i have realised i have a heartened heart against god

[daniel neverson]

i was always gods child, i thought about jesus every day, but one day i stopped reading the bible, i stopped thinking about god as much, and i thought doing evil things was going to make me happy, but now i find myself unable to serve christ because i have a heardened heart. did i blaspheme the holy spirit? i wanna have a soft heart again and serve christ.

 

[milliesmom]

daniel,
The fact that you are here and asking the question means that you have not totally turned your back on the Lord. All of us go through times of spiritual "dryness".
I have recently been in the same place and all I could do was ask God to help me to love Him more. Increase my love for him and my faith.
I pray that you will continue to search and that your heart will be softened and willing, your ears opened to his call, and your life will be renewed in Him.
God's blessings to you,
Mindi