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[whitedove]

Well,

Do not know where to start. i am 36 years old and have terminal cancer. Doc said 10% chance to make it another 5 years. I would like to be able to post links on some short uplifting flash inspirational movies but the system will not let me post any links at the moment These short flash have uplifted me many times and i wanted to share with everyone else what God has done with me and still does ( although i may not really feel his love at times ) but i know he has not forgotten me.

I came from a bad background and not wish to discuss my faults anytime soon. I was not the best christian at all, even many times after i had given my life over to GOD i had somehow stumbled back into sin again. At one time a few years ago i got so depressed that i attempted my life but you know what GOD did? He did not take me and gave me a second chance ( even if it is just for a little while ) so i guess for the most part and to sum it all up in a few words and make this short.

I am a born again christian, who fell into temptation, tried to kill myself, survived, was given another chance for a little while to make things right in my life, tend to stumble now and then. sometimes get angry at things and my illness, have a lot of pain because my illness and tend to get a little tempor ( but with the help of Jesus i am learning how to control it ) so thats me.. ( the short version lol.. ) So i hope everyone can accept me ( and my many faults )

Whitedove

 

[pd12051980]

Yes I believe we have all had our crosses to bear. I myself had been diagnosed with severe social anxiety and depression. When I was 17, I sort of said "Oh yeah im a christian" without really taking it seriously, At 21, I was diagnosed with anxiety and also depression--Stemming from unfortunate incidents which I wont go into. I went thru a period of being insecure with myself, and who I was as a person. I have a friend who gave his life to Jesus after years of rejecting him, even though as it sounds you have had your issues as we all have, I believe that christians when they die, or even if they end there life, will go to heaven. I am just starting now, To believe that God can cure me, If I put my effort into it, and that means resisting temptations. Of all the bad things that happen in this world (including depression, anxiety) that is Satans world.

 

[louis]

Hello

I am also new here.

Following your intro, I had the following thought: Who of us do not, on a regular basis, fall hard and far only to be picked up and dusted off by Jesus Himself...?
The truly sad stories are those where the individual do not realise that he or she is in fact falling.
Sadder still will be the stories where Jesus is asked not to interfere.

Apart from your illness being obviously painful to you and apart from the suffering it surely brings otherwise, it is obvious that your sights are where they should be. At least, that is how it appears to me.

I hope you find here what you were intended to. I suspect that I might...

 

[pd12051980]

Yes I agree with what you are saying, some people have issues and never turn to God, Although I know its not as simple as just saying "I want this to happen" I know that if done right, God can make anything possible. It is those who are ill, like you said, and who dont believe in the Lord that I feel bad for.

 

[Ncdataman]

Welcome to TJ dear sister, I am glad you have chosen to join our fellowship here. Contact Chad about the links you have and let him make the call on posting them as per forum rules. Fear not about being judged here, we are all sinners and come short of the glory of God. Welcome to the club. Feel free to look around and ask questions if you have them. Be blessed!

In Christ,

NC

 

[mounty]

Welcome to Talk Jesus ,Enjoy this awesome site

God Bless and Much Love xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

[Reddawg]

sent in love

"we are all sinners and come short of the glory of God. Welcome to the club"

Sister I am sure that if you were searching for a sinners Club, then I am sure that Talk Jesus would not be the place to come,

The full scripture that was used for this statement says,
For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God; If you study the whole chapter 3 in the Book of Romans it is talking about the fact that no man is more important than any other in the eyes of the Lord, no matter what back ground they come from.

The word of Gods says in Matthew 1 and 21
And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: For he shall save his people from their sins.

I know where the Lord saved me from, At one time in my life my wife had already prepared her mind to come home and find me dead by my own hand. I know the pressures of having no hope in this life, and fearing the afterlife all at the same time.

I tell you that when I found the power of a living savior my life has never been the same. He has saved me from my sins, and the bondage of them.

