note: I went through something years ago I as walked journey traveling on this Path, I could not pray for maybe 2-3 years, I did not know a christian could go or experience such a darkness or such pain in the soul! no christian could comfort me, and they did not know what I was going through.
Why because they never been there, if my mother who have know me all of my life, she is one who introduce me to prayer to singing the Hymns and Spiritual songs for as long as I can remember she introduce me to the Historical paintings in the family bible.
She looked at me when I was going through "THE DARK NIGHT of THE SOUL" that devil is on you! Those was her words, I said: yes Mom. No church or preacher or pastor could give me any comfort.
Before I got out, I had been in it about 2-3 years , It had GOTTEN DARKER THAN A THOUSAND MIDNIGHTS< and the HOUNDS of HELL stayed on my trail. If you have not read "THE PILGRIMS PROGRESS" translated from the real copied in old English, you have do idea what I am talking about. But when I came out, I told GOD, I was sorry for not praying those years. and his reply was, "What do you mean, You have been talking to me straight for the last 3 years, in the day, in the night, in your dreams, as your drove, as you walked, you have not stop talking to me! Non STOP! and He ILLUMINATED my mind, he was My FATHER and through all of that DARKNESS we talked. and it was like I came out of a DREAM! then I Happen to read a book about a person , many of people who went through "The DARK NIGHT of The SOUL" and why and how we all came to same conclusion. it is there where you meet "GOD" The FATHER"
and it is there you "TRUST HIM"you got nothing else, no faith, no hope, no prayer, and there you talk and he talks back and you don't stop until you come out!
So I am here to tell you, you are not the only one, "TRUST HIM" and just read your bible, no magic formulas, no magic portion, no prescript verses. no 3 Hail Marys. just read and begin from the beginning of the Book, and just TRUST HIM,, EGYPT cannot help you, Needmore baptist church cannot help you, your friends cannot help you, your counselors cannot help you, your christian friends cannot help you, For GOD is DRAWING you more closer to HIM, If he has to strip you from everything in your life and everything you do will fail, until you have nothing left, But GOD! and then an Only then will you realize He is ALL you NEED!
No longer GOD, But your FATHER and he knows what you need.
and that is HIM. Nothing else.
I came through and countless others have to! Some have said: not all experience the True "DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL" many write about but , it is of GOD and No writer can write concerning that experience.
my advice cast others aside because they know nothing about this experience you are going through. he is purifying you. You are special, for his purpose in ETERNITY and not to wasted on planet earth. "he will not give HIS GLORY to ANOTHER" you are different, you cannot do no wrong!
go ahead keep going , you will see,
Daniel Charter 4
New International Version
"You will be driven away from people and will live with the wild animals; you will eat grass like the ox and be drenched with the dew of heaven. Seven times will pass by for you until you acknowledge that the Most High is sovereign over all kingdoms on earth and gives them to anyone he wishes".
THAT IS A
"BIBLICAL MOTIF"
You been doing what you want to do, and praying and seeking what you want! he is , he will, but a stop to that!
You have been praying for this and for that, he put a stop to that. I been there that is why I know, and a many other old School Christians been there
"EDWARDS, BUNYAN, WHITFIELD, CHARLES SPURGEON, HUSS,, KNOX, TYNDALE, BASEL, CALVIN, MORGAN. COLET, JONES,"
Apostles like Paul, and JESUS!
So set this in your mind, you have been brought with a price, you do not belong to yourself to do as you will, you have been mark out and "CHOSEN" and not like others who came on their own will, and they know absolute Nothing pertaining to this, neither do they have that understanding. but they will try to instruct you, but you are not like them in Christ, you are different in CHRIST, the body of CHRIST have many different kind of MEMBERS for ETERNITY! For WHICH you are being MOLDED and DESIGN for that purpose according to the WILL of GOD through all ETERNITY where there is No END.
