ChildrenOfLight
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so, when I attempt to teach someone of the Lord and they aren't going to hear me, or they're going to scoff at me, I should just give up and move on, right?
Out of love I sometimes persist, like with my own earth father. I will try to teach him to research how the world has corrupted him, and how (as an example regarding earth-age) C14 dating assumes the earth is at equilibrium and assumes the rate of decay has remained constant all these years. He scoffs and yells at me, stating my sources are biblical companies and instantly discredits them all, as well as all research I try to teach him to help persuade him of the gospel.
So, I try once in a while, even while the Lord inspires me to give up on the ungodly who scoff at God's word. For the fool hath said in his heart there is no God...
I'm hoping there is some type of reasoning why I fail at letting the vile be vile, and letting the scoffers scoff, and the scorners scorn. But I just cannot help myself sometimes, maybe it's pure vanity and I'm subconciously trying to make myself look better, but I truly do it out of love and desire to help people find and seek truth. (i read it is rewarding to both parties)
Thessalonians has a good line; to prove all things to thyself, and that is what i have done through various studies and through prayer+.
It's increasingly difficult to let the wicked be wicked.
I myself have my wicked traits about me, but no one is righteous, and being youthful in a wicked generation surrounding me makes it tough as well to follow God's word.
I made a purchase on eBay called the Wow Bible Color, and it looks like one of those fancy phones, yet it's the audio and text bible kjv, so i can discreetly read God's word in public and people will just think I'm on a fancy, cool cell phone conformed with the world.
Of course, when I'm asked what model or whatever it is, I proclaim it is the Bible and am not ashamed of the gospel, and even let them hear it, but still, the point is I shouldn't feel the need to have a 100 dollar gizmo when I've been toting around bibles for a year now. (it's still awesome to fall asleep while having the bible read to you nightly)
Also while I'm at it, I recently purchased an electronic cigarette and have quit smoking real cigarettes. while I intend to quit the electronic cigarette (it's just a source for nicotine which makes you feel like you're smoking and has fake-smoke; water vapor production) rather soon, I still bought mass products and accessories, [corrupted by the world at its best.]
So I have stopped smoking conventional cigarettes which are more harmful and intend on quitting the electronic cigarette,
I have gotten my hair cut short since I fully realized long hair is a shame unto men,
I have quit drinking soda and sugary beverages and now only drink water mostly
I am cutting back on those caffeinated 5-hour-energy drinks.
and yet I still feel too ungodly to teach or attempt to inspire anyone of the Lord, yet still try like it's some sort of homegrown instinct.
I even tried healing people by praying and touching them. Whether it was ever successful is a mystery but I have faith they were.
While I have faith, I'm afraid Jesus would tell me to depart, and that He never knew me.
Am I alone on this one?
In search of advice.
Thank you for your time.
<3 Grace <3 and <3 Peace <3 unto <3 you.:embarasse
so, when I attempt to teach someone of the Lord and they aren't going to hear me, or they're going to scoff at me, I should just give up and move on, right?
Out of love I sometimes persist, like with my own earth father. I will try to teach him to research how the world has corrupted him, and how (as an example regarding earth-age) C14 dating assumes the earth is at equilibrium and assumes the rate of decay has remained constant all these years. He scoffs and yells at me, stating my sources are biblical companies and instantly discredits them all, as well as all research I try to teach him to help persuade him of the gospel.
So, I try once in a while, even while the Lord inspires me to give up on the ungodly who scoff at God's word. For the fool hath said in his heart there is no God...
I'm hoping there is some type of reasoning why I fail at letting the vile be vile, and letting the scoffers scoff, and the scorners scorn. But I just cannot help myself sometimes, maybe it's pure vanity and I'm subconciously trying to make myself look better, but I truly do it out of love and desire to help people find and seek truth. (i read it is rewarding to both parties)
Thessalonians has a good line; to prove all things to thyself, and that is what i have done through various studies and through prayer+.
It's increasingly difficult to let the wicked be wicked.
I myself have my wicked traits about me, but no one is righteous, and being youthful in a wicked generation surrounding me makes it tough as well to follow God's word.
I made a purchase on eBay called the Wow Bible Color, and it looks like one of those fancy phones, yet it's the audio and text bible kjv, so i can discreetly read God's word in public and people will just think I'm on a fancy, cool cell phone conformed with the world.
Of course, when I'm asked what model or whatever it is, I proclaim it is the Bible and am not ashamed of the gospel, and even let them hear it, but still, the point is I shouldn't feel the need to have a 100 dollar gizmo when I've been toting around bibles for a year now. (it's still awesome to fall asleep while having the bible read to you nightly)
Also while I'm at it, I recently purchased an electronic cigarette and have quit smoking real cigarettes. while I intend to quit the electronic cigarette (it's just a source for nicotine which makes you feel like you're smoking and has fake-smoke; water vapor production) rather soon, I still bought mass products and accessories, [corrupted by the world at its best.]
So I have stopped smoking conventional cigarettes which are more harmful and intend on quitting the electronic cigarette,
I have gotten my hair cut short since I fully realized long hair is a shame unto men,
I have quit drinking soda and sugary beverages and now only drink water mostly
I am cutting back on those caffeinated 5-hour-energy drinks.
and yet I still feel too ungodly to teach or attempt to inspire anyone of the Lord, yet still try like it's some sort of homegrown instinct.
I even tried healing people by praying and touching them. Whether it was ever successful is a mystery but I have faith they were.
While I have faith, I'm afraid Jesus would tell me to depart, and that He never knew me.
Am I alone on this one?
In search of advice.
Thank you for your time.
<3 Grace <3 and <3 Peace <3 unto <3 you.:embarasse