IsaiahClark
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Im really scared because i have been having evil blasphemous thoughts that make me really anxious,
I broke down to the Lord yesterday and said i dont know if i committed the unpardonable sin, the scriptures make it sound like i have, i need you to show me i havent. then i heard a voice in my head say trust the Lord.
This morning (when my attacks normally are the worst) i had really evil thoughts. but its now to the point that i mix up words and get really bad anxiety, now i sometimes say the opposite of what i am trying to say out loud and i sometimes blurt out things in fear,
a really bad thing happened today. I had blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit of God, and these lying thoughts were cursing and denying the Existence of Gods REAL Holy Spirit. so i was panicking and fighting the thoughts off and saying the thoughts out loud but against the enemy not the Holy Spirit. But i got irritated and kept saying the Holy Spirit is NOT FAKE AND IT IS REAL, AND THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT IS NOT NOT REAL and then i accidentally said what the very evil thoughts were saying, i accidentally spoke against the Holy Spirit, I didnt mean to as a rebellion or willful rejection but the scriptures say SPEAK, or SPOKE. Now i am in deep confusion and not sure what to do because i said the very thing i didnt want to say, like i knew what i was going to say but it came out completely different. Im on edge now because this prevents me from trusting the lord fully i feel like and i dont know if i can be forgiven. Like the bible talks about we speak evil from our hearts, but i didnt mean what i said but like who is going to win me or the bible?
Can you please pray for an answer for me, the bible talks about if you ask you will receive and if 2 or more are in agreement Jesus is there. I need deliverance from this constant torment. Do i have a demon, cus a born again Christian should have a sound mind and a mind of Christ not a constant flurry of evil thoughts i dont want and accidently speaking against the spirit on accident. Like i want to serve the lord and thats it. Please pray for an answer for me, for forgiveness and for deliverance thats all i ask. Im not in habitual sin (other than these unwanted thoughts.) i just feel doomed man. i dont know if its just a placebo effect but i watched some guy on youtube do a deliverance video on Thursday but i started coughing and gagging a bit, but i feel like i was self deceiving myself now. Im not saying i have a demon because Im pretty sure i have the Holy Spirit, but now im not sure if i do because of my accidental blasphemy.
I broke down to the Lord yesterday and said i dont know if i committed the unpardonable sin, the scriptures make it sound like i have, i need you to show me i havent. then i heard a voice in my head say trust the Lord.
This morning (when my attacks normally are the worst) i had really evil thoughts. but its now to the point that i mix up words and get really bad anxiety, now i sometimes say the opposite of what i am trying to say out loud and i sometimes blurt out things in fear,
a really bad thing happened today. I had blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit of God, and these lying thoughts were cursing and denying the Existence of Gods REAL Holy Spirit. so i was panicking and fighting the thoughts off and saying the thoughts out loud but against the enemy not the Holy Spirit. But i got irritated and kept saying the Holy Spirit is NOT FAKE AND IT IS REAL, AND THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT IS NOT NOT REAL and then i accidentally said what the very evil thoughts were saying, i accidentally spoke against the Holy Spirit, I didnt mean to as a rebellion or willful rejection but the scriptures say SPEAK, or SPOKE. Now i am in deep confusion and not sure what to do because i said the very thing i didnt want to say, like i knew what i was going to say but it came out completely different. Im on edge now because this prevents me from trusting the lord fully i feel like and i dont know if i can be forgiven. Like the bible talks about we speak evil from our hearts, but i didnt mean what i said but like who is going to win me or the bible?
Can you please pray for an answer for me, the bible talks about if you ask you will receive and if 2 or more are in agreement Jesus is there. I need deliverance from this constant torment. Do i have a demon, cus a born again Christian should have a sound mind and a mind of Christ not a constant flurry of evil thoughts i dont want and accidently speaking against the spirit on accident. Like i want to serve the lord and thats it. Please pray for an answer for me, for forgiveness and for deliverance thats all i ask. Im not in habitual sin (other than these unwanted thoughts.) i just feel doomed man. i dont know if its just a placebo effect but i watched some guy on youtube do a deliverance video on Thursday but i started coughing and gagging a bit, but i feel like i was self deceiving myself now. Im not saying i have a demon because Im pretty sure i have the Holy Spirit, but now im not sure if i do because of my accidental blasphemy.