bad time

[Eve]

I don't just feel I am hideously ugly, fat and stupid I know it. I'm not worth anything let alone salvation. I feel like a blanket of darkness is descending on me, I've prayed but .... it doesn't make a difference I'm a mess and it's an ongoing thing. These feelings always return after a time with avengeance. I could kick myself a thousand times for feeling this way. I just need some advice something positive I can do to stop me thinking about my problems.

GB

Eve

 

[Faithful Son]

Hello Eve,
I read and keep reading your replys to other people regarding their problems and concerns. You are a wonderful person and I doubt with my whole being that you are those nasty things. I could quote a Bible verse and tell you to stay strong, but I have problems finding verses to help people when they feel this way. Your posts are filled with wisdom and regard for your fellow man, you talk about the love between you and your husband, you talk about him like you really love him. I'm 22 years old and that tells me alot about you as a person.

You are worth salvation, you are worth more than you know at present. I feel like you do many days. The fact remains that I know who I believe in. I believe in the Son of God, Jesus Christ Lord and Saviour. Just think about what He went through at the crucifiction, think about what He goes through when His own child says " I am not worth salvation ".

You are worth the world, and I don't know what motivation or positiveness I could give you, except that you are a wonderful person. Jesus loves you and I enjoy your fellowship on TalkJesus

 

[Dreamer]

Eve, I too see you as a perky, upbeat person who has regard for other people. Your posts are encouraging, even witty at times. (I have read some of your journal. You are a wonderful writer.)

You also are a peacemaker. And Jesus said, "Blessed are the peacemakers," so I know you are blessed.

It could be that you are under attack from the enemy right now. Very possible?

I am going to be praying for you.

 

[Snowrose]

Well said Teraside.

Hello Eve, Like Teraside I see your heart in your postings and it is beautiful.

In I Samuel 16 when Samuel was looking among Jesse's sons to be annointed and the Lord told him in verse 7 - "The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." You have a good heart Eve and you are as precious silver. And like Teraside said "You are worth salvation".

Focus on how much God loves you and you will see how beautiful you really are. God bless you Eve.

Lots of love,
Snowrose

PS. I too will keep you in my prayers.

 

[Eve]

Thank you

Thank you for your kind words,

Thank you all. There are more used tissues on my computer desk at the moment than Jesus had loaves of bread! I'm going to go before I start crying again it means a lot to know I am not alone.

GB

Eve

 

[Angelwave]

heya...awwww its ok we all feel like you do somtimes...yes!all of us no matter how beautiful, nicely shaped or clever we are...and just so you know you are all of the things I just listed and none of the ones you did. There are always things and people that are horrible in this world but there are also your friends...the ones that are always there for you...always doing what they think is best no matter how hurtful, to them or you, these are the ones you seek advice from....but just remember their wise words of wisdom that draw a smile upon your face are sent by the great lord himself directly to you from someone you wish to listen to...you may feel you prayers are being ignored...but this is not true, God loves us all equaly no matter how many wrongs you have commited he will always be there waiting for you to seek forgiveness! As for a solution to your problems: try arranging special treats with your friends, a shopping trip always helps me, maybe a sport or a pamper day but most helpful of all...TALK TO GOD!you can talk in the way you feel is most confortable perhaps though a song or poem even a story if you feel prayer is not working...REMEMBER...we love you and so does god...and a long as you never forget that you will be fine...think happy!
lots and lots of love your loving(although I might not always show it)daughter
ANGELWAVE!
I LOVE YOU!

 

[Eve]

Thank you Anglewave,

How about going on that pamper day this week, my treat? We'll have some smiles together.

God Bless you and keep you safe

Mum XXXXXXXXXXXXX

:girl: :girl_hug:

 

[Angelwave]

your welcome that pamper day sounds amazing and just what you deserve! we could go shopping too...i promise i will let you buy things...we can discuss when later...I think they will be the things best suited to us!
please may God understand and help!God bless
ANGELWAVE! :kiss:x.mmmwwwwwaaaahhh.x:kiss:

 

[Eve]

an explanation

:embarasse Thank you,

I had been sleep deprived for several days mostly due to my bad hayfever, and the weather has been hot and overbearing at night, so much so I was finding it very difficult to breath (not typically what we are used to in England).

It was preventing me from sleeping, my routine was recked, which brought on my insomnia, which in turn brings my spirit down so much that it affects my depresion and then that tends to spiral down and it all gets quite bad.

All my insecurities come up to the surface big time. I am starting to recognise the signs and realise that I am not thinking straight when it gets bad but I quite often feel like it is a runaway train without any brakes. I don't know what is real and what isn't and it gets quite scary. I am starting to recognise that my feelings and thoughts are so intense that they don't make sense and so contradictory of how I normally think and that is when I try to ask for help. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed that I couldn't cope with it on my own but when I'm feeling so low I sometimes get desperate. :embarasse

Some mother, daughter bonding time was just what I needed Angelwave as I have felt as you are getting older and you are going off with friends so much that we had began to drift apart. Seeing your post on here really helped to cheer me up, just like when you used to leave little notes around the house for me, so thank you.

