Turbopun
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I am at a loss. I am not quite sure if it is me or if it is my friends.
Most of my friends including my roommates have known me mostly while I was a believer walking in the flesh. I produced no fruit. Now over the last month I have been restored by the Lord into a fresh walk with Him. I by no means am perfect and lack faith just about every day at some point, but overall I believe the Spirit has come forth lately due to His work in me and produce some fruit. I take NO credit for this. This is nothing but the Spirit working.
Here's the problem. All of my friends, which are believers to my knowledge, are walking in the flesh and have been ever since I have known them. Yes, I have seen the occasional 2 day post-church-retreat spiritual high, but no fruit coming forth from the Lord in their lives.
This is not the problem in my life. The problem is that since God has been working in me over the last month, my whole demeanor has changed (which in my opinion is good). I am not opening my mouth at every thought that passes through my mind, I am refraining from crude jokes, and I am not focused on myself all the time.
This is what my friends know me for which is quite sad. When they are making crude jokes and I don't jump in anymore, there is almost this awkward silence and I just sit there with nothing to say. When they play video games that glorify violence, I just have no interest in playing anymore.
The worst part though is this flesh vs spirit war that is in me that they all get to see me go through. None of them understand which I know makes complete sense, but it is just so hard. I feel like they are looking at me sometimes like I look down on them because God is revamping my life.
When I am humble and surrender my will to the Holy Spirit I find that I no longer am living but Jesus that is living out actions in me. These are the days that I could die so peacefully! I love Him!
The next day I can wake up and find myself just aimlessly becoming more independent from God and pride starts building up. These are my flesh days. Sometimes I can humble myself and confess my pride before God, but sometimes I just remain proud and am in agony.
(Galatians 5:17 ESV)
1) Does this make sense?
2) Does anyone else have an intense daily battle between their flesh and the Spirit?
3) What should I do with my friends?
Most of my friends including my roommates have known me mostly while I was a believer walking in the flesh. I produced no fruit. Now over the last month I have been restored by the Lord into a fresh walk with Him. I by no means am perfect and lack faith just about every day at some point, but overall I believe the Spirit has come forth lately due to His work in me and produce some fruit. I take NO credit for this. This is nothing but the Spirit working.
Here's the problem. All of my friends, which are believers to my knowledge, are walking in the flesh and have been ever since I have known them. Yes, I have seen the occasional 2 day post-church-retreat spiritual high, but no fruit coming forth from the Lord in their lives.
This is not the problem in my life. The problem is that since God has been working in me over the last month, my whole demeanor has changed (which in my opinion is good). I am not opening my mouth at every thought that passes through my mind, I am refraining from crude jokes, and I am not focused on myself all the time.
This is what my friends know me for which is quite sad. When they are making crude jokes and I don't jump in anymore, there is almost this awkward silence and I just sit there with nothing to say. When they play video games that glorify violence, I just have no interest in playing anymore.
The worst part though is this flesh vs spirit war that is in me that they all get to see me go through. None of them understand which I know makes complete sense, but it is just so hard. I feel like they are looking at me sometimes like I look down on them because God is revamping my life.
When I am humble and surrender my will to the Holy Spirit I find that I no longer am living but Jesus that is living out actions in me. These are the days that I could die so peacefully! I love Him!
The next day I can wake up and find myself just aimlessly becoming more independent from God and pride starts building up. These are my flesh days. Sometimes I can humble myself and confess my pride before God, but sometimes I just remain proud and am in agony.
(Galatians 5:17 ESV)
1) Does this make sense?
2) Does anyone else have an intense daily battle between their flesh and the Spirit?
3) What should I do with my friends?
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