Lost in bad thoughts

[Jessica35m]

HI all, I'm new to the board and really don't want to jump right into this, but feel I may be better off if I do.
For the last six weeks or so I have been going though a rough time. All I can seem to think about is doom and gloom. I have had thoughts of suicide and even know what I would do. I have a doc appointment on Thursday so I am hanging on till then.
I keep praying to the Lord and it does seem to help for awhile, but then it all starts over again. I'm getting tired and even more depressed as it all goes on. I just want a release.

 

[Word of Life]

Hi Jessica35m, I think we all feel like this from time to time, including myself. How I get through it, I talk and pray to God for His help and for Him to direct my thoughts from all the dark and stressful issues of life. Last week alone I went through several storms and I just cried out to Him to help me and He did. Going to God is the only answer. Each time you feel dark and gloomy, just keep praying for Him to direct your thoughts.

Here is something else that may help you, which I pulled off the internet.

Regardless of how dark the future may appear to you right now, remember, God will never abandon you. It's In the Bible, II Corinthians 4:8-9 TLB, "We are pressed on every side by troubles, but not crushed and broken. We are perplexed because we don't know why things happen as they do, but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going."

You are of great value to God. It's In the Bible, Luke 12:6-7, TLB. "What is the price of five sparrows? A couple of pennies? Not much more than that. Yet God does not forget a single one of them. And he knows the number of hairs on your head! Never fear, you are far more valuable to Him than a whole flock of sparrows."

God cares about you and is thinking of you constantly. It's In the Bible, Psalm 139:17-18, TLB. "How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! I can't even count how many times a day your thoughts turn towards me. And when I waken in the morning, you are still thinking of me!"

You have been promised a marvelous future. It's In the Bible, Jeremiah 29:11, TLB. "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

Jesus will help you when your burdens are too heavy to bear. It's In the Bible, Psalm 55:22, NKJV. "Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you;" Matthew 11:28-30, KJV says, "Come unto Me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your soul. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light."

You are not alone in thinking about wanting to die. Several men in the Bible felt the same way. It's in the Bible, Numbers 11:14-15, RSV. Moses said, "I am not able to carry all this people alone, the burden is too heavy for me. If thou wilt deal thus with me, kill me at once, if I find favor in thy sight, that I may not see my wretchedness." An event in the story of Elijah is recorded in I Kings 19:3-4, NRSV. "Then he was afraid; he got up and fled for his life…But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a solitary broom tree. He asked that he might die: "It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life, for I am no better than my ancestors."

If you feel overcome with fear, God will help you, It's In the Bible, Isaiah 41:10, NKJV "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am Your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Joshua 1:9, TLB says, "Yes, be bold and strong! Banish fear and doubt! For remember, the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

God will never forsake you even if everyone else has. It's In the Bible, Psalm 9:10, NIV. "Those who know your name will trust in You, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You.." Psalms 46:1-3, TLB says, "God is our refuge and strength, a tested help in times of trouble. And so we need not fear even if the world blows up, and the mountains crumble into the sea. Let the oceans roar and foam; let the mountains tremble!"

God offers you peace of heart and mind. It's In the Bible, John 14:27, NKJV "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." Isaiah 26:3, NKJV says, "You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You." John 16:33 says, "I have told you all this so that you will have peace of heart and mind. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows; but cheer up, for I have overcome the world."

With God's help, keep your heart and mind focused on positive thoughts, It's In the Bible, Philippians 4:8, "And now, brothers [and sisters], as I close this letter let me say this one more thing: Fix your thoughts on what is true and good and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely, and dwell on the fine, good things in others. Think about all you can praise God for and be glad about."

 

[Jessica35m]

Thank you for your post. It does help to know that God is out there for me and loves me. I keep asking him to take away my pain. I guess it's just hard for me to let it go.

 

[jculver]

Hi Jessica35m, I think we all feel like this from time to time, including myself. How I get through it, I talk and pray to God for His help and for Him to direct my thoughts from all the dark and stressful issues of life. Last week alone I went through several storms and I just cried out to Him to help me and He did. Going to God is the only answer. Each time you feel dark and gloomy, just keep praying for Him to direct your thoughts.

Here is something else that may help you, which I pulled off the internet.

Regardless of how dark the future may appear to you right now, remember, God will never abandon you. It's In the Bible, II Corinthians 4:8-9 TLB, "We are pressed on every side by troubles, but not crushed and broken. We are perplexed because we don't know why things happen as they do, but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going."

You are of great value to God. It's In the Bible, Luke 12:6-7, TLB. "What is the price of five sparrows? A couple of pennies? Not much more than that. Yet God does not forget a single one of them. And he knows the number of hairs on your head! Never fear, you are far more valuable to Him than a whole flock of sparrows."

God cares about you and is thinking of you constantly. It's In the Bible, Psalm 139:17-18, TLB. "How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! I can't even count how many times a day your thoughts turn towards me. And when I waken in the morning, you are still thinking of me!"

