Awesome to know you're a Sister in Christ Jesus
@Gelena !
No matter at what point in the path that you are walking in. Understand that you are not alone. That you may be stumbling at times, is something that we all experience. Realize that while so many others do not know Him, you do!
I cannot speak for others, but every now and again, I bring myself back to the foot of the Cross. Like communion it is a reminder of our Lords Sacrifice and our own inability to do it on our own. Anytime, I start believing that I can do it on my own, the Lord steps in to remind me that it's not about "me", "I", "self", but "Father", "Son", "Holy Spirit". We are united in Spirit with the Most High.
Hereby know we that we dwell in him, and he in us, because he hath given us of his Spirit. 1 John 4:13
At that day ye shall know that I [am] in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you. John 14:20
That they all may be one; as thou, Father, [art] in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me. And the glory which thou gavest me I have given them; that they may be one, even as we are one: I in them, and thou in me, that they may be made perfect in one; and that the world may know that thou hast sent me, and hast loved them, as thou hast loved me. John 17:21-23
Too often we, and I do mean we; allow the world the take priority over the things that belong to God. We'll talk more about the last movie we saw, book we read (worldly), things unrelated to Him that we have done during our time off. Yet scurry back when something bad happens in our life, when we somehow feel a separation from Him, that we ourselves have created. Always, with the thought. "What if this time, He won't take me back?".
Know one thing! He will take you back! Why? Remember the Cross? He gave everything for you! He loves you that much, that even though if it were you or I. We very well might not take that person back for some of the same things that you or I have done. But He Will!!!! He is perfect, and will never leave you or forsake you. He is with you always.
Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God [is] with thee whithersoever thou goest. Joshua 1:9
Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, [even] unto the end of the world. Amen. Matthew 28:20
[Let your] conversation [be] without covetousness; [and be] content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Hebrews 13:5
If you need help with this. You're feeling that you can't do it alone. Then go to Him! He has made it possible for you to do this!
Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16
There are so many promises that He has given us in His Word the Holy Bible.
You just have to open it and know that it's as if He's written this for you. A way by which you can know Him better, grow more in Him as you spend more time with Him, whether its by meditating upon His word, prayer, singing & worshiping! Even in the service/helping you do for others. You are following His desires for you!
And when the world starts to block you, hold you down, distract you.....you turn to Him in prayer and know that He is there for you! Even in the things that you may have happening in your life right now. These very well may be experiences by which someday in the future, you might be able to help others to find their way!
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose. Romans 8:28
There is always a positive way, as long as you place Jesus Christ first in your life. You know the things that separate you from Him, and maybe stopping them, at least all at once may be very hard. Yet, don't give up. One step at a time. No baby comes out of a mothers womb running. It takes time. A step at a time. So is your walk with Him. One step, then another..until before you know it, you're walking, then running! Just don't figure to run before you learn to walk
I'll be praying for you my Sister Gelena.
Hold strong.
Be faithful.
Know that you are above all else.
Loved
YBIC
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Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? [shall] tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:35-39