I was reflecting on some things, and my dad abandoned my family when I was a young child, me, and my brothers.
I can't help but reflect and take note of how broken our world is. I spent many years trying to please others, and I anchored myself to the way that they responded; when I failed, I heaped what one might even call burning coals on my own head. I spent years trying to please my mother, and brothers, and those around me; girlfriends, in the workplace, co-workers, neighbors strangers... etc. I really put so much emphasis on my worth through others, and now I was standing outside and thinking on this for a moment. I even asked myself if it's really okay for me to call God, Father. I felt the Spirit move, and He blew on my ear.
See, when I had rooted myself in others, I was totally crushed, every single time. Not once did I walk away unscathed. I was burdened by my own passionate heart, and I was crushed by my own expectations, as well as theirs, and through failure I was like a twig trampled on and broken over, and over, and over. Truthfully, I don't fully understand what I'm thinking about but I'm going to share this insight anyways.
KJV:Matthew 23:9
KJV:John 12:43
I can't help but reflect and take note of how broken our world is. I spent many years trying to please others, and I anchored myself to the way that they responded; when I failed, I heaped what one might even call burning coals on my own head. I spent years trying to please my mother, and brothers, and those around me; girlfriends, in the workplace, co-workers, neighbors strangers... etc. I really put so much emphasis on my worth through others, and now I was standing outside and thinking on this for a moment. I even asked myself if it's really okay for me to call God, Father. I felt the Spirit move, and He blew on my ear.
See, when I had rooted myself in others, I was totally crushed, every single time. Not once did I walk away unscathed. I was burdened by my own passionate heart, and I was crushed by my own expectations, as well as theirs, and through failure I was like a twig trampled on and broken over, and over, and over. Truthfully, I don't fully understand what I'm thinking about but I'm going to share this insight anyways.