I saw where your doctors say you have five years, but the fact is that none of our lives are promised tommorow, I have seen in my family people given good check ups from the doctors and die in the car on the way home.

I know your case is special because of the pain in your body, that I can not feel. And I have commpasion for that, and you have been on my heart after I read you note yesterday.

Jesus did not set the man Legion free from the tombs, only to have him return back into them. (Luke 8 26-40)

Jesus has not came to allow men to fall over and over back into sin. I know this may seem hard, but really it is out of Love, I want you to live and live the rest of your time in the flesh with the Peace of God alive in your heart to the point that people around you can not understand why you are so happy, and your reply will be, I met a man named Jesus and he set me free, and I know that sin holds have been broken, and my name has been written in the Lambs book of life.

You have been trusting with you comments, and I feel you have an heart that is open with God, and you sister, can change the lives of all the people you come in contact with while you live.

The Lord knows my heart and I submit this with great hope that you will here the voice of my Lord and savior as he leds you life.

As the man in Luke 8 I heard the voice of Jesus tell me Return to thine own house, and shew how great things God hath done unto thee,

He set me free and I am free indeed, and remember God is not a respector of persons, he has the power to break the bonds of sin in our live if only we ask for it and know that it is there.

Romans 6:1
What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?

I Peter 4:1-2
Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind: For he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin:
That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men but to the will of God.

I John 1:8-9
If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness,

I John 2 1-4
My little children, these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous; and he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for our's only, but also for the sins of the whole world.
And hereby we do know that we know him, if we Keep his commandments. He that sith I know him and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him.

Sister you are a child of the living God, and many will tell you that you can do all things through Christ who strenghts you, I challenge you to serach out God with all your heart, and do some amazing things with your life while you have breath, and you will melt the heavens with your songs of praise for the Son of Living God, Jesus who has the power to keep us in the hour of temptations.

 

[mourning dove]

Arms open..and saying "Welcome, WhiteDove."

mourning dove :girl_hug:

 

[SpiritLedEd]

I am a born again christian, who fell into temptation, tried to kill myself, survived, was given another chance for a little while to make things right in my life

"For it is by grace that you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works so that no man can boast." (Eph 2:8-9).

White Dove, you are most certainly welcome here (and loved). One comment for you to think about: If we could make things right all by ourselves, Jesus' sacrifice on the cross was a waste. Look at the story of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-24) and learn of your heavenly Father's attitude toward repentant sinners. You might also want to study Romans 7:7 - 8:2 where the apostle Paul talks about his struggles wih sin.

SpiritLedEd (SLE)

 

[Br. Bear]

Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.
Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is.
And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself, even as he is pure.
1John 3:1-3


Dear whitedove,

If I could just share a fraction of the joy you have shared and given to me in your words of hope and love for Christ the King in the very real circumstances of your life that no man would wish upon himself....

yes, if I could give you back even a small fraction of the life you imparted through your words, evidence that the love of God in Christ Jesus the Lord is alive and living... and by His Spirit He strengthens you and keeps His name upon your heart and mind and lips... Oh the joy that this imparts... when I see so many who sink into depression for much less misery than what your body now endures...

sister... if you could but taste the love you have shone into my life by your courageous post... then I know you could even today die in peace.....

How can I say such a thing...?!

Well, I often think about if I died today, would I die happy.. meaning free form burdens and guilt, would I die free from bitterness and venomous words of hatred... would I die in fear and doubt... would I die an empty vessel having no hope ....? Or, will I die in His great release of joy and a looking for His beautiful face and glory and splendour?

I say this as I am reminded even now of the Scripture....

And I say unto you my friends, Be not afraid of them that kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do.
Luke 12:4

and this, too, a very powerful Word from our Lord....
Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.
Luke 12:32
(please read that again! ....And again!.... can you see what I see? 'your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom'! So powerful are these precious words... what beauty and mercy and grace they impart to the seeking heart.... yes... your Father's good pleasure..... wow! to give you the kingdom.... behold what manner of love.... wow!)

