Help!! Please pray for me - I need to wise up

[kezkez]

:icon_confused: I have just turned 28 and got saved when I was 16. Since I was about 17, i backslid and I am now a total mess. I cannot believe some of the things I have done recently. I hate myself as I am not a decent person anymore. My nanny died a few weeks ago, just when my boyfriend of 10 1/2 years dumped me, I hate my job and am saving to go to Australia in 2006. I have got involved in too many ways of the world and it is not what its cracked up to be. I just feel miserable now and am dreading this Christmas because of how I am, what I've become and the recent death of my nanny. I have no Christian friends to turn to for advice and feel that I need a friend (preferably near Belfast, N. Ireland). Sometimes I feel bitter at God for letting my mum suffer so much with her health as she has leukaemia, Ulcerative Colitis (which she nearly died from last year). she now has an ileostomy bag which should have been reversed into an internal pouch over a year ago but she has had so many infections etc and has been in and out of hospital. Im sure there must be some reason for this but I cant help getting angry at times. I also suffer from Crohns (which isnt too bad) but this leads to Shin Splints and Osteoporosis because of all the steroids Im on. I believe that the end is coming very soon and need to sort myself out. sometimes, if I had the money, I just want to go away by myself for a week or 2, to try to sort my head out. Please could someone pray for me? Im in tears as I type this as I feel that my life is out of control. Please help me.

 

[Yeshua]

I believe you are right...

I believe you are right. your life is out of control. So now that you know what is wrong start living his life, his way, which is the best way for all of us.

Now the Devil is wispering to you, "That is easy for you to say, Yeshua, your not me and you don't know what I'm going through and don't know how much I'm suffering."

Tell that Devil, Satan, to shut-up because JESUS IS LORD and your not listening to the lies of the Evil One anymore but your listening to the Only begotten Son of God and his words only. And his words say "If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed; And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free."

I'll Pray for you kezez and I KNOW God hears my prayers and this is what I pray for you. If the Son shall set you free, you shall be free indeed and know the peace of the LORD that passes all understanding. AMEN

Will you agree with me and allow his words to live in you as you trust in GOD?

:icon_confused: I have just turned 28 and got saved when I was 16. Since I was about 17, i backslid and I am now a total mess. I cannot believe some of the things I have done recently. I hate myself as I am not a decent person anymore. My nanny died a few weeks ago, just when my boyfriend of 10 1/2 years dumped me, I hate my job and am saving to go to Australia in 2006. I have got involved in too many ways of the world and it is not what its cracked up to be. I just feel miserable now and am dreading this Christmas because of how I am, what I've become and the recent death of my nanny. I have no Christian friends to turn to for advice and feel that I need a friend (preferably near Belfast, N. Ireland). Sometimes I feel bitter at God for letting my mum suffer so much with her health as she has leukaemia, Ulcerative Colitis (which she nearly died from last year). she now has an ileostomy bag which should have been reversed into an internal pouch over a year ago but she has had so many infections etc and has been in and out of hospital. Im sure there must be some reason for this but I cant help getting angry at times. I also suffer from Crohns (which isnt too bad) but this leads to Shin Splints and Osteoporosis because of all the steroids Im on. I believe that the end is coming very soon and need to sort myself out. sometimes, if I had the money, I just want to go away by myself for a week or 2, to try to sort my head out. Please could someone pray for me? Im in tears as I type this as I feel that my life is out of control. Please help me.

 

[FearNoEvil]

I know how it feels to have no christian friends kez, I have done alot of stupid things too. Place all your worries at his feet, I'll pray for you

 

[Theosebes]

In an instant your situation can change, it is called repentance. Doesn't require anything else but a willing heart turned to God, i realise you know this already but the reason for me saying it is this. Once that happens, there is no need for guilt and shame, they are killers and will steal any good thing that God gives you. Jesus payed the price for our sin and sins; there is no need for us to punish ourselves as what Jesus did was final and sufficient.

'Thank you Jesus', is all the response required

You have had many difficult situations to go through and indeed are going through but being angry at God is not going to change them or make you feel any better. I had to get to a place where i just said to God 'you know what? i don't understand God, but i trust you', end of!

You can be a 'decent person' with just one prayer, because it is all about who you are 'in Christ', you know who you are 'in the world' so just come to the one who welcomes you home with open arms. Your situation may not change and the difficulties may sometimes even seem worse BUT...you and God will be in it together and you will be able to draw on his strength and peace whilst sorting through the issues.

He loves you Kez, so very much

 

[Mike]

I'll pray for you sister . Stay with us . It is not good to be alone . Peace . Mike

 

[Brandi Yvonne]

Jesus Christ came here and gave himself for you. All of us. All you have to do is accept the gift. Say Jesus I believe in you. I accept the price you paid for me. Please come into my life and stay within my heart. From there things change, not all at once, but they will.

And Im sorry to hear about your mom, and your nanny. Ill will pray.

But I have to tell you, my story. I have only been reborn since August.
I was so Happy, then in Oct. My brother killed himself. It hurt more than anything. I felt like ............................I cant explain it, but if it hadnt been for my family, and my CHURCH family I would have never made it through. You see my brother was on drugs and I hadnt spoke to him in a very long time, but while in church I was moved to pray for him, my husband and I had a prayer cloth annointed for him, and a little reluctantly I gave it to him. When he shot himself he didnt die right away he bled to death, before help could get to him. It sounds horrible, but I know that he had time, time to ask Jesus to forgive him. 3 simple words, " Jesus forgive me".
It was a sister at church who made me see. Then in his wallet I found his prayer cloth. He didnt throw it away, he didnt stick it in a drawer, He neatly folded it and put it in his wallet. I know that if there ever was a chance it was then. I am so thankful that Jesus Convicted me to get back to church, Because my last memories of my brother are not of long lost anger, or saddness, I looked into my brothers eyes and let him know I loved him. And I would rather believe that he died with a chance to be saved, than he live for 100 more years and go to Hell.
That is what Jesus did for you for us he made it possible for us to be with him in heaven one day.
And I hope too see you there.