I've been thinking about it...a lot lately. Actually ever since my niece committed suicide over 2 years ago, and lately even after my mom fell ill and (thankfully) recovered. But it's not something that just "leaves" me anymore.
I am a Christian, and I believe in God and all, but there's the "fear factor" involved in there. Wth my mom's eventual passing...many years from now I pray (she's in her 60s), I have a "what will I do then?" mindset. I mean, she's already set her will up and all that, so my brother and nieces and I will be set financially (at least pertaining to where we will live). But I know that could be a misleading thought, as even today nothing is set in stone anymore regarding our country.
But as for myself..it's like Yikes! I don't know...I mean, I don't fear the thought of being dead...just how I will die...will I go peaceably..or will I be in pain...etc.
But most of all...have I pleased God in the way that I've lived my life...are there things I haven't done which God wants me to do? What about my sins? Are there any sins I have to get rid of? What if there is a sin that I am doing that I don't know? Will it be against me? Does God have anything against me like He does against the churches in the book of Revelation? I surely don't want to pass on knowing I have severaly offended the Lord.
:coocoo:
I am a Christian, and I believe in God and all, but there's the "fear factor" involved in there. Wth my mom's eventual passing...many years from now I pray (she's in her 60s), I have a "what will I do then?" mindset. I mean, she's already set her will up and all that, so my brother and nieces and I will be set financially (at least pertaining to where we will live). But I know that could be a misleading thought, as even today nothing is set in stone anymore regarding our country.
But as for myself..it's like Yikes! I don't know...I mean, I don't fear the thought of being dead...just how I will die...will I go peaceably..or will I be in pain...etc.
But most of all...have I pleased God in the way that I've lived my life...are there things I haven't done which God wants me to do? What about my sins? Are there any sins I have to get rid of? What if there is a sin that I am doing that I don't know? Will it be against me? Does God have anything against me like He does against the churches in the book of Revelation? I surely don't want to pass on knowing I have severaly offended the Lord.
:coocoo: