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I seek answers and relief from my anger

sculley

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last year, I lost my job due to lies by two employees. I worked for a Christian ran business. I had worked there for 8yrs. and had known my boss since 89'. The one employee got ahead in her job by lying about her dept mgr. to be with her friend. This other employee wanted to buy the business from my boss who wanted to retire.
I worked with another woman, and with her we were told by the person who wanted to buy the place of how she was going to run it. I didn't believe she would do this. This person presented herself as a very christian person. Very likeable and such. In reality she was learning our weak spots, like a wolf among the sheep.
She and her friend got really close, and I saw a pattern. I being of of good mind told the one, to limit her friendship if she was going to buy the business. It would cause a problem with the staff. She in turn with her friend needed to get rid of me in case I mention anything she had been telling me.
Then the lies began. By the time it was over I was left broken,loss of spirit and full of anger . My boss ,who I thought would hear me out ,didn't . I was not allowed to speak. He insulted my religion beliefs and called me a liar, when I tried to tell him the truth.
Those two people had wrapped this lie up so tight. I lost respect and self worth. I prayed all through this, I begged God to help the truth to come out. I was left broken. I would never have done the things they claimed I did. That is not in me to do it. I try not to judge people even if others are telling me things about people I didn't know.
I was judged , by what they said and not with my actions of 8yrs of working for my boss.
My co-worker even tried to tell him it wasn't true. To no avail.
I believe that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. This was beyond anything I can cope with. I believe lessons that come from learning from situations. I was left bitter and angry beyond able to think straight.
I had to quit to protect my sanity and well being. I still talk to God every day asking why? And I go over everything in my mind to figure out what I did. I know longer trust people and I have lost my friends over this in my ability not to "Get over it" .
I have tried to forgive and am not angry with God. But I can't get over it. I grieve for my loss. Where was God ? I pray someone can see thru this for me. And help me out of this trap I'm in. I need to move on. I need my spirit back ,my life, and my self respect. Thank you, and bless anyone that can help me seek the answers I look for. And hope you are able to read all this and understand it.......Amy
 
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Hi Amy,

I was reading your post and felt led to respond to it. First let me say I'm so sorry for the hurt you were put through. Sometimes when we hurt we need to remind ourselves of the
very truth that is God. You asked where He was and Why He hadn't revealed the truth of the situation you were in. I answer you honestly and tell you God was right there in the midst of it with you. It's like the poem "FootPrints In The Sand" When we see only one set of footprints it was then our Lord was carrying us. He was carrying you the whole time even when you felt the most angry, bitter and alone He was there and is there now still carrying you. The bible tells us the truth is always revealed and it may not
be in our time because God's ways and timing are not our ways and timing, but you do hold a truth that has been made known to many around you...That truth is Jesus Himself
no matter what happens on this earth or what man may do to us Amy we have this to hold on to...nobody can take our salvation or our Lord Jesus from us. In this life people let us down, hurt us, use us, may lie about us but through it all the truth the very truth of who you are in Jesus is there and cannot and will not be moved.

Jesus Himself being God's son was brought to this earth as a human and He was hated by many, lied about by the pharasies and in the end beaten beyond anything we can imagine then He was led to calvary where He was hung on a cross and bore not only all our sins, but our inflictions, diseases, humliations, all our shame...He was human so He does know the hurt you are feeling right now..He went through all the emotions of saddness, hurt, pain, and even anger but what did He do on that cross He cried out "Father Forgive Them for they know not what they do" Don't let anger rule your heart my sister in Jesus reach through it to Jesus and let Him help you forgive because in forgiving there is healing for you. In forgiving you don't have to see them to forgive Just give it to Jesus and let Him heal your heart and help you to forgive the trespasses that were done against you...Just As He taught us to pray.

Matthew6:8-13
Our Father in heaven
Hallowed be Your Name
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
and forgive us our debts
As we forgive our debtors.
And do not lead us into temptation
but deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and
the glory forever. Amen.


