Montgomery
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- Joined
- Dec 24, 2016
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I have not been on this site for a long long time. I have struggled for years with faith issues but of recent times attended a church and was determined to attend until I had my faith back even though at times very uncomfortable things happened for me there such as being yelled at by some christians in charge for no good reason. I am a survivor of domestic violence from which I have ataxia which is a movement problem etc. etc. etc. but I did not blame God for what happened to me but I remained at odds with God because He did not protect my little dog from the abuser and lost her life. I can see clearly that he protected me in this violent relationship many times and saved me from peril over and over - but He did not protect my little poodle Pixie so I resisted God with all my might, even in church for some weeks. Resisting the powerful God is very tiring. Because of my brain damage I have to give myself a little help. So when I write out my To Do List I print a little message on the other side such as God loves you or Jesus walks along side of you - I am prone to falls since brain injury. I use a walker and two sticks. The psychologists can help you only so far, you know, the trauma, but this God thing could only be alleviated in a God place. Not sure if I will return to this church as I did not like being yelled at with IF YOU WANT TO KEEP TALKING PLEASE GO OUTSIDE AND TALK and WE WOULD NOT HAVE TO LOCK THE DOORS IF PEOPLE DID NOT STEAL at a OPEN HOUSE lunch at this church. First instance another church member was helping me to understand what was happening during the service in a whisper and the second instance I needed to have access to the lift to go downstairs with my walker. Whatever my choices my faith in God is intact.
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