive me Jesus). I always want to fix myself or change myself the way that God wants me to be and do the things God wants me to do. I'm mybe trying too hard.

But now I realize that I must let go and let God. But to forgive myself, to let go of my own throaght is the hardest thing to do ever. I really struggle with it and to be honest, I feel alone in this - because its something only I can do, I feel as if there is no help from above - but I do know beter. I know Jesus is helping me. But why do I feel so alone in this?

I've been fighting with myself since I can remember. Why is it so hard to except myself? To love myself the way God loves me? Its so simple to other people, but its very difficult for me.

I don't have a problem to love others. I love with my hole heart and the moment someone find out about my struggle, they can believe it. But I tend to think low of myself and that everyone is better than me. They deserve more to be loved than me.

Does anyone have an answer or maybe went through the same thing?

I've shared this with Brother Brighthouse and he is helping me allot on this, but I really need to find out if anyone else feels like this. For if I get a solution, I can always share the victory to help someone else.

 

[Fraction]

I have experienced something like this before, maybe not exactly though.

The first thing that you need to try to do is relax. Know that everything that has happened in the bible enables us to not worry. It gives us that right.

The most important thing is that you believe in God. You have accepted him into your life. You have given faith into him to do what must be done. You are saved, no more need to worry.

The next important thing to know is that no one is perfect. Once saved we are the closest thing to perfect that we are going to get. We will continue to sin. We will give into temptation. God knows this, this is why Jesus Christ died for us. So we CAN be forgiven at the drop of a hat. The moment we ask for it.

You are right, it is so simple for others and for others it is NOT easy. It wasn't easy for me. I am still struggling.

Continue to pray for help, continue to ask. You not only have to ask, but you need to put faith into the fact that god WILL help you and change you in his own way. We cannot do it alone, we are only human.

When you combine all of this together to find comfort, faith, and happiness. You will be okay. Things will change. It will get easier over time.

Pray and have faith. Know that its okay and its normal to struggle in all forms. Ask and Believe that god will help you, and it will happen.

Know that life is actually a war. It's not going to be easy, and at times it might seem impossible. It will all eventually be okay though. It's like having a goal in life with a reward at the end you desire. It might be really hard to complete that goal, but the end reward is worth it! The closer you are to god, the easier things will be and the more he'll be able to make you stronger.

You're never alone, dont forget.

 

[Sheep]

Your words make sence to me. Thank you for your compation brother. I can see in your writing that you talk with experience.

May our Father bless you for your help. I will try to do what you say - relax and know that I belong to Jesus and He is working on the problem on His own good time.

 

[j_sp]

Healing and Deliverance

Sheep,

It's normal to go through this and I am happy to hear that you are going to some counseling at your church. I believe that you will learn some things as you walk through this, which will help you understand what you're dealing with, and once you know that you can go to the Lord in prayer on how to overcome it. Grow in learning to hear God's voice (or being led by the Spirit), and when you allow this to occur and obey Him in His leading; this IS where the power comes from - HIM. He can help you overcome this. The whole reason Jesus came and died on the cross was so that He could actually reveal to us how to go about it by and through Him. He left His Holy Spirit to help guide us along to walk away from the sinful nature.

Paul said to work out our salvation with fear and trembling (Philippians 2:12). There is a process of walking it through. The more you walk led by Him, His Spirit, the more you walk away from sin and into the nature of Christ Jesus. It sounds like the Lord is taking you on a journey of healing and deliverance (sanctification - 1Thes. 5:19-24; Lev. 11:44; 1Pet. 1:16). Allow Him to remove all that is not of Him from the beginning and do His healing work as the Healer that He is and see how truly powerful the work of the cross is and can be (Gal. 6:11-18). Perfection in the Lord is holiness, not as the world sees it. You become holy as He is holy, by the leading of the Spirit of God (John 16:13; 1John 2:27). The more you walk in the Spirit's leading, the more you walk away from the sinful nature of your old man and into the new nature in Christ - God's will which is perfection (1John 2:1-6).

I have gone through deliverance and healing with the Lord and understand it's importance. We were born sinners, but God brought His Son forth to give us an example on how to overcome it (through the leading of the Father - 1Cor. 15:12-58)). And He left His Holy Spirit after He ascended in order that we too can be led out of temptation and into true freedom in Christ Jesus (John 14:9-21).

I can suggest a book to look into getting which may help you along with this process, in addition to the counseling that you'll be involved in. It's called, "Transforming the Inner Man," by John Loren and Paula Sandford. I believe this may explain further the process you're undergoing in this hour. Don't be discouraged, be encouraged in the Lord - for He is about to do His good work in you...to set you free indeed as this is what He truly died for! Praise Him for His mercy in this hour.

j_sp

 

[Sheep]

Thank you so mucc brother j_sp

I wrote down all your scriptures and will read and meditate on them. Thank you for your advice and the wisdom of Jesus you shared with me.
My counseling begins tomorrow, please pray with me that the person counseling will allow the Holy Spirit to lead her in full motion and that the devil will have no place there while my healing is in progress.

May our Father bless you

 

[brooke_marie]

(This is my first time replying to a thread, so forgive me if it's a little rough )

I can relate to this post very much. Some days I feel stronger and ready to take on the challenges in front of me. I want to help people, mainly young girls, but there is a long road in front of me before I am at the point where I can work in full-time ministry. The reason I am so led to help others is because of my own struggles.

I've always had a hard time with accepting myself for who I am, from outwardly to inwardly. I've known Christ personally since I was a little girl, but I always struggled with accepting that I'm worth something. To be honest, I went so far in hating myself as to attempt suicide...twice. God saved me both times and through all the dangerous situations I put myself through...because He loved me.

