In my walk with God

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The following is my spirit conversing with the Holy Spirit. I felt He wanted me to share it with others, so here it is. Maybe He is helping me through you and maybe He is helping another through me; maybe both. Nothing has been altered to suit public purposes. This is only a sample of my conversations with the Spirit.

If a born-again Christian, you have the Holy Spirit residing within. For what purpose? Scripture tells us that the Spirit is given unto righteousness. In the Spirit, our works are not of ourselves, but of Him. If we believe with all our hearts that this is so, then is it safe to say our good works are of the Spirit and our bad works, or lack of works (apathy), are of ourselves? Is it possible to have bad works or apathy while in the Spirit? If not, how is it that even born-again Christians sin?

And, if we believe a born-again Christian’s works are of the Spirit, and we disagree with one another, is that an indication that one or both aren’t truly in the Spirit? The Holy Spirit is ALWAYS in agreement with Himself.

If we attempt to convince another born-again Christian that their actions are sinful, are we attempting to take over the Holy Spirit’s work, or are we doing the work the Holy Spirit is leading us to do? I’m sure the answer here has much to do with removing the beam out of our own eye before we try to remove a splinter from another’s eye.

It’s frustrating fighting against my own flesh. I know the truth of the Truth lies within me, but why do I have such a difficult time sorting it all out?…and why do I find myself subject to my flesh? What stumbling block is keeping it all from being crystal clear to me? Have I allowed my heart to be hardened or blinded to His Truth? Or have I deceived myself into believing the Holy Spirit is present in me when He is not and therefore I have yet to gain access to His knowledge?

Then again, receiving the Holy Spirit does not grant us complete knowledge instantaneously upon Salvation. He molds us with loving care, that we grow and mature at the rate and in the manner He knows best benefits us. Can it be said that creation is a continuous process then?

 

[calluna]

Then again, receiving the Holy Spirit does not grant us complete knowledge instantaneously upon Salvation. He molds us with loving care, that we grow and mature at the rate and in the manner He knows best benefits us. Can it be said that creation is a continuous process then?

Yes because Phil1:6 "....He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus"

So it is an on going process until He returns.
Trust the Word of God, be confident in your salvation.

Calluna

 

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Thank you Calluna. I feel your arms around me in support.

I just realized something about my post. Look at it as a face-to-face conversation and see what I see: Me asking the questions and the Holy Spirit making the statements.

Is that silly of me?

 

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My newest concern:

What is the FULL meaning of having faith in God? I believe He is real and true. I believe He is my Salvation. I believe He has the power and authority to lead each and every one of us to an exact destination; Him. I believe HE does the works of good, not us. So, how do we serve Him? I know I am not my own and my good works are also not my own, but His. So, how am I actually serving Him? And how do I maintain such depth of faith without making a puppetmaster out of Him?

The answer given to me, just now as I write this:

I give myself to Him willingly for His pleasure and purpose. He chooses only to be a "puppetmaster", so-to-speak, only through those willing to submit themselves to be puppets. He will not force anyone to do His will. He waits for us to choose Him to be our Master.

Why is He waiting to give me the answers I seek until I start typing it here? Your thoughts? (Note: I am open to the Lord's rebuke and chastisement if I misinterpret the revelations given me or His Word in any way.)

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[Snowrose]

Hello Amen,

In Hebrews 11, it speaks of those who followed by faith. In verse 3, it says "By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible." In other words even though we haven't seen the universe being formed, we believe He did it - "Faith".

In John 20, Thomas couldn't believe that Jesus live unless he saw the scars when he finally saw Jesus, he said "My Lord and my God!" (Verse 28). In the next verse (29) "Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." - "Faith"

Faith is believing in our Lord Jesus. That He will take care of us even when we can't see, feel or touch it. Our senses / emotions we can not trust for they always misinterpret what is going on around us. As Jesus said "Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed". I hope this helps. God bless you Amen.

Love,
Snowrose

 

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Continued.....

Currently, my only spiritual teacher/leader is the best I could wish for, the Holy Spirit. Last November, I sought out and found a church so that I could worship and learn. I also wanted my five year old son to attend so that he may grow up knowing God. I attended for several weeks. I got the initial welcome and then friendly smiles and handshakes each time I attended. With the exception of one elderly couple, they weren't overly friendly, but they were a comfortable group. I could live with that. Afterall, however I would have liked to make friends, I wasn't there for that reason. I was there to grow and draw closer to God for my sake, for my son's sake and for the sake of hope that I would arrive at a place in knowledge where I could serve God in whatever capacity He leads me to.

