ChildofFaith, I understand what you are talking about!Please let me comfort you, with what Jesus shared with me over the past week! First please read 2 Cor 4:7-18) The love of Jesus is not based upon our feeling.Nor is it based upon our sins! We know what we deserve! Enduring till the end,is not easy!! ( mark 13:13) God's love is 100 percent! His love is as the east is from the west,meaning it has no end to it! Among us all,we have weakness,and concerns. But through this,we are reminded of God's LOVE! When you go into your prayer room,just say Lord,I am so thankful that you love me!! I know I have fallen short of what is expected,but Jesus,your love cannot change,for it is your very nature! Proff?? amen!! always!! in the OLd Testament Mal 3:6) in the New Testament Hebrews 13:8)Jesus Christ the SAME!! What is happeneing to you,happened to me,we finally start to examine ourselves as we really are!!( 2 cor 13:5) BUT!! do not let the enemy rob you either!!( john 10:10) That which draws us to Jesus is wonderful!! that which draws us away from him!! Is not of the Lord! Repent,LOVE Jesus and do your very best,remember can't can't,and try never did a thing,we will always do what we want to in life! ALWAYS! ( not yelling, just pointing out something that holds so true for us all) Without Jesus we can do nothing!! BUT! with God!! all things are indeed possible!! ( Luke 1:37) Do not lose heart,but rather in love,give him yours!! blessing! My prayers will be with you,and you are loved,recieve it today!! And be made with great JOY!! Psalm 103:11-17 is for you,from Jesus in me!!