I've sinned for 2 years helpp

[neutralview]

Hi theree I wasn't sure where to post this but I feel I needed to get this off my chest, I need to confess my sin to someone, its a bit long but its a very serious matter.

Yh so 2 years ago I commited a Big sin, I made a bad mistake which proved to be the wrong choice: I moved from France to England.
At the time I was frustrated with how things were going in France so i made a knee jerk reaction & decided to move to England ( which is my native country) because I was supposedly homesick & the language barrier was a problem.

Since I came to England 2 years ago things haven't gone well at all: I've had health scares, my car has broken down numerous times, most people have been hostile towards me & much more, things generally just haven't been right.
All this stuff happening were signs from GOD/Jesus that the right thing for me to do was to go back to France. I needed to/ should went back to France these past 2 years yet I didn't even though I had oppurtunities to move to France.

The 1st town I come to when I moved from France to England was Peterborough the 09/2010 then i moved to Motherwell in June 2011, then Coatbridge October 2011, then North Shields January 2012 & now until recently I've realised that I need to do the right thing & go back to France which i'll be going on the 30th of May or 5th of June.

But looking back I had the oppurtunity to & should have moved back to France before moving to all those other places (Motherwell, Coatbridge, North Shields,etc..)

I'm very worried & scared because I didn't take notice of the signs & I didn't obey GOD/Jesus for the past 2 years which I regret & feel guilty.
You might think its ridiculous & I'm crazy but i dont think so because these were true signs by GOD/Jesus here are a few:

Before moving to Motherwell which is when I should have or could have moved back to France there was at the exact same time the e coli outbreak ( on a side note cucumber & tomato happen to be my favourite veggies yet I couldnt eat them cuz of the outbreak)

Everytime I wanted an appointement with the doctor they wouldn't ever give me one, it's as if they didn't want to ( I switched to different health centers yet same problem)

Most random people were giving me dirty looks & many other things were going against me

I've had symptoms of many illnesses ( health scare/ problems including food poisoning due to e coli) I've been to the hospital a dozen of times.

I've had problems with my car not just once but 5 or 6

I've had my trolley stolen several times at a supermarket & there have been many other incidents

I could go on & on but the point is I should have noticed the signs & listen to GOD/ Jesus & went to France earlier but I failed to do so.
However I didn't deliberatly ignore the signs or refuse to obey or listen to GOD/Jesus.
At the time with all the signs & everything I genuinley didn't realise that the right thing for me to do was to go back to France, I did notice the signs but cuz I'm so dumb/stupid & clueless I did not know that I needed to/had to go back to France.

I truly regret not moving back to France earlier & not staying in France in the first place. If I knew I would not have come to England & if I had understood the signs I would have went back to France much earlier.
I've prayed to GOD/Jesus a couple of times to ask for his forgiveness & to forgive me. I forgive myself & everyone else for their behaviour towards me cuz I know realise they were behaving hostile,etc.. towards me to let me know/ realise that I needed to go back to France
I'm sorry & i apologised to GOD for not obeying him & not listening to him during these 2 years
But I didn't refuse to obey GOD on purpose, I didn't refuse to listen to GOD nor did I ignore the signs.
I listen to what GOD tells me everyday & I Obey GOD by doing & saying what he wants me to do & say( I try to obey GOD'S 10 commandements everyday) & I noticed the signs but I didn't know/ understand what I was supposed to do & where I was supposed to move to

So now I'm very worried & scared about travelling using the Eurotunnel to France on the 30th of May or 5th of June because I didn't obey GOD & that I didn't go to France earlier after all those signs & incidents

Like I said I've prayed to GOD/Jesus a few times to say that i'm truly sorry & i asked GOD for his forgiveness, if he forgives me i accept his forgiveness & i regret not listening/ obeying him earlier & realising that I should go to France. I repent & i'll turn away from my sin & won't commit this sin again

Thanks for reading & I'd be grateful if you could give me some help or advice please

 

[Rockerduck]

I failed to see the sin. But, reading your post its like you're running away from something. Jesus is with you wherever you go and it isn't God causing your problems. God also doesn't make mistakes. The Holy Spirit will guide you if you let him.

 

[farout]

neutralview: I read your post and read your profile. I believe I have an answer from God for you. Just as the angels who appeared to those we have recorded in the Bible, said to "fear not" may I say too, "fear not" there is good news for you! But not from me.

The very best and direct words are from Scripture. I want you to have a very clear understanding from the LORD. Turn your Bible to Romans Chapter 7. Read all of chapter 7 and chapter 8. I am very sure this will touch your life and there will be no doubt as to what is happening to you and directions on what to do. Then read 1 John 1:9,10. After you have read this please let us know how you now think and feel.

I am not sure if you are reading the Bible very often, but may I suggest you read a chapter a day starting with John. I am very sure after reading John, you will be very sure that either you are or are not a born again person. God bless you and I am anxious the hear from you on this thread.

 

[Quasicentennium]

I use common sense to look after myself, as you know food is basically made up of many different types of chemicals which unfortunately without the intelligence of the mind of Christ that has been limited since Adam and Eve had sinned in the Garden of Eden. Frozen vegetables and fruit such as blueberries locks the freshness and avoid bacteria from breaking down it's freshness and inviting enemy bacteria such as E Coli at room temperature. I use a teaspoon of vegetable oil to wok-fry the frozen vegetables with the wooden spoon and then add water and soya sauce as soup then pour into a large pan of fried mince as a combination vegetable soup/fried mince. We as Christians in our global multicultural communities pray for Christ's soon-coming return so that Satan can be defeated and sin deleted, so that with our new minds and bodies of Christ as brothers and sisters of Christ, we will experience peace and pleasure without the annoyance of disease-causing bacteria, as we socialize together where the beauty of health and youth will keep us happy forever inside God's community-built city: the Kingdom of God on a new Earth.:*:. **Rev21:2**