does anyone else here have deadly thoughts? since i was a young girl i remember being hammered with these insane thoughts of death/disaster. sometimes my own death but most of the times the death of my immediate family members. and most of the times its accidental deaths like i just suddenly picture myself having a heart attack, even tho i'm still young, and nobody even cares about it or i may daydream about getting a call that my mother has died in a car accident on her way to visit me. when i get these deadly thoughts i'm usually always alone and they always bring tears to my eyes cuz they are really sad and seem so real (but i am a crybaby). i also noticed that these thoughts are triggered by other thoughts of daily activities. i probably have these thoughts on average twice a week. i just want to know if this is normal or am i just crazy? do any of you experience these thoughts? and no one else knows that i have these thoughts yet most people who have met me think i'm weird or crazy despite this