Thank you to all of you for your kind words and for helping me weather my imotional storm. I took a hayfever tablet before I went to sleep and slept on the sofa downstairs where there is more air and it is a bit cooler. I woke at 1 am to a commotion in the bathroom from my son. He slept in our bed and I continued my sleep in my bed and only woke four times during the night and managed to get back to sleep quite quickly each time. Although, my face is rather swollen I am feeling much better this morning.

Although, I know that my anxiety and attacks of depression will return, I am just feeling relief, thanks and fortune that my torture is over.

I'm sorry my feelings spilled out into TJ as I don't want my problems to affect anyone else or bring them down in anyway.

God Bless you all

Eve

 

[Dreamer]

I love you, and I am glad you opened up. There is nothing wrong with asking for prayer. Everyone has bad days and bad times sometimes. When you are open with your brothers and sisters in Christ, it leaves you open to have compassion on others, once your spirit has quieted. People will trust you because you are honest and don't pretend everything is all right....when it isn't. I am so glad you are feeling better!:girl: :girl_hug:

 

[Nigh]

I would no sooner call you (or anyone) those things than enter into the potters shop and tell him his cups are shaped wrong, or that his bowl wasn't made the way I wanted. It is not for US that we are made, but for the POTTER who made us. So, He made you just like He wanted to. Therefor, you are perfect!

When the potter finished forming you, he puts you in the fire to ensure that you will be strong and not bend. Then after you cool a bit, he may well paint you, and put a glaze on you and fire you yet again. Now, the time that you spend being fired, is not pleasant, but it is just a small amount of time in relation to eternity isn't it? Also a good potter knows exactly how much time you need in the furnace to make you just the way He wants. The Lord is not going to over-fire you. He knows how much you can take.

Remember that you are made exactly the way the Creator wants you. You are perfect, and He loved you sooo much that He gave His only begotten son for you. You.

And we love you too.

God bless you,
Nigh

 

[Eve]

Thanks Dreamer, Nigh and all my brothers and sisters here,

I love you all too :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:

I don't know about a perfect pot Nigh, I think I'm slightly cracked!:icon_lol:

God Bless

Eve

 

[anthony]

Dear Ev,

Please i Request you that don't tell anthing Negative frist thing that your are a creater of God that means you have a power and atrotiy to Band the Devils power the BiB say that in Mathew what Band in Heaven it will do and you will open it be. So I requst you that please Band all the devils power.

Anthony.

 

[rlowe]

2things To: EVE & ALL STUGGLING with SELF WORTH

1> God found you worth dying for.
Are you ready & willing to say He was wrong?

2> A Christian singer named Stormie Omartian, once told her friend & later
wrote a song saying: you're not worth it, I'm not worth it, who is?
"But if you've got Jesus in your heart & you love Him so, that's all I need to know ... I'm believing for the best in you. ..."
"For where there's Jesus, there's hope."

Also, if you need a pick-me-up, read the Bible story of "the Parable of the Lost Son" in Luke 15:11-32, with the perspective that each of the saved, have at one or more times, been that "son" & that "the father" is our spiritual Daddy, Abba Father.

Quote portions from "Michael & Stormie Omartian, Mainstream" -cassette tape, Sparrow Records, Inc. 1982 or NIV

 

[Eve]

Thanks Rlowe,

I will take a look.

God Bless

Eve

 

[CliffS]

A potter made two pitchers to carry water the long distance from the well to the house. One was beautiful to behold and the other while beautiful was flawed and leaked.

Every day the potter would take the two pitchers to the well and fill them.
And every day when he retured home the one pitcher was empty.

And the empty pitcher cryed out "Why oh Why am I made this way" "Why oh why must I always be empty before my maker?"
I am of no use, why continue to carry me so????

The potter took the the two pitchers again to the well.
This time however as he retured to the house he showed the leaking pitcher all the beautiful flowers that had grown along the path from the dropped water.

The potter told the pitcher
"It is not the beauty or perfection of yourself that I cherish, but the much greater beauty that you bring to the path by your imperfection."

Eve,

You've watered a lot of flowers in this forum. Made paths much more pleasant to walk. That is were your beauty is. That's why God made you the way you are.

As for being cracked
All of us are leakers in one way or another. It's just that some are too tight cracked to let anything go LOL

 

[Eve]

Oh that's a lovely story, thanks CliffS.

It gives my cracked, leaky existence some meaning! lol

Good luck with the fishing!

God Bless

Eve

 

[christian 19]

message for eve

EVE please feel free to pm me , I want to help ,in any way I can , I hope you are ok , and remember god loves you .