Dreamer thanks for being couragous enough to openly confess. Thats exactly what the Lord told us to do through James so we can be healed.
James 5:16
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
What helps me overcome this temptation is keeping the realization of what Jesus did for me at Calvary in the light of my wretchedness. His forgiveness toward me melts my heart and I am able then to easily forgive others. I beleive this is the only true way to have real forgiveness in our hearts. Jesus sets the teaching of this principle up in Luke 12:37
Blessed are those servants, whom the lord when he cometh shall find watching: verily I say unto you, that he shall gird himself, and make them to sit down to meat, and will come forth and serve them.
You see the goodness of our Lord here toward us? The King of kings will gird himself and serve us when this life is done. I am sure the disciples remembered this statement of His when He gave them the parable to increase their faith to forgive in Luke 17
1Then said he unto the disciples, It is impossible but that offences will come: but woe unto him, through whom they come!
2It were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he cast into the sea, than that he should offend one of these little ones.
3Take heed to yourselves: If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him; and if he repent, forgive him.
4And if he trespass against thee seven times in a day, and seven times in a day turn again to thee, saying, I repent; thou shalt forgive him.
5And the apostles said unto the Lord, Increase our faith. (what a thought to forgive someone who keeps sinning against us over and over in one day, and all they do is say forgive me and I am to forgive)
6And the Lord said, If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you.
7But which of you, having a servant plowing or feeding cattle, will say unto him by and by, when he is come from the field, Go and sit down to meat?
8And will not rather say unto him, Make ready wherewith I may sup, and gird thyself, and serve me, till I have eaten and drunken; and afterward thou shalt eat and drink? (remember what He said in Luke 12:37)
9Doth he thank that servant because he did the things that were commanded him? I trow not.
10So likewise ye, when ye shall have done all those things which are commanded you, say, We are unprofitable servants: we have done that which was our duty to do.
You see the goodness of the Lord in the light of sinful men?
When the Lord first taught me this I asked "Why are we unprofitable servants Lord"? The Holy Spirit took me to Philippians 2:13
For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.
When I realize that it is God in me who has helped me see what is right, and it is His power that helps me perform it, I can look at others with compassion rather than self rightousness. Now I am awed and humbled, thus it makes forgiving others easy.
