Soul Language
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Does god reveal his judgements of a disobedient christian to other obedient christians?
I live in a shelter and am almost out and on my own.
I currently have 16 days sober after a recent fall which resulted in me still being in the shelter. I was working this job and after awhile I had enough money saved but had some anger towards god (because I'm shy and cant communicate to people) and decided to go out and get a motel room and get drunk. Then I felt so dead that I decided to extend the motel room another week and went on a 7 day benger. I came back to the mission with absolutely nothing. I'm lucky I found another job within 3 days and have been working for two weeks now.
The reason I ask this question is because:
I only told one person about my fall. This man who approached me before I slipped. who is in the mission assistance program. He claims to have the gift of prophecy, which I dont know what to think of. I met with him and he says I have done alot of bad things in my life. He says he can look into my soul through my eyes. He says that Im under a generational curse. He says that I have a legion of demons... but in all he can't tell me whats wrong with me because god won't let him.
Also in the shelter during dinner I glance around and see eyes locked on to me, looking at me as if I'm a wicked person! I walked in the other day and noticed that the pastor was talking about me "That kid" as he was looking at me.
The staff treats me like I'm wicked. Infact, everyone treats me like Im wicked. I dont know why. I'm quiet person. I don't talk to anyone. Because I have social anxiety. And nobody ever comes up to talk to me.
I have the desire to do good and believe that god can make me not shy anymore. I JUST HATE IT HERE because I feel hated! Somebody help please.
I live in a shelter and am almost out and on my own.
I currently have 16 days sober after a recent fall which resulted in me still being in the shelter. I was working this job and after awhile I had enough money saved but had some anger towards god (because I'm shy and cant communicate to people) and decided to go out and get a motel room and get drunk. Then I felt so dead that I decided to extend the motel room another week and went on a 7 day benger. I came back to the mission with absolutely nothing. I'm lucky I found another job within 3 days and have been working for two weeks now.
The reason I ask this question is because:
I only told one person about my fall. This man who approached me before I slipped. who is in the mission assistance program. He claims to have the gift of prophecy, which I dont know what to think of. I met with him and he says I have done alot of bad things in my life. He says he can look into my soul through my eyes. He says that Im under a generational curse. He says that I have a legion of demons... but in all he can't tell me whats wrong with me because god won't let him.
Also in the shelter during dinner I glance around and see eyes locked on to me, looking at me as if I'm a wicked person! I walked in the other day and noticed that the pastor was talking about me "That kid" as he was looking at me.
The staff treats me like I'm wicked. Infact, everyone treats me like Im wicked. I dont know why. I'm quiet person. I don't talk to anyone. Because I have social anxiety. And nobody ever comes up to talk to me.
I have the desire to do good and believe that god can make me not shy anymore. I JUST HATE IT HERE because I feel hated! Somebody help please.