And .....
Blessed are those servants, whom the lord when he cometh shall find watching: verily I say unto you, that he shall gird himself, and make them to sit down to meat, and will come forth and serve them.
Luke 12:37

Yes, whitedove..... your sins are forgiven... enter into His rest and live each day you have remaining here, whether you live another day or a hundred years, rejoicing in His great love for you... and in so rejoicing and giving thanks you will shine a light so bright and beautiful and will be in His perfect will for you.... to His glory and praise.

Bless you my sister in faith, bless you ....><>

Br. Bear

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Dear whitedove

Greetings and welcome to you.

May the Lord richly bless you in this difficult journey of life. May He give you the inner strength and courage to deal with your illness. Rest fully in His promises

Lo I am with you always...Matthew 28:20

Loving Jesus bless whitedove with an abundance of Your love, joy and peace...so much that worldly pains and worries pale into insignificance.
Thank You Jesus for Your great love.

Now we see through a glass darkly but then face to face
1 Corinthians 13:12

Oh, Christ he is the fountain
The deep sweet well of love
The streams on earth I've tasted
More deep I'll drink above
There to an oceans fulness
His mercy doth expand
And glory, glory dwelleth in Immanuel's land

God bless you whitedove

Julia

 

[whitedove]

Thank you to all your kind words from those who have replied, it means a lot to me. Also i want to apologize for not getting back on here sooner, this illness is hard for me to get online much anymore and when i do i am in pain and can not sleep. Sometimes reading the bible helps in a little way to get my mind off the pain, at other times it does not help, like tonight ( or early morning depending upon where you are in the world, it is around 3 am here ) .

I think the most that gets me down so much is the thought of watching my mom ( who had stomach cancer and passed away when i was 15 years old ) and seeing her go through so much pain and now i have to endure the same thing.

I often blame myself. I used to be healthy and had a lot of life in me and a lot of energy, but then things got so worse for me that i attempted my life and did not succeed in it. well maybe i did succeed in it??? I often think that because i took that overdose with all that whiskey it damaged my insides so badly and now i am paying for that mistake by suffering from cancer. It is the guilt that hurts the most and so hard to not think about it. I blame myself for it. i have blamed GOD many times but it was not his fault it was me.. He had given me a life and i wanted to take that life away and now i got my wish. it is being taken from me..

you guys dont even know half the story of my life. I basically have a family who do not care for me at all, my niece did something to hurt the minister who had baptized me a long time ago and now that minister wont even talk to me let alone let me explain what happened because he hates me and him and his wife were like a dad and mom to me. I often blame myself for my mom passing away, it is like if i had not made her go to the ER then they would not have put her in the hospital and would not have found the cancer and she would not have had a stroke 2 weeks later, and then its like my fault because i did not make her go to the doctor sooner so they could catch the cancer early enough.. i held her head up many nights before she went to the doctor so she would not choke on her own vomit.. if only i had made her go sooner...

I picked out my own casket the other day and got all my funeral planned out, right down to the songs. It was so hard because the last time i was there was when my mom was there. The guy at the funeral home told me that in some way he believes that cancer is inherited cause he has often buried people who have had daughters and granddaughters buried with cancer in the same family..

something else that bothers me so much is when my mom had the second stroke that paralized her, the doc said she was brain dead and that the machine was the only thing keeping her alive, well my older brother came up from florida and was going to pull the plug on the machine, he did that as soon as he got here but never gave me a chance to say good-bye to her. he could not wait 5 minutes for me to just hold her hand and say good-bye. that hurt a lot and still does to this very day..

Then i met the minister and his wife, did all the bible studies i could do that was avaliable and then got baptized. the minister and his wife meant a lot to me cause they were like family and i tried to explain things about what my niece did but so far nothing has even mattered to them. i have pain from that, pain from a family that just do not care for me, pain of cancer that is slowly killing me inside, pain of guilt of so many things, yet i try to keep my faith in GOD.

