Sweetrainbow
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- Feb 28, 2010
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I guess the best way to start this off is to say that I have always known that there is a God.
But understanding all his wonderful attributes is another story in itself.
I was raised as a Catholic and went to church all the time.
During my late teens though life was the worst and many times I have wanted to just die.
I was in some way or another always arguing with someone in the family or doing all the work while everyone relaxed and just sat back and watched.
My social life was next to nil until my sister announced she was gettng married. I had met again what would be my future ex-husband at the age of 24. Things were going lots better then and then I announced that I was getting married June '93 at the age of 29.
Over the course of the next 12 yrs. so many things have changed for the worse.
My health was starting to fail, my ex-husband was getting us into so much debt and the worse was that I no longer was going to church anymore.
I had wondered what went wrong and how can I get help with this.
I one night all by myself just went into my room and sat in the dark and talked with the one I knew could solve all this and was long overdo to talk to again.
Yes, I mean God and I prayed so long and hard for mercy and to please help with all that was wrong in my life because I just wanted to give up.
Well of course God has his own timing of what happens to us when we ask him of something.
He answered my prayer on Aug.13th, 2004 when I met online Trebor aka BeartheCross aka Bible Bear usernames.
I had chatted with Trebor online everyday.
On Aug.31st, 2004 I was at the deepest pit of what seemed like Hell that I could be in and had decided to take my own life.
God knew I wanted to do this and had done what he knew would stop me.
I had gotten on my PC to write an e-mail to Trebor to say goodbye but God had other plans.
Instead of Trebor reading a goodbye letter he had gotten online and pleaded with me to not go through with taking my life.
He had said 3 Words I completely had forgotten which was
"GOD LOVES YOU" and he wouldn't want you to do this.
He had told me he thought I had bipolar and to do to a doctor to find out.
Sept.1st he was correct and from that moment on I just marvel to the fact that my life could be over.GOD knew otherwise.
God has given me so many blessings from that moment to the present that I couldn't even fit it all in a book.
Believe he is real and believe in all what he can do.
But understanding all his wonderful attributes is another story in itself.
I was raised as a Catholic and went to church all the time.
During my late teens though life was the worst and many times I have wanted to just die.
I was in some way or another always arguing with someone in the family or doing all the work while everyone relaxed and just sat back and watched.
My social life was next to nil until my sister announced she was gettng married. I had met again what would be my future ex-husband at the age of 24. Things were going lots better then and then I announced that I was getting married June '93 at the age of 29.
Over the course of the next 12 yrs. so many things have changed for the worse.
My health was starting to fail, my ex-husband was getting us into so much debt and the worse was that I no longer was going to church anymore.
I had wondered what went wrong and how can I get help with this.
I one night all by myself just went into my room and sat in the dark and talked with the one I knew could solve all this and was long overdo to talk to again.
Yes, I mean God and I prayed so long and hard for mercy and to please help with all that was wrong in my life because I just wanted to give up.
Well of course God has his own timing of what happens to us when we ask him of something.
He answered my prayer on Aug.13th, 2004 when I met online Trebor aka BeartheCross aka Bible Bear usernames.
I had chatted with Trebor online everyday.
On Aug.31st, 2004 I was at the deepest pit of what seemed like Hell that I could be in and had decided to take my own life.
God knew I wanted to do this and had done what he knew would stop me.
I had gotten on my PC to write an e-mail to Trebor to say goodbye but God had other plans.
Instead of Trebor reading a goodbye letter he had gotten online and pleaded with me to not go through with taking my life.
He had said 3 Words I completely had forgotten which was
"GOD LOVES YOU" and he wouldn't want you to do this.
He had told me he thought I had bipolar and to do to a doctor to find out.
Sept.1st he was correct and from that moment on I just marvel to the fact that my life could be over.GOD knew otherwise.
God has given me so many blessings from that moment to the present that I couldn't even fit it all in a book.
Believe he is real and believe in all what he can do.