If we having wronged our Lord and Savior can be forgiven then so we should forgive those who have hurt us. It's not easy and can take a long time but with God it is possible and He will help you do this. Also in Matthew we are told by Jesus to love those who have hurt us.

Matt.5:43-48 You have heard that it was said, You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy. But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you,do good to those who hate you, pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; For He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? therefore you shall be perfect just as your Father in heaven is perfect.

You said when you talk to God you ask why this happened to you.....we are tried and put through the fire or trials for a reason..because God uses them to shape and mold us into the men and women we are growing to be in and through Him. Now, our enemy satan will come in these trials and seek to destroy us...things like self respect, our joy, our peace, our trust...all things he wishes to destroy and will do so by placing lies in our minds...ones like " oh if God loved you so much why didn't He stop this" , " If God loved you so much where was He?" or " If God loved you so much then why are the very ones who did this getting away with it and you are suffering" the fact is Amy the devil will use what he will to destroy us but we have a choice we don't have to let Him. Do you know why this is...because we are victorious in our Lord Jesus Christ! We can tell the enemy when he strikes " I may be going through this and it yes it is hard but you will not steal my joy, peace, self respect, because I have Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and in His name you must flee! I"m taking my life back in the name of Jesus and you satan are not allowed to touch it because it doesn't belong to you and never did. In the power and name of my Lord Jesus you must go!

We all go through things we don't understand Amy and things only God knows why they happened and in those times we need to trust God and not ask why but instead say " Ok Lord I trust you completely and know you are there and will walk through this with me and bring blessings beyond anything I can imagine because you work all things for the good of those who believe. I am going through a fiery furance right now Lord but will not by your grace be touched by the flame even though the water threatens I shall not drown and all because You are mine and I am yours Lord you come into the midst and deliver me.

1Peter4:12 Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent tht you partake of Christ's sufferings, that when His glory is revealed you may also be glad with exceeding joy.

Ps.27:5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock. And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; therefore I will office sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.

As I close this I want to encourage you to in the midst of the trouble, in the midst of the hurt, and pain to lift up our Lord in Praise...Praise Him when it is the hardest to do so
and know that He is there has shown up and is not only carrying you but is protecting you and delivering you. I hope this has helped you Amy and know that im lifting you up in prayer to our Father in heaven knowing He is there and His Holy hand is upon you now and always.
 
Thank you , so much for the kind words and scripture. I did feel like Christ going thru what I did. Those that were my friends for those 8yrs turned their backs on me taking their lies as the truth. I truly lost my faith when this came down on my head. And to come from Christians. I felt that I had failed my self by not standing up to the lies. I truly wanted revenge or justice for what I had been put thru. My ex boss wanted me to apologize to this girl and dogged me all week. Till I was on my knees in despair. I know I must rely on God to deal with the situation in his own time , whether it be with me or them. And I need to learn patience in that.

I must try and forgive them and myself . God knows I'm not perfect and never will be till I leave this world .And I know it will be hard. I need to look thru the anger. And take care of my self and forget what was done .I can't change what happened then but can change what I do next.. Thank you again for being there for me and not telling me to "Get over it" and "what done is done". I do a lot of crying I only hope I 'm cleansing my soul. I know god see each tear and hear each word I pray. I have adopted the mantra ,that I repeat to my self "That Hope lives within Me" And I will be alright. As in all
deaths,there is a time to grieve how ever long it takes and then I need to then pick myself up and say "yes I lost that one , but I survived. And with God's help give me strength . Bless you again ,you are so versed in the bible and scripture. I know I will be rereading it again and again till I have the strength I need. ......:butterfly

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As in all deaths,there is a time to grieve how ever long it takes and then I need to then pick myself up and say "yes I lost that one , but I survived. And with God's help give me strength .

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for I know You are with me, Your rod and Your staff they comfort me." (Ps 23:4) Words to lean on when you grieve any great loss.

Spirit Led Ed (SLE)
 
I have used this one many times , thanks for reminding me of it. I love that one. .....thank you ...amy:love:
 
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