Its hard.. so hard not to just give up. i have no insurance, no way to get any pain meds at all, no job, because they either think i am crazy because i attempted my life a few years ago or just wont hire me due to my health, disability is in review, etc.. things just keep going downhill.. well enough about me.. thanks for all your replies.

 

[Br. Bear]

Dear whitedove,

we will be remembering you in our prayers.

Please keep in touch and may you feel loved and cared for here at Talk Jesus.

Bless you ....><>

Br. Bear

 

[Fragrant Grace]

If the Son therefore shall make you free you shall be free indeed.
John 8:36

Dear whitedove

In agreement with Br Bear's post I assure you of my prayers

I am praying that the Lord especially grants you peace of heart and mind. That His love will so fill your heart that it pushes out all the undesirable memories and feelings of guilt that you are experiencing.

Loving gracious Lord Jesus may the remainder of whitedove's journey upon earth be filled with Your love. May she experience the inner calm, clarity and joy only found in Your precious love. May all the troubles of the past and present fade away due to the sound assurance of sins forgiven and an eternal home in glory with You.

There remaineth therefore a rest for the people of God Heb 4:9

May the Lord bless you very richly with His precious love

Julia

 

[whitedove]

Thank you for your continued prayers

 

[whitedove]

Well,

Do not know where to start. i am 36 years old and have terminal cancer. Doc said 10% chance to make it another 5 years. I would like to be able to post links on some short uplifting flash inspirational movies but the system will not let me post any links at the moment These short flash have uplifted me many times and i wanted to share with everyone else what God has done with me and still does ( although i may not really feel his love at times ) but i know he has not forgotten me.

I came from a bad background and not wish to discuss my faults anytime soon. I was not the best christian at all, even many times after i had given my life over to GOD i had somehow stumbled back into sin again. At one time a few years ago i got so depressed that i attempted my life but you know what GOD did? He did not take me and gave me a second chance ( even if it is just for a little while ) so i guess for the most part and to sum it all up in a few words and make this short.

I am a born again christian, who fell into temptation, tried to kill myself, survived, was given another chance for a little while to make things right in my life, tend to stumble now and then. sometimes get angry at things and my illness, have a lot of pain because my illness and tend to get a little tempor ( but with the help of Jesus i am learning how to control it ) so thats me.. ( the short version lol.. ) So i hope everyone can accept me ( and my many faults )

Whitedove

edited by me.. it should have read 10 % chance, not 105. Did not know how to edit it..

 

[SpiritLedEd]

I was not the best christian at all, even many times after i had given my life over to GOD i had somehow stumbled back into sin again.

Whitedove, you've joined a forum that is full of stumblebums. None of us has a Christian walk that has been free of failures

"This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to ALL who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus." (Ro 3:22-24)

SLE

 

[Whendancer]

No Stone-casters Here......

My Sister in Christ! I am glad that you have been led here so that you can fellowship with us. What I have enjoyed about being able to log into TalkJesus are the times with believers from all over the world. Some of them have been in the Lord for a long time, others have just committed themselves to the Lord recently. Both are hungry for the same thing: to be able to communicate with others in the Body so that we can encourage and be encouraged by one another. I like the postings and forums as well. There have been times with I have been challenged to think about an issue in more depth and have learned that my responses are equal in value across the table. Whether we agree or not with the writer doesn't matter, what is important is that we ALL allow the Bible to be the final word.
Also, there are plenty of opportunities to not only post your prayer needs but to pray for others. It will amaze you, my Sister, when you allow yourself to approach God's throne and petition for the needs of others; just how much stronger you become in your own walk with the Lord. We all know to not judge anyone in any situation, but to pray for them as if it were ourselves in the line of fire!

Welcome, participate, and feel at home....you're with family now.
Whendancer