WingedGrace
Formerly Adiaglow
- Joined
- Mar 23, 2004
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Spiritual attacks, that is. Everytime I start getting closer to Him.
We recently just moved into our new home and I have been moving closer to God. Plus, I also got confirmation from Jesus that He spoke to me a few years ago when I was struggling with fear of not being saved. During prayer back then, I had written down what I heard in my mind, which was "Be not afraid. Only believe." Then, flash forward 3 years later, and I find that it's a bible verse, Mark 5:36. "Do not be afraid. Just believe." That floored me. Well, right after we moved into our new house, I wasn't feeling well physically. I started becoming anxious about being sick. That has since calmed down, especially since I got prayed for at my church. Now they've moved on to attacking my thoughts regarding salvation, telling me that when I accepted Jesus, I didn't mean it, or I'm not doing enough. It's constant. I've started taking my Bible to work and am depending on the Holy Spirit to bring me through. Has this happened to anyone else? It makes me fear death & that I'm not saved, however, Jesus spoke to me and has surrounded me with people who are inspiring me and keeping me hopeful. Plus, for some reason I am envisioning Him with me all the time, trying to build my relationship. That's why I originally started getting more into God, b/c I want to know Jesus, and I want Him to know me. See, and as I'm writing this, I am feeling like I'm doing this for attention. But I know I am sincere and love Jesus.
I am so tired! lol This will really wear you out.
We recently just moved into our new home and I have been moving closer to God. Plus, I also got confirmation from Jesus that He spoke to me a few years ago when I was struggling with fear of not being saved. During prayer back then, I had written down what I heard in my mind, which was "Be not afraid. Only believe." Then, flash forward 3 years later, and I find that it's a bible verse, Mark 5:36. "Do not be afraid. Just believe." That floored me. Well, right after we moved into our new house, I wasn't feeling well physically. I started becoming anxious about being sick. That has since calmed down, especially since I got prayed for at my church. Now they've moved on to attacking my thoughts regarding salvation, telling me that when I accepted Jesus, I didn't mean it, or I'm not doing enough. It's constant. I've started taking my Bible to work and am depending on the Holy Spirit to bring me through. Has this happened to anyone else? It makes me fear death & that I'm not saved, however, Jesus spoke to me and has surrounded me with people who are inspiring me and keeping me hopeful. Plus, for some reason I am envisioning Him with me all the time, trying to build my relationship. That's why I originally started getting more into God, b/c I want to know Jesus, and I want Him to know me. See, and as I'm writing this, I am feeling like I'm doing this for attention. But I know I am sincere and love Jesus.
I am so tired! lol This will really wear you out.