Depression and Jealousy

[sealightbreeze]

I am not sure if this belongs here. I talk to my mom, but after a while, I seem to repeat myself a lot. I have no one else to talk to, so here goes. I hope you will not think bad of me. I am sure some of you are aware of my situation (prayer request section.) I need to get my feelings out.

My mom and I have both turned in our life insurance policies in order to have money for food and medicine so we can survive. I have sold almost all my games, and DVD's. I trust in God, and know he has plans we may not understand. Luckily, thank God, my brother got a job. But lately, I am having major problems-

First off, I am massively depressed. My sister says I need anti-depression medicine (I do not see how that would work- I am worried about my mom, my family leaving, and our money situation.) Anti-depression pills might help- but the worry and depression won't go away. Not until my mom is ok, money is not as bad a situation, and I get rid of that family fear.

Also, My brother told me "when we get the money, it will all be for food, medicine, and utilities. Not one dime will be spent on plushies, or anything else." I thought, ok. I can handle this. I can wait a month to buy something for my mom or for myself. Thinking all the money would go to that stuff.

Well, I was wrong. My sister gets money once a month (welfare) She bought three pairs of jeans, a $60.00 CD player, a CD, DVD, a new phone $40.00, a new cell phone, two tops, socks, stockings, candles, hair products, coffee maker that we did not need. But, it is ok for her to buy material items.

All I want is to have some stuff too. I miss my games, and my DVD's. I know material items should not be this important, and being jealous is a sin. I just do not see how this is fair.

And to top it off, I feel like my brother does not care at all about me.
I am trying to get a job. But, since I have never had a job, nobody will hire me. What should I do to feel better, and try to make the sadness/depression go away? :embarasse

 

[pixie]

God will provide

Hang in there sealightbreeze! I am a single mother of 3 boys at home. I am on a fixed income and things are tight for me too. It sounds like your brother is doing the right thing, by prioritizing your family needs.
Can you not get welfare to tide you over? Don't give up on the job search too. Keep praying and reaching out for help, like you do here at Talk Jesus.
Have patience for the Lord to work in your life. It sure seems to me that He is asking for you to reach out to Him. He is there in your distress and He knows perfectly how You feel. I can't imagine that it would make our Father happy, putting us through trials, but these trials do turn us to the Lord and we do grow and we are weaned, by a Father that has nursed us, all our lives.
Praise be to His Son, Lord Jesus Christ.
Be encouraged by His Word. He is showing it to you. Place it in your heart, to carry you through.

Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death
or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

Psalm 69:32
The poor will see and be glad— you who seek God, may your hearts live!

One final note sealightbreeze. I know you are suffering trials, but in your suffering you are seeking the Lord and praying to the Lord and honoring our Father. This is a gift that God receives from you. In turn He will reward you.

Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. (Luke 12)

 

[sealightbreeze]

thank you pixie :boy_hug::girl_hug: it means a lot. No, I can't get welfare. I am sorry if I sound greedy or anything. I am not. Trust me

 

[pixie]

sealightbreeze

I promise you that you don't seem greedy. Sometimes I fear the future too.:note:

Wouldn't it be nice if rich folk helped the poor. Jesus asked one rich man to give everything to the poor and follow Him....

Mark 10: 21Jesus looked at him and loved him. "One thing you lack," he said. "Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."

22At this the man's face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth.

Store up your heavenly treasures sealightbreeze. You are worth more than a rich man, to God...

4The disciples were amazed at his words. But Jesus said again, "Children, how hard it is[e] to enter the kingdom of God! 25It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God."

God loves you sealightbreeze. Be in His love. Hope your depression lifts.
Amenixie

 

[ladylovesJesus]

Look to Jesus your provider

Hi there sealightbreeze

I am sorry that you are seeing your sister buy so much stuff like that.

The Bible does say do not store up for yourselves treasure on this earth.

Matt.6. 19 NIV

“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

22 “The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. 23 But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.

Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life*?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Try to keep your eyes on Jesus. Listen to worship songs. That lifts the spirits, whenever I am low I put on some music usually on the computer and it lifts me up again.

You and your family are in all our prayers here too.

God will provide.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.

God bless :rainbow: :rose:

 

[jun0402]

Hello Sealightbreeze

I understand your situation. I hope I can help you. But one thing I want you to know that depressions and stress comes because the enemy want you down and question God's power. But remember what the Lord our God hath said " I will never leave you comfortless; I will come to you." John 14:18. He loves you everyday of your life, he never change, He loves you when you are haooy, He loves yo when you are lonely, when you are sad and depressesd. He knows yor griefs and worries, so don't be stress God is always watching you. And He promised to be always there even when no one seems to care.

As a member of the family, you understands your responsibility to help your familiy's needs. Your brother too knows it that's why he gives prority to your family by working, and you should help him too, in one way or another, maybe you can't find a job, but you sure can pray for it. An d God answers prayer, He just wants us to go to Him in prayer and ask what we need. Also pray for your sister that she will see your family condition, and pray that she too will know her responsibilty. And your games and dvd stuff, you just did something that you prove to god that you love your fanily and God is always happy to see you loving your family.

I wil pray for you ok. Godbless.

 

[sealightbreeze]

Thank you pixie, LadylovesJesus, and jun0402. Your words mean a lot to me. They really do. I always feel much better after I hear everyone's words, and know that others are praying. Thank you for the help. :kiss:

 

[jun0402]

Galatians 6:10

"As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith." we are one in Christ let us pray for one onother.

 

[sealightbreeze]

It is just hard- we do not have any money, and yet she is off again re-buying dvd's that she got rid of so we could have food. I can't see how this is fair- I miss my DVD's too:embarasse

 

[ladylovesJesus]

hey there seabreeze

I posted something today that I thought would help some to see why we go through trials.

Here is the link to the post.

http://www.talkjesus.com/daily-devotionals/11196-word-4-u-today.html

Also I am reminded of the people in 3rd world countries who have very little material things and how happy and contented they are. They are on fire for Jesus too.

Some areas see amazing miracles as they believe when they ask that they have received their healing. I heard about someone going out to a hospital in Ghana, I think it was and the hospital was empty. Yes, empty nobody to pray for as they had all been healed.

We have to not focus on our circumstances but keep our eyes on Jesus and yes, it is easier said than done.

I do not begin to understand why your sister can go out and buy things when you all need money for food. Pray and ask Jesus our Jehovah Jireh to provide for your families needs.

If we speak positive words over our lives, it is amazing what Jesus does for us.

How do you access the internet?

God bless you dear sister.
:rainbow: :rose:

 

[sealightbreeze]

Thanks, that helped. We access the internet by use of the phone (the one bill we were able to keep from shutting off) I do not mean to sound selfish and greedy. Sometimes, it just seems to hard of a trial. I have learned though, it is making my faith stronger.

 

[jun0402]

Just hang on there sealightbreeze

It is sure unfair, but you don't need to think of those things that will not help you solve the problem. Why not talk to your sister, but first go to God in prayer and ask Him to touch your sister's heart and make her realize it.

There are things far more important than things, God sure is working and you just need is trust that hand of Him. Just han on there and let the Creator and the Masterdo his work of masterpiece in your life.

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be given unto you" Matthew 6:33

"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

 

[sealightbreeze]

I can't talk to her- for fear of her leaving. It just seems so hard at times. When she gets everything, and the rest of us literally have nothing. I will trust more in Jesus. She is going to a movie tonight now too. I am trying my hardest not to be jelous. It just feels like I am living in hell