Hey guys. I know i dont really write alot here but i was hoping you would give me some advice anyway...
When i was young like 14-15 i met a girl. I went trough heaven and hell with her during the coming 5 years. And I'm talking emotional roller coaster. We broke up several times but ended up with each other again and again and again. Finally we reached the point were school was finished and she would be moving to a different town. So we took the opportunity and said goodbye. This time around we had geography on our side we fought through the first couple of weeks/months and after a while I finally had a life on my own. It wasn't much but most of the time it was enough to hold on to. But even though time went on i couldn't forget about her. It was one of the most natural things to do for me, think about her. So when a year had passed by we stumbled across each other and she told me she had a new boyfriend. I was surprised how hard i took it, it was like i never really confronted the fact that she was gone during the time we didn't meet. However this eventually sunk in and i accepted it and once again i got up on my feet. She moved to Gothenburg (we live in Sweden) and another year passed were we weren't in the same town, so things moved along. This brings us to today.
This Saturday she moved back and there is one couple we often hang out with, their our best friends. So since she moved back this Saturday Ive seen her 2 times. And that's almost the total of times Ive seen her during these past 2 years. So after one night with our friends it turned out the she gave me a ride home. During that ride she asked me how i was and said the she understood that we would met alot more then what we have during the past 2 years. She said that we couldn't pretend like nothing ever happened but that she dint really know what to do about it. Neither did i, so i asked her if she felt like it was all over, like there were no feelings for me at all. She answered that she didn't know. And suddenly the darkness the pain, hell comes crawling up my spine. I feel beaten down to the ground, complete mashed, i cant describe how lonely and pathetic i feel, as if she is the only one i could ever live with. But she has a boyfriend. I don't know how i feel about her. But still this pain takes me over. And i cant have that, I'm crying as I'm writing for no reason. It just feels so helpless to feel the pain of loosing someone, the pain i thought i had gotten over.
I do not know what to do. Should i tell her? That would ruin alot since we have this couple we hang out with alot it would be really stiff. And the people around me including her really thinks I'm over her. I feel like i probably could charm her, i know exactly what buttons to push, but would that be disrespectful to her boyfriend? I don't know what to do, I'm broken and i thought that time was over...
I'm hoping you guys can find it in your hearts to help me even though i rarely help anyone at this forum, im sorry.
Thank you
/Robin
When i was young like 14-15 i met a girl. I went trough heaven and hell with her during the coming 5 years. And I'm talking emotional roller coaster. We broke up several times but ended up with each other again and again and again. Finally we reached the point were school was finished and she would be moving to a different town. So we took the opportunity and said goodbye. This time around we had geography on our side we fought through the first couple of weeks/months and after a while I finally had a life on my own. It wasn't much but most of the time it was enough to hold on to. But even though time went on i couldn't forget about her. It was one of the most natural things to do for me, think about her. So when a year had passed by we stumbled across each other and she told me she had a new boyfriend. I was surprised how hard i took it, it was like i never really confronted the fact that she was gone during the time we didn't meet. However this eventually sunk in and i accepted it and once again i got up on my feet. She moved to Gothenburg (we live in Sweden) and another year passed were we weren't in the same town, so things moved along. This brings us to today.
This Saturday she moved back and there is one couple we often hang out with, their our best friends. So since she moved back this Saturday Ive seen her 2 times. And that's almost the total of times Ive seen her during these past 2 years. So after one night with our friends it turned out the she gave me a ride home. During that ride she asked me how i was and said the she understood that we would met alot more then what we have during the past 2 years. She said that we couldn't pretend like nothing ever happened but that she dint really know what to do about it. Neither did i, so i asked her if she felt like it was all over, like there were no feelings for me at all. She answered that she didn't know. And suddenly the darkness the pain, hell comes crawling up my spine. I feel beaten down to the ground, complete mashed, i cant describe how lonely and pathetic i feel, as if she is the only one i could ever live with. But she has a boyfriend. I don't know how i feel about her. But still this pain takes me over. And i cant have that, I'm crying as I'm writing for no reason. It just feels so helpless to feel the pain of loosing someone, the pain i thought i had gotten over.
I do not know what to do. Should i tell her? That would ruin alot since we have this couple we hang out with alot it would be really stiff. And the people around me including her really thinks I'm over her. I feel like i probably could charm her, i know exactly what buttons to push, but would that be disrespectful to her boyfriend? I don't know what to do, I'm broken and i thought that time was over...
I'm hoping you guys can find it in your hearts to help me even though i rarely help anyone at this forum, im sorry.
Thank you
/Robin
