I just can't do it anymore. I cannot. I feel like giving up on EVERYTHING. when am I ever going to learn to just give it all up and hand it all over to God? What am I doing wrong? I need release and to be free from this "thing" holding me back. I need to run far away from everything I have ever known and surrender. How can I do this? I have no self esteem. I have no confidence in myself. I'm not sure of myself at all. Please help. I feel so helpless.