CLEANSE MY MIND! - help

[Mabalot]

As I sit here trying to find the words to express my situation and needs, I don't even know where to begin. My life is a mess. My mind is a mess, My emotions are a mess. I'm going to try to pin point my problems without turning this into a novel.

I guess my biggest problem is ANGER and BAD THOUGHTS.
I have a job I hate, that is very stressful. Please know before we begin
that unless the Lord opens a door for me to get a new job, I cannot quit, otherwise I will be homeless. Jobs where I live here are scarce. There are 5,000 people unemployed right now.

I'm going astray already. Please know I'm trying to find the words here. I try to draw near to the Lord, I try to reach out to him, but am always met with silence. I hate my mind, I have Bad Thoughts, Anger, Cursing, Lust of the Eyes, Lust of the Flesh, Masturbation. I keep telling myself I am going to stop these things, but I ALWAYS end up failing.

I mentioned my job above because that is where I am the weakest,
with Anger and Cursing (sometimes at the Lord) in my mind.
Ive reached out to so many people (not here on this forum) only to be shunned or ignored. I want to be Different. I want to be Clean,
I want to be Sanctified, I want to be Converted, but even praying
seems to change nothing.

I feel so lost. I know and Accept what Jesus did for me on the Cross
as payment for my sins, yet how can I continue to be so full of anger
and bad thoughts? How can I be clean? I am going to end this message here so that it doesn't become repetitive with my needs.
I look forward to any and all replies. If you would care to pray for me,
my first name is TRACY, (I'm a guy).

 

[jakes]

Tracy, I am 52 years old, and i been where you were! I know exactly how you feel. May I share with you my experience, and I pray, that it would help you!
My wife and I worked for a big steel manufacturing company here in South Arfica! Every day when my wife and I are on our way to this company, i would tell her in the car that I absolutely hate my job and just to drive there, is a sin!
This eventually sank in and she asked what are we to do then. I said I do not know, but we have to stop working for this place! Then one day, I read Psalm 1. Read it and see if you get the same encouragement as me!
Let me tell you, i believed Psalm 1 so fully that we resigned shortly afterwards, and we are ten years along the path now! The best move i ever made, was Psalm 1.
Read it verse for verse and do it in your life, and whatever you do shall come true! May God bless you my friend and may His will be done for you, everyday! Amen!

 

[spirit1st]

satan is always going to put bad thoughts in our minds , hoping we will accept them!
We can rebuke him and tell him to go and take his dumb thoughts with him , in the mighty name of Jesus Christ , he must go and take the evil thoughts!
but we must fill our minds with GODS living Word and be careful , what we allow our minds to watch and listen too! Filling our minds with evil junk with mess up our minds and thinking!
The mind records it all and it is not good to record any more evil stuff than we must!

 

[eddieb]

sometimes what we want to happen dosent just happen like fingers being snapped. keep your eyes on the Lord not your problems. yeah its a mountian. but he can move that for you. dont trust in what you do, the work of your hands or lean on your understanding, however you wanna say it. the bible says The Holy Spirit makes us want to obey. so its a work already begun in your life. stop looking to your problems and look at Jesus. i know thats hard and you might think i am just rubbing salt in your wound but i dont have a job atm. he is taking care of me. try being thankful for what you do have. try it just for a week. instead of thinking how dread things are look for Jesus in these things, seek out how in these dread things in your life(which he paid for) well, how can his kingdom be built up how can God be glorified in these trial of yours. dont focus on your problems. we all stumble. He loves you no matter what happens in life. sometimes that dosent seem like enough but what else is there? sometimes you just gotta go thru it. the silver smith knows when the dross is purged from the silver because he sees his reflection in it, but if left in the flames too long its destroyed. God wont leave you there to long. every thing He does is good. seek his face.