You have been promised a marvelous future. It's In the Bible, Jeremiah 29:11, TLB. "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

Jesus will help you when your burdens are too heavy to bear. It's In the Bible, Psalm 55:22, NKJV. "Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you;" Matthew 11:28-30, KJV says, "Come unto Me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your soul. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light."

You are not alone in thinking about wanting to die. Several men in the Bible felt the same way. It's in the Bible, Numbers 11:14-15, RSV. Moses said, "I am not able to carry all this people alone, the burden is too heavy for me. If thou wilt deal thus with me, kill me at once, if I find favor in thy sight, that I may not see my wretchedness." An event in the story of Elijah is recorded in I Kings 19:3-4, NRSV. "Then he was afraid; he got up and fled for his life…But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a solitary broom tree. He asked that he might die: "It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life, for I am no better than my ancestors."

If you feel overcome with fear, God will help you, It's In the Bible, Isaiah 41:10, NKJV "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am Your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Joshua 1:9, TLB says, "Yes, be bold and strong! Banish fear and doubt! For remember, the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

God will never forsake you even if everyone else has. It's In the Bible, Psalm 9:10, NIV. "Those who know your name will trust in You, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You.." Psalms 46:1-3, TLB says, "God is our refuge and strength, a tested help in times of trouble. And so we need not fear even if the world blows up, and the mountains crumble into the sea. Let the oceans roar and foam; let the mountains tremble!"

God offers you peace of heart and mind. It's In the Bible, John 14:27, NKJV "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." Isaiah 26:3, NKJV says, "You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You." John 16:33 says, "I have told you all this so that you will have peace of heart and mind. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows; but cheer up, for I have overcome the world."

With God's help, keep your heart and mind focused on positive thoughts, It's In the Bible, Philippians 4:8, "And now, brothers [and sisters], as I close this letter let me say this one more thing: Fix your thoughts on what is true and good and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely, and dwell on the fine, good things in others. Think about all you can praise God for and be glad about."

This really is a brilliant post. Extremely good use of bible application to a problem. It has already begun to help me, even though that was not it's intent Thanks WFL

 

[Capt. Mac]

Bad Feelings or thoughts

Sister, I'm familuar with your emotions and I'm sure not one to tell anyone anything, but have you read the book of Job in the old testament? That poor soul had everything one day, all was just swell but, then here came that old devil (Satin). Job lost everything he had, even his children, he became sick and his friends and his wife were telling him to curse God for what had happened to him, but Job kept his faith and showed Satin that he was not going to give in to his ways and finally God restored all Job had lost and more for keeping his faith and trusting in his Lord to see him through those bad times. This is what we have to do, even today. Keep the faith and fight Satin with all you have, remember we are to put on the whole armor of God and fight for our Lord, Stand fast, Keep the faith and remember when you feel down, Look Up! Your Salvation is there. My Prayers are with you, God Bless you sister.
YBIC Jesus; Ronnie

 

[Jessica35m]

Still lost

Thanks again Captain Mac. Right now I am starting to feel it come back. I just found out news about the company my husband works for and I'm not sure if it's good or bad, in my head, it's bad. So now I feel myself slipping back to where I was a few weeks ago when I was ready to call it quits and let life go. Horrible, I know. I just hate the worry about jobs, money, kids, bills...ect, that at times I don't think I can handle it anymore. I sound so weak though and that makes me sad too.
I am trying to trust in the Lord that everything will be ok, but at times I just don't see how.

 

[jculver]

Thanks again Captain Mac. Right now I am starting to feel it come back. I just found out news about the company my husband works for and I'm not sure if it's good or bad, in my head, it's bad. So now I feel myself slipping back to where I was a few weeks ago when I was ready to call it quits and let life go. Horrible, I know. I just hate the worry about jobs, money, kids, bills...ect, that at times I don't think I can handle it anymore. I sound so weak though and that makes me sad too.
I am trying to trust in the Lord that everything will be ok, but at times I just don't see how.

In my trials I also find the hardest part is just not being able to see what or how things will happen. God is never "too late", sometimes he takes longer than we as humans would like, but he is always right on time. Someone said something like this to me once: "For the trial to have meaning, sometimes it has to seem to be meaningless". This is especially true when God wants you to learn to trust him.

Trusting him is hard. It's hard because we can't always feel him right here. The bible points to God as being omnipresent. He is everywhere at all times. He knows EXACTLY what you are thinking, and EXACTLY what you are going through.

It used to scare me going through trials, because I wasn't sure if God knew what was going on. That is a dangerous way to think. Of course he knows He is God!

I think you and I right now are in similar situations. I have been depressed for about 2-3 months now, and my problem is not getting better. However, I have been fasting and praying a lot, and God has helped me find peace in my trial. He grants you peace in suffering. I fasted for about 48 hours and prayed every chance I got on my knees. It helped significantly.

