Going through a really hard time...

[RayBan]

Im not one to share my problems, never have been...Keep most things to myself, because well, I know there are many more out there going through a lot worse. I know really my problems aren't that bad, but they still affect me.....

Recently started a new job, in the career I wanted, Im on a probationary period for one year so along with the stress added on by that...

I work nights, 12 hour shifts, so I am up all night and sleep all day....I think I'm just not used to it yet....

My girlfriend broke up with me, said we just don't see each other enough, says I'm asleep all day when she's at work and then I'm up all night when she's asleep...whatever....

See, I KNOW how silly that sounds? Im young and have a long future ahead of me but I still get way down over petty things that shouldn't bother me...but they do....Maybe through all of this Ive realized how far away from God I really am....Because I feel so alone through my struggles....

I need to get back into church, or atleast pick up my bible.....I feel like I have so much hate in my heart....When I go out with friends I judge everyone I see.....Im so pessimistic.. I seem to like NO ONE....

Well, there's my little rant for the day...

 

[Fragrant Grace]

I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me
Philippians 4:12-13

Greetings @RayBan

Now brother I am not belittling your difficult time....but just encouraging you to see things in a different perspective

Get into a spirit of praise and thankfulness

Thank the Lord that you have employment

Thank the Lord that you are physically able to be employed

Thank the Lord that you have an income

Thank the Lord that you are able to use a computer and write here

These are all wonderful blessings that are so often taken for granted

Thank the Lord that you have friends (even if you don't like them)
Ask the Lord to fill you with more compassion and love that His love may flow from you rather than these feelings of hatred and judgment
Seek out Christian friendship at a church and ask the Lord to lead you to beautiful Christian folks with whom you can fellowship

And yes.....as you said start reading the Bible again
Fill yourself with the word of the Lord.....His promises, His treasures that will never fail you

When upon life’s billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly,
And you will keep singing as the days go by.

So, amid the conflict whether great or small,
Do not be disheartened, God is over all;
Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end*

Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits
Psalm 103:2

*Johnson Oatman Jr 1897

 

[RJ]

Im not one to share my problems, never have been...Keep most things to myself, because well, I know there are many more out there going through a lot worse. I know really my problems aren't that bad, but they still affect me.....

Recently started a new job, in the career I wanted, Im on a probationary period for one year so along with the stress added on by that...

I work nights, 12 hour shifts, so I am up all night and sleep all day....I think I'm just not used to it yet....

My girlfriend broke up with me, said we just don't see each other enough, says I'm asleep all day when she's at work and then I'm up all night when she's asleep...whatever....

See, I KNOW how silly that sounds? Im young and have a long future ahead of me but I still get way down over petty things that shouldn't bother me...but they do....Maybe through all of this Ive realized how far away from God I really am....Because I feel so alone through my struggles....

I need to get back into church, or atleast pick up my bible.....I feel like I have so much hate in my heart....When I go out with friends I judge everyone I see.....Im so pessimistic.. I seem to like NO ONE....

Well, there's my little rant for the day...

I can relate to the difficulties of your work, I worked shift work for 20 years before going salary and days. It is difficult life and does not bode well with a relationship with someone who is on days all the time! It is also very hard to live a church life and very few people understand you.
Regardless of your current situation, I would say the primary reason for your struggles is not as much to do with your lifestyle, but more of being right with God and having a relationship with Jesus. If you are "Born Again", then you need to realize better that God will never forsake you and Jesus will never give up on you. If you are not saved or not sure, it's time to get right with God before things will improve!

 

[Brad Huber]

Glad to pray for you. You probably dislike others for the same reason many ppl do, because they dont really like themselves and unconsciously are finding fault with others to try and feel better about themselves. Its one of the many pitfalls in our moral choices in life. Its why Jesus said the two greatest commandments were to Love God and Love your fellow man. If you are not truly doing both, then you are not right with God or your fellow man. Learn to love God first, learn to accept God's forgiveness after admitting your need of forgiveness from Him, and then learn to love others, because God loves them also and requires your forgiveness of them the same way He forgives you of your own faults. Its not an easy path, but its worth it, both in this world and even more so the next.

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

See, I KNOW how silly that sounds? Im young and have a long future ahead of me but I still get way down over petty things that shouldn't bother me...but they do....Maybe through all of this Ive realized how far away from God I really am....Because I feel so alone through my struggles....

I glad you didn't wait to reach out because cynicism is a terrible taskmaster.
You are going through a number of things that may sound trivial in the context of the suffering that we see all over the world.
But they are not trivial in the context of your life.

Night shift is a trial in itself and can cause depression and stress.
That kind of stress affects many things so it's not wise to downplay your feelings but present them before the Lord for refreshment
and strength and to restore your vision.

The best way I found to forgive others and not judge them is to pray for them to know God and then when I catch myself being annoyed by them I can remember my prayer. Then I will feel like a schmuck and quit doing that.
I have found I am lifted up by lifting others so I know that I am cast down when I look down on anyone(especially those who seem to deserve it).
I'm praying for your situation and I know others will so I stand with you and them.
Peace

 

[Christ4Ever]

Im not one to share my problems, never have been...Keep most things to myself, because well, I know there are many more out there going through a lot worse. I know really my problems aren't that bad, but they still affect me.....

Recently started a new job, in the career I wanted, Im on a probationary period for one year so along with the stress added on by that...

I work nights, 12 hour shifts, so I am up all night and sleep all day....I think I'm just not used to it yet....

My girlfriend broke up with me, said we just don't see each other enough, says I'm asleep all day when she's at work and then I'm up all night when she's asleep...whatever....

See, I KNOW how silly that sounds? Im young and have a long future ahead of me but I still get way down over petty things that shouldn't bother me...but they do....Maybe through all of this Ive realized how far away from God I really am....Because I feel so alone through my struggles....

I need to get back into church, or atleast pick up my bible.....I feel like I have so much hate in my heart....When I go out with friends I judge everyone I see.....Im so pessimistic.. I seem to like NO ONE....

Well, there's my little rant for the day...

First Ray. Nice to see you back. Been awhile.
Prayed for you back a few years. Will pray for you now.

I think I told you before, that you need to make the time to spend with the Lord, if He is your Savior, your best friend! He was with you for some years now. Watching, waiting, for you to reach out. If your best friend is the Lord and you spend little time with Him. Is it any surprise that nobody else be it friends or strangers can meet expectations? That you find something wrong and are critical?

Spending time in the Word, Devotionals, Praying. All these things help you grow in Christ Jesus as well. When you grow, you change. When you change, you start to look and see things differently.

By the way how did school pan out? Did you graduate?
Found another girlfriend I see who has moved on. Somethings seem the same.

I would ask if she knew the Lord as her savior, but all these years I never asked. Do you? Not knowing if you're Born Again leaves me to ask this.

I'm sincerely glad you stopped by again, if not for the best of reasons, but if you do believe. What's a couple of years between Brothers in Christ Jesus? :thumbsup:

Fragrant Grace posted rightly. Psalm 103:2 and the words you could sing to. Provide some solace to you that in Christ Jesus you have so much, that a loving reminder is needed when the world seems to crowd in on you. As you know. You have at Talk Jesus, I pray Brothers & Sisters in Christ Jesus, that will pray and help as they can.
C4E
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Blessed [is] the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is. Jeremiah 17:7