Did He shut the door?

[LockPengWei]

Everytime I opened the door, I found it shut again. Not that I did not try but it happened and happened again.


The first time I met You is when I was 16. I knew nothing of You. When I walked into Your house, I was humbled and kneed before you.


But Lord, that year when I met you, my life changed. Not for the better but for the worst. Lord, I cried to you. You did not response. I walked away.


For many years, I hear You call. Everytime I responded. But whenever I responded, something happens. Are You testing me?


Lord, this time I am really hurt. She brings me back to you. But Lord, again when I open the door. You move her away. You take away my career. You ensured I stay awake and suffer those that I lost.


You said You love all. You will leave the 99 sheeps and find the missing 1. But Lord, I have been looking for You. Are You there? Should I open the door again?

 

[RJ]

Everytime I opened the door, I found it shut again. Not that I did not try but it happened and happened again.


The first time I met You is when I was 16. I knew nothing of You. When I walked into Your house, I was humbled and kneed before you.


But Lord, that year when I met you, my life changed. Not for the better but for the worst. Lord, I cried to you. You did not response. I walked away.


For many years, I hear You call. Everytime I responded. But whenever I responded, something happens. Are You testing me?


Lord, this time I am really hurt. She brings me back to you. But Lord, again when I open the door. You move her away. You take away my career. You ensured I stay awake and suffer those that I lost.


You said You love all. You will leave the 99 sheeps and find the missing 1. But Lord, I have been looking for You. Are You there? Should I open the door again?

Revelation 3:20 ...But what door have you opened. To be one of his sheep you must belong to him or be a child of God. You must be saved.

• You must not confuse a carnal / physical response with the spiritual, they are totally opposite.
• 2 Corinthians 12: 5-10 we all confuse our weakness or carnal situation with the either the Lord is answering me or not answering me and doubt is the usual result. Why some suffer more than others, I do not know. You certainly seem to have your share of problems; and why you, I can't say.
• So you have these "thorns" in your side...don't we all have our own! Paul was blessed to know God and felt blessed to have the thorn in his side and welcome it to keep him humbled. Paul was beaten, shipwreck, thrown in prison and finally beheaded and not once denied God.
• Instead of knowing of God, do you know him? This is a spiritual knowledge not a carnal knowledge. Have you asked him for things as a carnal man or a spiritual man?
• Romans 10:8-10 Your key is being saved; are you saved? To open the door and have Christ come in is to confess and accept the gospel. You must do something similar to this verse in Romans....have you done this?
• There is an american expression: "Don't get the cart before the horse". ( this is true for any situation but you should look at it spiritually)
• Ephesians 2:8....ask God for this faith, then believe. Your faith is the horse, everything else behind that is the cart!
• One final thing. Understand to have this kind of faith is to undertsand that nothing bad in your life can come from God. We all live in a physical, carnal world that is frought with imperfections. In your faith you will find your hope; hope is not in this world but the next, the spiritual world or heaven. The Bible says that your faith grows by hearing the word of God. It is best that you get your own Bible and read it and let the Holy Spirit lead you into all truth.....As Paul, don't judge your physical world and confuse it with the spiritual world of God's word!

 

[Brad Huber]

The only door Christ opens is the door to "your" heart when you invite Him in. In relationships, God does not force or coerce anyone into a relationship. Its up to you to use the wisdom that's spoken of in scripture to both make "yourself" beautiful spiritually to a woman, and what to look for in a bondmate for life instead of taking what comes into your life and pleases you. If you make yourself "beautiful" with a full glass of the fruits of the spirit, I guarantee you, that with time, a godly woman will notice you.

 

[LockPengWei]

Thanks Brad. But I am still searching.

Everytime I stepped into His door, something terrible happened. Everytime I heard his call, I knocked on the door and entered. But time and again when I entered, something terrible happened in my life.

The recent case was my love one brought me to Him again. I proceeded with cautious. I brought out the Bible and read again. I slowly walked to Him. When I fully believe that He loves me and did not abandoned me, I lost my job. My health runs into problem. She left me. I prayed and cried to Him. I asked Him for mercy. I asked Him to forgive me for walking away from Him previously. I stood up and tried to recover. But everytime I stood up, more things happened. In fact I felt better and walked a better path now by telling myself that there is no one there and I am alone. I told myself I have been walking alone and has been successful.

The same thing happens several times during my life time. It happened when I hear the call and walked to Him. When I fully believe, something like this happen. Not only my love life but also my health and my career.

I remember in my first and only marriage. My partner and myself finally settled down. We have a son. Just when I was so happy and thank Him, my wife divorce me. At the sametime, I met my son for the first time in the hospital intensive care unit. He was born with microtia. I cried to Him and begged for mercy. My family was broken. My son is not as smart as kids of his age. I left HIM. I know I am alone. I worked hard and take care of my son without my wife. Now after 11 years, he is a good son. Through this years, I walked alone without Him. I put away the Bible and stop seeing Him. My life was different - calm and happy.

The very first time I met Him was when I was 16, I was invited to the Church. Upon stepping into His house, I was humbled and kneed down. That year, I lost my father. I cried to Him. He "ignored" me. My family runs into financial problem. I left Him for the first time. I told myself He is not helping me, I have to help myself. I walked alone to become who I am today.

Brad, I loves HIM. I believed HE is the one. But everytime I entered His door, HE shut it hard on me.

Lord do you love me?

 

[Brad Huber]

You live in a fallen world. Life isn't always easy just because you are a son of the true King. It is the devil who does these things to destroy your faith, read the book of Job. He had it much worse, and never gave up his faith.