Feeling unwanted

[happygirl81]

Hi, I am a new member on this forum. I'm seeking help on a matter that has been troubling me for these few months... Hope somebody can give me advice on it.

I've been a Christian for more than 15 years, has been attending and serving in the church faithfully. However, I considered myself as not mature enough or maybe not spiritual enough (I can't pray well and don't understand the whole Bible, even though I read it everyday, there are still portions of it that I don't understand).

Last year, i was appointed as one of the commitees for my satellite church. It came as a surprise to me, but I was willing to take up the responsibility if God has given me the task. We were not given official letters, but was annointed in the church service (where everyone witness us as one of the members).

However, after that, nothing happened. We were only called for meeting once, and there was nothing to be discussed since the pastor has already made the decision. We were not given any tasks to do too. In fact, we do not even know what is the status of the church's operation.

This year, things were even worse. Our pastor has changed and this committee seems to have 'disappeared'. Two members resigned, and only two of us are left. And it seems like this committee is not operating anymore.

I'm not sure why are we appointed at the first place. Am feeling embarrased and disappointed. It seems like we are called to be annointed just to put us down. I've prayed to God for this confusion that is in me. I don't want to take the task because of the position. Yet, if God selected us in the first place, why is everything not working? I've prayed and cried many times because of this. And it seems like I am somebody unwanted in church. Sometimes, I wish to just be a silent church goer. There is a sense of nagging in me not to involve myself in ministry anymore ( I am happily serving anyway ) but I believe it is the doubt that the enemy has put in me.

I felt I really need God's healing in the hurt that I have. Or am I being selfish? Really confused. Please advice.

Thank you for your patience in reading this.

 

[Coconut]

"...if God has given me the task"

I think your hurt and confusion will go away when you know the answer this question Sister.

I dont know anything about your church, your pastor, or his committees, but I do know a little bit about my Lord, and I can tell you when the Lord calls you to a task, His Holy Spirit enables you, works through you, and accomplishes that which He plans to do. The only anointing you need is the anointing of the Holy Spirit, the only call you need to hear is His, and the only thing you need to be doing, is that which He asks of you.

I read the most wonderful quote this morning from Compassion..it applies to poverty...but also applies here...

"The outcome of poverty is quite different when the Master chosen is the LORD. In fact, it is clearly outlined that this community of believers were of one heart and soul, having everything in common and devoted to ONE Master, the LORD. Therefore, “There were no needy persons among them.” - Act 4:34

Lets rephrase that for ministry (serving) to the Lord (you being the servant of the Lord)..

The outcome of ministry is quite different when the Master chosen is the LORD. In fact, it is clearly outlined that this community of believers were of one heart and soul, having everything in common and devoted to ONE Master, the LORD. Therefore, "To each person has been given the ability to display the Spirit for the common good." 1Co 12:7

See, I trust you have already received the Holy Spirit, which means you do not need an anointing of man. Simply serve the LORD with all your heart and soul, by the ability His Spirit already gave you.

 

[Boanerges]

Amen Coconut!
happygirl81 do not worry about falling short for He has placed in you all you need pertaining to life and godliness. Seek His face and He will apoint you according to His purpose. No man's hand can cause that to fail. Press in to knowing Him, trust Him for the results and the rest will take care of itself.

 

[aristotle]

happygirl81, one thing i have learned in 31 years of walking in The Way is that no one else determines my destiny but God. while i counsel wisdom in all things let me be clear about one thing: do not be afraid of taking a look where you are and asking God if it is good for you to remain. sometimes we look for permanency in things when, in truth, there is no permanency in anything down here. we expect to be doing a thing for years when we may only do it for months or even weeks. the important thing for you is to take this time and be sensitive to Father' will. if He says stay then stay, if He says go, then go. in the end your destiny, your road is in His hands. just step in His footsteps and you'll be ok.

btw: if you're feeling confused about direction then know you ain't alone. i'm there and i know a lot of people who are but we choose to be faithful as He is faithful. you are in His hand. He does love you and He will never forsake you. period!!!

may Father's peace encompass you today.

 

[happygirl81]

Coconut: My church happen to be very small in size, since part of the church member has moved to another outreach. And yes, I've received the Holy Spirit.

Simply serve the LORD with all your heart and soul, by the ability His Spirit already gave you

That's an encouraging word for me.

Boanerges:

do not worry about falling short for He has placed in you all you need pertaining to life and godliness. Seek His face and He will apoint you according to His purpose. No man's hand can cause that to fail.

Yes, I'll trust the results to God and just continue to seek His face

Aristotle: Yes, walking in the Lord is not an easy path.But in my case, I haven't even started doing anything in this committee yet

I have to confess that I AM feeling confused sometimes. I am praying for God to show me the steps, and in the ministry that He wants me to be in apart from the one I am serving.

But yes, God is faithful...yeah!!!

 

[happygirl81]

Thank God! He is faithful and showed me the path that He is leading me to. Just got an sms this morning concerning the committee. The way God answered my prayer is very clear. I know He is in the midst of all these and I'll continue to serve Him faithfully .