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[Yeshualives]

Where to begin ... is the battle in the mind? How about when you have loud thoughts or voices?

I just wrote a pargraph or so and my laptop just deleted it!

When I became a Christian about seven years ago I was having delusions about being followed by satanists or child abusers. I take psychiatric medicine and whenever I've tried to come off it - even under supervision - i've relapsed. As a consequence of having relapses, i've tried to commit suicide.

Lately I was meant to be going to a healing & deliverance ministry and the leader of my congregation said she believed i was meant to go there. But the ministry say they have been praying and do not believe its been the right time for me to go and said that they have been trusting the Lord to keep me while I wait.

I had the worst relapse i've ever had (it seemed/seems to have been real) - and as a consequence of this and the ongoing situation am now pondering at what point does a person lose their faith? I've tried to bring my thoughts into line. I don't understand so much - I've been reading scripture and I know God is real and true and Jesus is seated at the right hand of the Father. I believe the bible is true - but even the enemy believes this.

I know that Jesus paid the price for the sins of the world. I want to follow His ways, but i realise now that my life has been consisting of going round in circles, being lazy, not overcoming mental illness, not working except in short bouts. Whenever i've tried to move forward and experienced stress then i've struggled and stopped or given up or had difficulties.

I have contacted another deliverance ministry and they are telling me to read all the Gospels and Acts and to feed on scripture. I have been trying to read. They said I need prayer into having had so much psychology teaching from times of being ill mentally.

If anyone prayerfully really hears from the Lord about my situation I would be grateful to know what they believe the Lord is saying. I have been desperate to hear from Him. I have prayed and I know that God knows my situation ...

 

[TheWidowsOffering]

Hi Sis. Rachel

I am praying for you. Hope to come back soon and be able to hear from the Lord for you. May He uphold you.


Sis. in Christ,


Reymielin

 

[Boanerges]

I am joining in prayer for you my friend. Seek God daily and remember that He not only works all for your good but the trying of your faith is an opportunity yu grow in faith trusting Him. Great faith comes with great trials and you have been given a marvelous gift- the chance to trust our God during these trials.
If you sought God and He says to go forward with deliverance then pray about finding another ministry that can help you.
As far as the medications- some folks have chemical imbalances and need these. There is no shame in taking what God in His great wisdom has provided and the herbs of the field (any resource science can utilize) have been placed there ahead of time by One who knew that very need would arise.

 

[Yeshualives]

I am joining in prayer for you my friend. Seek God daily and remember that He not only works all for your good but the trying of your faith is an opportunity yu grow in faith trusting Him. Great faith comes with great trials and you have been given a marvelous gift- the chance to trust our God during these trials.
If you sought God and He says to go forward with deliverance then pray about finding another ministry that can help you.
As far as the medications- some folks have chemical imbalances and need these. There is no shame in taking what God in His great wisdom has provided and the herbs of the field (any resource science can utilize) have been placed there ahead of time by One who knew that very need would arise.

Hi Boanerges,

Thank you to Reiymeilin and you for replying. To be honest the situation was urgent and that was why i went to the other deliverance ministry - i prayed for a door to be open and they said they could see me.

I have told the first ministry that i went there but have not had a response from them yet.

Finding it difficult to write at the moment.

 

[Coconut]

Brother, faith is given to us from God, you dont have to fear it slipping from the grasp of your mind, even at your weakest moments. Have no fear, God is greater than all our weaknesses, and what He decides to do, no man can undo.

Php 2:13 For it is God who is producing in you both the desire and the ability to do what pleases him.

I read your note a few times to make sure I was understanding where you are coming from, and I am distressed to see 'ministries' so called, pointing you to yourself, and other men, as tho you, or they, could do for you what only God can do. These ministries got you running around in circles like a chicken with its head cut off, and suggesting you could help yourself if you just read the Bible more, or go here or go there....and where has it got you? Right here saying Oh my God help me! Well let that ending be your beginning, for its when we say "God help me", that we finally get it right.

You have gone to men who have obviously not come to the end of themselves, or they would have known the answer to give you, and until a man comes to that place, hes got nothing to offer you. I would go as far as to suggest any man who claims to have a 'healing and deliverance ministry', but does not know enough to point you to the source of power is more mentally ill than you say you are. You are so right, even the enemy can quote scripture, so could the religious Scribes and Pharisees, many of whom were faithless, proof reading and quoting the Good Book does not give men or devils power with God! A man only finds power with God when he recognizes he is powerless and helpless to help himself - and goes directly to the source of power. The strength to go to God also comes from God...the understanding you need God, comes from God...our weakness comes from God that He might display His power...see...Hes already there working in you...

Again:

Php 2:13 For it is God who is producing in you both the desire and the ability to do what pleases him.

ALL power has been given to Jesus Christ!

I have experienced this power, again and again and again. I have fallen on my knees, desperate and helpless, (God brought me there) and called our His name (God gave me faith) and watched in amazement as right then and there, He worked His power within me and around me. Do not listen to men who tell you "it is not your time" That is a lie. It is your time, EVERYTIME you call on Jesus. Does that mean you wont need Jesus time and time again. No. But you will find as you become more aware of Him, that He is there ALL the time, displaying His power through your weaknesses.

Blessings