brokendown

[shagy2303]

I am in that point of my life i am trying to break away from the shell of my self i have been for so many years. I got to the point i was lazy and allowed my self to fail at every thing . i am trying to move past it but the old habits keep sneaking in ninja style and the next thing i know i screwed up again. I am in a fight for my self and a fight to be a man of god. it is hard temptation gets in the way. i may end up screwing up my school because i keep messing up. i have realized i get worse every time i stop making time for god. Honestly my whole house suffers with me cause as i fall again the mood of the house changes. and it affects every one.I keep trying to do everything my self because i dont know any other way. i understand what i have to do but i dont know how to do it. i also feel like i am being called to be a pastor but how can i do that if i cant even keep my self strait. I hate my own weakness. i know i cant do it alone but i also dont know how to let go of control. . im sorry if this confession bothers any one i just have it all pent up and needed to get it out. I feel like i am a failure i have the most powerful person in the universe on my side and i still fail. I am just lost.. It is sad i am a 270lb man that is about to cry at school ... I am tired of being broken ...

PS sorry for block o text

 

[shagy2303]

Every time i make a step forward in my faith i get hit harder by stuf and i am just broken . i am 27 years old trying to go back to school and work and make a new life .

 

[Brad Huber]

Find your favorite scripture that speaks to the situation, and when you feel depressed and ready to give up, say that scripture out loud if possible, but even silent is okay, 20 times, 200 times, 2000 times if nessesary. Replace the bad thought with the good words you are saying from scripture. And step out in faith as you are saying it. The bad feelings will pass eventually as the word of God has POWER for good. Try it brother, I will be praying for you.

 

[stephen]

Dear brother 'shagy' I reach out to you in my heart....and in Jesus.

Find a company of folks who love Jesus, I Would advise. in the love of God

 

[amadeus2]

I am praying with you and for you as well.

 

[T Man]

My prayers and thoughts are with you. I know about falling back into old habits, when ever Satan reminds me of my past or temps me with it, I just remind him of his future. It helped me to focus on Jesus on the cross in so much pain, the whipping he got for the likes of me. But nothing beats the image Jesus gave me so long ago, Jesus showed me it was i with the whip in my hand everytime i sinned. This really did help me turn my face to Him and keep my focus on Him. Meditation and some fastings, start of with one day fasting, just water and meditate on Jesus on the cross, hanging there for you alone, make it personnal, it works. Its all to easy to imagine Jesus and a large group, we just become a number, a grain of sand in a big sand pit. So make it personnal, Jesus is there just for you and make it count. Some say to me they are not worthy, we are worthy Jesus on the cross tells me that, its own sin that gets in the way, so focus on Jesus, focus on Him looking at you when you whip Him with sin, believe me it helps you stay the course.

Praying for you.

 

[NicoleJ]

Romans 8:1 says, "Therefore, there is now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus." Jesus will always love you, and there is nothing you can do to change that. God doesn't ever see us as a failure or a disappointment, because He sees us in Christ. That is also how we are to see ourselves. If we look at ourselves apart from Christ, it's a horrible sight. If we look at ourselves in Christ, it's an incredibly beautiful sight. Jesus isn't mad at you or disappointed in you because you aren't perfect. He died on the Cross for you. When He did, He completely took away your imperfections, and gave you His Perfection freely as a gift. That is how much God wants to be in relationship with you. The next time the enemy tells you horrible things about yourself, you remind yourself out loud about who you are in Christ (Eph. 2:13, Gal. 3:26, 2 Cor. 12:10, and 2 Cor. 2:14 for example). I know what you are talking about when you talk about being in a fight for your life and taking one step forward, and falling two steps back. It has been a long road, but Jesus has rescued me from the torment that I was under, and one day, you will be saying the same. Know that He has already fought for you and won (no matter what it looks like), and that when you are in a battle, it isn't you against the enemy. It is you and Jesus against the enemy, so you can't lose. Victory is inevitable. It's only a matter of time until your circumstances have to bow and confess that Jesus is Lord. In my own life, I have become less sin or self conscious, and more Jesus conscious. That has brought me such freedom from sin and everything else. You may feel weak right now, but Jesus is your strength.

 

[Whitestone]

I am in that point of my life i am trying to break away from the shell of my self i have been for so many years. I got to the point i was lazy and allowed my self to fail at every thing . i am trying to move past it but the old habits keep sneaking in ninja style and the next thing i know i screwed up again. I am in a fight for my self and a fight to be a man of god. it is hard temptation gets in the way. i may end up screwing up my school because i keep messing up. i have realized i get worse every time i stop making time for god. Honestly my whole house suffers with me cause as i fall again the mood of the house changes. and it affects every one.I keep trying to do everything my self because i dont know any other way. i understand what i have to do but i dont know how to do it. i also feel like i am being called to be a pastor but how can i do that if i cant even keep my self strait. I hate my own weakness. i know i cant do it alone but i also dont know how to let go of control. . im sorry if this confession bothers any one i just have it all pent up and needed to get it out. I feel like i am a failure i have the most powerful person in the universe on my side and i still fail. I am just lost.. It is sad i am a 270lb man that is about to cry at school ... I am tired of being broken ...

PS sorry for block o text

(Luk 4:18)
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,