Hello all

[OnFireForGod]

Hi,
My name is Brianna and I am a young 23 year old. I have been in church my entire life with my father serving as a preacher. I have always held onto God, even in college. However, I got into my first serious relationship when I was 18 and found myself with one foot in and one foot out. He grew up in church, not as strongly as me, but him and I believed the same. We became engaged and were to be married this month, but God had other plans. A few months ago I came home to everything, including him, in the apartment we shared, gone. He had changed his number and was done with me.

He came from a very close family, so close that his mother didn't like any girl in his life. All 4 years we were together she made sure I knew that she hated me. Because of the tension, my ex fiance did cheat and lie to me on and off for about 2 years.

After he left, I spent time rebuilding my life the way God wanted me to. He gave me the option many times, I just didn't listen. Well, finally he had enough and caused my world to come crashing down.

It has been about 9 months since my fiance has left me and while I've worked on moving on, it has been hard. I have been struggling with the the fact that if this is what God wanted, why he has left me with such deep love for my ex.

Anyway, I just hold onto God and have been growing my faith because I know that is the best thing for me. My faith is one thing that has never really faded and while I don't know what God has in store for me, I am willing to wait. I do not have many friends my age who are Christians which is why I am here. I love having Christian interaction and I can only hope that this will continue to strengthen me.

God Bless you all.

 

[amadeus2]

Welcome to the forum, Brianna! The Way is sometimes difficult, but if we remain always on the Lord's side, nothing is impossible for us. Remember this: "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all of these things will be added onto you" [from Matt 6:33]

The "added onto you" will include as God's wills it a companion for this natural life with all of its trials and heartaches. Give God the glory always!

 

[Christ4Ever]

First Brianna Welcome to Talk Jesus.
I hope and pray that you find the peace, guidance, to move on from the past. For that is what it is now. The past. You can look back to see what you did wrong, and pray not to repeat it. Meaning. Looking to it as a learning experience. I'm sure this is not something you want to repeat. Ever!

There's a good section here where you might try talking with other Sisters in Christ Jesus. Some who maybe have even gone through what you're going through now.

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However, I am glad you've found your way to Talk Jesus.
Once again be welcome Brianna.
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Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

It has been about 9 months since my fiance has left me and while I've worked on moving on, it has been hard. I have been struggling with the the fact that if this is what God wanted, why he has left me with such deep love for my ex.

I would like to know why we all don't have that deep of love for each other.
God is love,really,really deep love.
Know you know how he feels about us rejecting him.ouch
Maybe your ex is the only one you are feeling correctly about.
Why can't you love yourself that much.
Sometimes when I'm not myself I miss me.

 

[RJ]

Anyway, I just hold onto God and have been growing my faith because I know that is the best thing for me. My faith is one thing that has never really faded and while I don't know what God has in store for me, I am willing to wait. I do not have many friends my age who are Christians which is why I am here. I love having Christian interaction and I can only hope that this will continue to strengthen me.

I was in my current church for 30 years before I was "Born Again". You are so right about growing you faith and that is by hearing the word of God. But one of the things that helped me to grow in faith, was when I realized that my initial measure of faith was a from God. He does this during salvation as a free gift. I pray you find many here your age and have many benefits spiritually! Welcome!

 

[Chad]

Welcome to the forums @OnFireForGod

Good riddance to your ex. He cheated on you multiple times, he's gone. You don't need that wickedness and hurt in your life. God has someone better.

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Welcome to Talk Jesus @OnFireForGod

Enjoy the forums and fellowship found here

 

[OnFireForGod]

I would like to know why we all don't have that deep of love for each other.
God is love,really,really deep love.
Know you know how he feels about us rejecting him.ouch
Maybe your ex is the only one you are feeling correctly about.
Why can't you love yourself that much.
Sometimes when I'm not myself I miss me.

I have actually had to learn self-love and through church and prayer I've come to love myself more than I did. I'm still far from what I should be, but I'm closer

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

I have actually had to learn self-love and through church and prayer I've come to love myself more than I did. I'm still far from what I should be, but I'm closer

Your actually using God's love to see self and others through that same deep,intense love.
Perfect love casts out all fear including fear of rejection,loss,failure and even the fear of death.
Thanks for responding,I'll remember you In the Lord.