, it still makes me feel so filthy and unworthy... i've been asking GOD forgiveness a million times but it keeps on coming back... hypocrite of me..
I think many of us have been there, I know I have. God doesn't love us because we sin, but he does love us in spite of our sin. The good news is, the sin is gone.
He knows you. He knows your sins (you couldn't hide them from him even if you wanted to) and he loves you anyway. He forgives and forgets, He has compassion.
Psa 103:3; Who
pardons all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases;
Psa 103:4; Who
redeems your life from the pit, Who crowns you with
lovingkindness and compassion
Psa 103:10;
He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.
Psa 103:11; For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
So great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him.
Psa 103:12;
As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Psa 103:13;
Just as a father has compassion on his children, So the LORD has compassion on those who fear Him.
Psa 103:17; But
the lovingkindness of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him, And His righteousness to children's children,
Psa 103:18; To those who keep His covenant And remember His precepts to do them.
1 Jn 1:9;
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
God knows we are human. He knows we fail. He knows we aren't perfect. None of this is a surprise to him. That's why he sent someone who is perfect.
Someone who has been tempted in every way we are tempted. Someone who knows what temptation feels like. That's why he sticks up for us and argues our favor to the Father.
Heb 2:18; For since He Himself was tempted in that which He has suffered, He is able to come to the aid of those who are tempted.
Heb 4:15; For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but One who has been tempted in all things as we are, yet without sin.
1 Jn 2:1; My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous;
I personally believe this guilt and aversion to sin you are feeling is the Holy Spirit working in you. There are some on here who will say "go ahead and sin, it doesn't matter, you are saved".
But I believe God wants us to be more like him, to grow in him. To be like Jesus. This doesn't happen immediately, it usually takes a little while, but just like a father who watches his
children fall down over and over again, he still still loves us.