...in the mail

[chaco]

I would like to ask the forum for their 2 cents on this dilemma i have.

I know, since childhood that I am different from the other boys in the block. I am gay. I have accepted Jesus since 1989 as a child in Sunday School. But after entering college, this was when I engaged in homosexuality to its zenith without my family knowing it. Now, that I am working away from my family (Im now working in Malaysia) I wish to tell my family the truth. The whole truth about my orientation and other hidden sins I committed like secretly disobeying them, not completely finishing college, loaned a vast amount of money just for lavish vacations, etc.

I didnt have the courage to talk to them face-to-face about all this...afraid that it might trigger another wave of rejection that I have been enduring since childhood from school, work, neighbors and society as a whole.

Im planning to write them a letter, detailing my homosexuality, and other transgressions i committed. This is to release me from the heavy guilt I feel inside and to start the healing process for myself...I vowed to get right with God the moment I step to this country. I will never be the same. I plan to keep my word. I wish to start with telling the truth to my parents and asking their forgiveness, then paying my mountain of debts one-by-one, take distance learning courses while I work and to get involved with God in a deeper way. I wish to reach a certain level of intimacy, but I have to acknowledge I have to start from nothing.

What do you think of my plans? or if you have further suggestions, let me know. I would greatly appreciate your advice. God bless y'all!

 

[Chad]

Our bondages we may have are not always easy to fight off and change. This is where we rely on the strength of the Holy Spirit, the blood of Jesus to release us, transform us and heal us. GOD is patient.

I would not worry about telling your family. Your priority here is to repent and confess your sins, seek forgiveness each time you sin, to GOD first and foremost. If you have not yet, find a bible based local church to be counseled and held accountable. For your sake brother.

Acts 3:18-20

18 But those things which God foretold by the mouth of all His prophets, that the Christ would suffer, He has thus fulfilled. 19 Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord, 20 and that He may send Jesus Christ, who was preached to you before,[a]

 

[Lance]

A thing I found when I got saved was that some of my bad habits I had struggled to eliminate and failed, simply fell away without further struggle. Of course life is, and always will be a struggle against sin.

Ro 7:19 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. 20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. 22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

(St Paul's struggle)

I was surprised at your answer Chad in the light of what you said about one of the members of the NIV translation.