The Lord knows everything. He knew you and I before time. He had us designed, from looks to personality, before we were born. When He died on the cross, He was thinking of you and I...personally. If the God of the universe finds me worth dying for than what other opinions truly matter, including my own?

The thoughts of worthlessness are lies from the Devil. Once he knows a weakness, he will continue to use it as a tool to pull you down. But God is stronger than his lies!

The Bible refers to the mind in Romans 12:2 - "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." The Bible talks of not giving into the pattern of this world. He speaks of transforming ourselves by renewing our minds. But how do we renew our minds? Retraining our thinking.

When a thought from the Devil comes into my mind, I have to correct myself. You can't control what comes in and out of your mind. The Devil tempts through the mind. Temptation isn't a sin. It's when we give into the temptation. When a thought comes in from the Devil, we seize it and correct it with Scripture.

When I mess up, I tend to think - "Jeez, Brooke, you'll never change. Do you always have to ruin everything?"

That's a temptation from the Devil. I have to correct myself after that comes into my mind, by replacing the lies of the Devil with Scripture and standing against him in the blood of Christ.

Sometimes I have to outwardly respond, "No, Satan. I won't let you take me down again. The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 5:17 'Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.' I don't have to be tied down to the mistakes of my past!"

When Jesus was tempted in the desert by Satan, He used Scripture to resist temptation. As our example, I believe we should do the same. Satan continued to hassle Jesus for awhile, sometimes even perverting Scripture to use against Him, but Jesus held firm in His faith.

I encourage you to continue fighting the lies of the Devil, because God is with you in this and will pull you through with His strength. It does get easier with time when it comes to retraining your way of thinking. A way that I've found that helps is when I read Scripture to use my name to make it personal. Example of Galations 2:20 - "Brooke has been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer Brooke who lives, but Christ living in her. That life whichBrooke now lives in the flesh, she lives by faith in the Son of God, who loved Brooke, and gave Himself up for her." There are sites for personalized Scripture to make it easier.

I hope this helps some. God bless.

 

[Brighthouse]

Sister Sheep! In all gentleness,and kindness do i show you something. Rom 12:3 For through the grace given to me( or you) I say to everyone among you, do not think more highly of yourself then you ought to think so as to have sound judgment as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. Now.

WE are not to think to little of ourselves as we ought either! For in the loss of our hope who is Jesus within us,we loss faith,there by losing confidence in Jesus in us, to preform that which we so need in him! We do this because we want to always stay humble in Jesus.This is never bad! BUT!! staying humbles is not thinking to little or to much of ourselves in what we ourselves can handle. BALANCE!!( proverbs 11:1)Thinking or dwelling on the bad aspects of ourselve never can help us,Jesus says you are forgiven, we say this as well,yet go and beat ourselves all up,and by the time we are done!! Our hope has gone! HOPE!!

To me other then love being number one, hope is with no question number 2 above faith!, above works! For without hope,we can have no faith,and with no faith, no action on which we can truly measure ourselves to the Word of God!

Please consider this,for you already know this is true in your life,even as they has been so true in my own life! So how can we keep this? Rom 15;13 says NOW meaning as of today! may the God of hope fill you( forever filled that is!) with all joy and peace in what?? amen!! BELIEVING!! we just cannot believe without the hope of doing so! so that! you will abound in HOPE by the power of the Holy Spirit!

As a man thinks within himself so is he!( proverbs 23:7) Proverbs 24:27 Prepare your work outside AND make it ready for yourself in the field:HOPE! and with this!! Afterwards then!!!! build your house! Could we in Christ ever start a house we had no hope to finish?

Of course not! HOPE! brings faith which is believing as we preform the works needed to build our house in Jesus! We know we fall short! We know that without Jesus we can do nothing! Let yourself keep HOPE! this is our battle daily! eph 6:12 our struggle is not against flesh and blood but against the rulers,not people we serve!! (OUR MIND!) against the powers,against the world forces of this darkness,(those people who we meet that say there is no hope!)

That is why we must even be so careful in what we hear!! ( mark 4:24!) words have great power! May this help clear your mind,and give your mind what all our minds so need daily!! HOPE!! And we can keep this only as we continue looking to our Jesus!! amen!! Thank you Jesus for YOUR!!! WISDOM!! 1 Cor 1:30 and 1 Cor 2:16!!)

 

[Sheep]

Thank you for your reply's.

I'm finished with my counselling sessions and feeling much much better. God released me from the cage and broke my chains to forever be free. If the Son sets you free, you are free indeed.

After this happened, I truly know now what the word free means. In the counselling sessions. God healed me form allot of things - emotional and physical. And the most amazing thing of all. He end it with a promise - He promised me something. Something very amazing. And I'm waiting upon that promise with all I have.

I never felt like this before. Normally I'm a person that loves allot - but now, its really different. I overflow with love and I have so much love to give.

Trials, tribulations and temptations is still there yes. But they are much easier to overcome. I do also make mistakes here and there and ask forgiveness but hey, God loves me and He is looking at me through Jesus now, I'm clean in His eyes and I experience Him more as a loving Father now, love that will never be explained - kinda frustrating I must say.

I believe sin separates us form God and my sin and the sin of my forefather was forgiven. I've asked for forgiveness at counselling and I also forgave allot of people as well as myself. Since then. I can't tell you in words on what level I experience God - mind blowing!!!

He is still working peace and patience inside of me though. Coz with me, everything should have already happened yesterday I think that will take time. And I'm also trying.

Anyway, just thought I should let you know on how my progress in Christ is going

May our Lord Jesus Christ be with you, bless you and keep you in His loving arms forever. Amen.

Sheep
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