There is hope, but I can't find it right now. There is a way on how to strengthen hope, yet I can't seem to grasp the words. I pray... I don't want to move on anymore.. I'm exhausted, I've lost motivation, is there such a thing as living your dream? I don't know what I'm saying. I guess I just want to speak out, because I've no one to talk to. No one, whom I could tell this to. I'm just alone. Sitting infront of my computer, watching on youtube so that I could run from a pain that would eventually come back quickly... I want to be happy. I want to smile. I want to enjoy life. I'm doing my best to live life responsibly but it's difficulty. I'm tired. I'm losing academically. I'm losing myself. I'm not even doing what I want in life. What am I saying. I'm even facing failure. I don't even believe on myself anymore. I study hard so that I could help my parents by getting a good job, yet I'm being left behind now. I'm left behind. I've lost my confidence. I'm doing this for my parents, even if I don't like it. If I like what I'm doing then I could fight through the hardship with no regret. With improvements each time. With hope. With progress.. I'm not growing, I'm just stuck in the middle. I'm nothing. I wish hours move slowly, I want to rest, I don't want to go to school anymore. I'm enthusiastic about anything there. I'm not doing anything right as of the moment. I don't even care of the results. I just want the day to end as quickly as possible so I can just rest, watch a movie.... I'm not motivated to live. I'm 24, and I still havn't found my path in life... I wish I could be good at something... I'm sorry I didn't follow the format. I just type continously cause I'm tired, just so tired of living as of this point.