I was nervous, but very excited to get into bible study classes. Unfortunately, it felt all wrong. The class consisted of about 12-16 people. We spent about 30 of the alloted 60 minutes reviewing prayer requests of the church members. We didn't actually pray for them, we just reviewed and edited the list. Then we would pray for a blessing on the lesson and begin. Instead of opening our Bibles, we would study from a "workbook" which contained lessons based on various versions of the Bible. We could reference our Bibles to verify the lessons, but the focus was generally on the workbook and the discussion stemmed from them, too. Occasionally the "discussion" would turn political or into some other off-topic discussion. When we were on-topic, I would try to participate in the discussion. I didn't seem to get a word in edgewise, though. There were just too many people in the class and the "group" pre-existed. I felt like I was intruding.

Maybe I'm just being too critical and making up excuses. Maybe I'm being to expectant or my standards are just too high. I desire with all my heart to learn everything I can learn about the God who loves me this much. I desire to return that love unconditionally. I've long yearned for Him to send someone, or a group of someones, into my path so that I might be able to ask questions precise to where I am in my personal study and spiritual walk; someone who is more mature in their walk, but has a genuine capacity to relate and possibly bring themselves back to my level for the sake of my understanding.

Am I being selfish and unreasonable? Please, be brutally honest with me. I want to grow. I want to move forward. Thank you for your help.

Amen!

 

[Snowrose]

Hello Amen,

I don't believe that you are being selfish or unreasonable. For if that were true, it would make me that also for I can relate to your feelings. The church I am going to, though the people are wonderful, I am feeling boxed in. I recently came across the book “So You Don’t Want To Go To Church Anymore” written by “Jake Colsen”. It is available online in PDF format. The book is fictious but it has wonderful insights and is quite enlightening. I too want more from Him. I am finding myself asking questions. - What now? What else do I do? Where do I go from here? But each time I sense the Lord is saying "Be still" and to rest in Him. All I have to do is keep waiting on Him and get to know who He is. I must wait - not to be anxious or worried. I believe the Lord is waiting for me to immerse myself in Him but embarrassingly enough I don't know how to do this. I have never learned how to rest. I can’t seem to sit still – I am always found doing something all the time.

I will admit that this journey that I am on is quite intriguing. In Ezekiel 34: 15 it says: I myself will tend my sheep and have them lie down, declares the Sovereign LORD. I have been listening to some podcasts called the “God Journey” where two gentlemen (Wayne Jacobsen & Brad Cummings) speak on different topics. What I find interesting (and they use the above verse) is how they speak of having a relationship with God outside the box of organizational religion. Have we come to a place now where the Lord is intervening and calling people unto Himself? Not to get trapped into rules and regulations of what we know is the church today. Only time will tell.

All I can say for now is rest in Him and take time in His word. Ask Him to direct and teach you through His Holy Spirit. "Be still and know that I am God"- Psalm 46: 10 God bless you Amen.

Love,
Snowrose

 

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I know God loves me because you answered, Snowrose. Thank you and God bless you, too.

I'm sorry it's taken so long to read and reply. Something is wrong with my desktop computer and I only get the occasional opportunity to borrow my daughter's laptop to get online. When she leaves for college in two weeks, I guess I'll have to drive to my Mom's to use her computer, lol.

I've got to pick up my youngest daughter from band camp right now, so I will try to post more on this later this evening. Thanks again to everyone who is willing to help me through my journey and struggles. I hope I can return the kindness some day.

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I have to agree that the Lord is calling people unto Himself. I truly, honestly believe it is happening because I truly, honestly believe it is happening to me. I've had absolutely no recent solicitations from any member of any church, but I have experienced something pulling, or drawing me. I've spent more time communing with, reading about or praying to God in the last few months than I have in my entire 38 years. You could say, He has immersed me in Him. It's like I can't get enough all of a sudden and I'm suddenly intensely aware of the ease in which I sin and the guilt it brings.

I have this sense that it's not my unwillingness to attend regular church services, but He is showing me that He doesn't need the church to bring me to Him.

Ah, the mysteries of God. It's really rather exhilarating when I don't allow my anxieties to impede the peace that comes over me when I rest in this belief. I just wish I could be consistently without doubt. I get frustrated trying to work through the little tidbits Satan throws in the mix. It's only when I admit that I can't sort it out on my own that things start becoming more and more clear. For this, and everything else, I praise God. I've learned that my growth is not due to my own efforts, but His alone. Glory to God!

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[Snowrose]

Ah the mysteries of God. I like that. No thoughts are crossing my mind at this moment but I certainly do agree He is mysterious. But I do know in my heart that all I need to do is ask and in His perfect will and timing - it will be revealed. Again it lands in our trust in Him. So yes - Glory to God for He is worthy of all honour and praise. He is the perfect Father.

Snowrose.