I have waited a long time before addressing this.I have read what Giggles4God said! the long version,and what allygatorxx wrote as well.I think most of us have been abused in some why shape or form,some,much more, then others!
Telling others to forgive is easy!!Doing it!! That is another matter! Since you know the Lord,I will not bore you with why, you need to forgive,let me instead tell you how this helps you! I cannot touch either of you lives!! So I hope in the Lord this can help you to do what I had to do,and that is to see PAST!!! the pain!
I was beaten daily,mattered not if I did something wrong or not,ah I was no angel!! What each beating did to me was make me meaner then I was the day before,people use the word hate a lot,but few really understand what this means!! I know some you you here DO! Seeing that person dead before,in any fashion in your mind you choose to see this person!That is hate. Now how to let this go!!
For me after Jesus came into my life, it took 4 LONG years!! Finally a brother had a word for me in the Lord,he said this,which I can remember as if he spoke this to me yesterday."Whatsoever sin you forgive, it shall be forgiven,and whatsoever sin you retain, shall be,but how will this draw you closer to me? For not only by my Name, but by my own nature is love,think of me Jesus for just a little,I spent so much of my time with my very own disciples,baptizing them,teaching them,showing them,yes loving them,and what did they do at the end?? ALL left me and fled( he then quoted this scripture( Matt26:56)
My tears at the garden were because of this,not because of me having to go to the cross,I knew what I had to do,for I the Lord always have had,and will always have purpose,not just for me,but also for you my beloved! The one thought that I had on the cross was not who fled,but who was to come unto me!!( again he quoted this verse Hebrews 12:2) The joy that was set before me,was you beloved coming unto me,yes YOU!!
If you had one good thought of the person who has wronged you,then think on this,and because you do this,you remember me, and I will remember YOU!! because Love does not forget another who has loved,espically when they have a reason not to love!!"
I was speechless,I had 2 large tears fall,I saw!! LOVE covers not just a multitude of others sins,but of self as well. What I had done all these years was rob myself,of what I so needed,to be loved. Sometimes depending on my situation,the enemy will recall for me something,like if I see a child getting hit by a parent,the enemy will say, see that!! remember how bad you were treated???HUMMM?? I say no devil,I remember when my dad took me to a baseball game,he was so happy to be with me,and I him,we had such a good time, that is what I remember!! I remember you devil robbing me,I remember Jesus saying "YOU shall worship the LORD YOUR GOD,and serve him only!!( Matt 4:10) I remember how you fled!! So be gone devil in Jesus name!! He always has!! he always will!!Because Jesus was our example,if we will just follow.Blessing to you !!
does anyone else feel like this? is there any prayer i can pray while i have thosee feelings? if soo please let me kno it would mean alot to me thank you <3