Here is my recommendation: I recommend you pray. Pray a lot. In my experience fasting really helps prayer become sincere and earnest, and shows God you are committed. What do you need to pray? Pray that his will be done. Let him know the situation, and just pray that his will be done. Tell him every detail, tell him what worries you, tell him. God is wiser, he also simply knows more, he knows the future, and he wishes you good things not evil. You are valuable to him as the bible states many times over. Just remember these things and pray. It hits a point where you finally feel you have prayed all you can pray, and it brings about a sense of peace because you know you have literally done all you can. It is in his hands then, and better it is in His than ours Praying persistently is a huge theme in the New Testament, and I believe it is so for a good reason

I am still in the midst of dealing with probably one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with. I have however, found peace. I feel like God knows every detail, and he knows how much I want him to work on it, and he knows how committed I was to getting him involved. The best part of a trial is the end. You realize you are stronger, and soon you will be doing something and God will show you the "why" of the trial and you will rejoice and be amazed at Him. Amen.


Sister you will be in my prayers. I encourage you to fast for a while, and give up anything that might be getting between you and God. He is always there when you take a step to him. God bless you and keep you. -John

 

[Jessica35m]

Thank you John, your words make alot of sense to me. I have been praying, but not as much as I should. I do feel like alot of my prayers have been answered and I have thanked God so many times. I will keep at it.

 

[jculver]

Thank you John, your words make alot of sense to me. I have been praying, but not as much as I should. I do feel like alot of my prayers have been answered and I have thanked God so many times. I will keep at it.

Amen. In all things give thanks Rejoice in answered prayer because it is a sign you are truly saved!

Since it goes along with this post perfectly I feel the need to share a story.

I was in my room just literally at the end of myself. I felt like my circumstances had stretched me to the absolute limit, and if things didn't change soon I was easily going to snap. I prayed a prayer to God and asked him to deliver me. After my prayer was over I went to lie down, but I just got an urge to turn on my TV. I know how ridiculous this sounds, but I don't even like TV so I know it couldn't have been my own urge. I turned it to the only channel I really watch and Adrian Rodgers was on just beginning a sermon on depression. He said that he was originally going to preach on something else, but God changed his mind. He said he knew that there was a person, or people out there that needed to hear Gods message to those depressed. Maybe he knew I needed to hear it, and I needed to relay it to you. Anyway I will outline what he said here because I think it may help. It did help me for a long time, but I think the only thing lacking is that it should have mentioned continuing in prayer every day at length. Oddly enough I was so sure it was the Holy Spirit that moved me to watch him I actually took notes. So here they are

Simply put he gave three steps:



1.) Analyze your heart. (Psalm 42:5-7) What is really causing this depression? Think about it, and analyze it. What is it exactly? Confess it to God, and if it is sin make restitution. Nowadays it isn't usually just 1 thing. It is many things. Analyze them all, and confess them.

2.) (I forgot to write down the verses for these last 2 :X) Acknowledge God's ability to help. AT this point in your walk with God, you know much of what the bible says of him. You have a good picture in your head. Simply acknowledge it. Acknowledge it repeatedly if you have to. Then he noted these 4 things:

• He put you in this spot you are in
• His grace is still with you
• The purpose of a trial is to strengthen and perfect you
• In His good time he WILL bring you out again

3.) Realize your hope. "I shall again praise him". You have hope in God through prayer. He won’t let you feel this way forever; what could he accomplish doing that? Temporarily we go through these trials. As it is said in the book of James, trials perfect us and produce endurance. You are a child of God so he will not allow this to be your end. He wishes you good, but sometimes suffering is how that good is achieved. Knowing your God’s child is where the peace comes from. Trusting he doesn’t do this simply to torture you, and trusting he will bring you out just brings peace.

Anyway I truly do hope that you get to feel that peace in midst of suffering. I had never felt it before until yesterday. My stomach was on fire and I felt dizzy and I still was uncertain of what will happen, and I was weary from a long day of all sorts of issues, but somehow I was calmed. I hope to God you can get there too even if it takes a little while longer. Realize your hope in him. I will lift you in prayer.

 

[stephen]

Precious sister Jessica.....

Just to make you aware that we are praying for you. Much advice has been given. We are pleased to see that, the body of believers ministering to each other.

Please continue to visit .......and read.....excellent articles about the Lord.

God Bless You

 

[Jessica35m]

Thank you both. There are times when I am a peace and feel the trust I have in God that everything will be ok. (no matter what happens) And I feel so much better during those times.
Then I read something on line, or see something on the news and I can feel the panic building back up again. I'm doing better at more positive thinking and I can feel some inner peace. Praying has help me so much, and I am trying to do it more often, not to just ask for things, but to thank and talk.
This sight has helped me so much in finding my way to God and what is right.

 

[jculver]

Thank you both. There are times when I am a peace and feel the trust I have in God that everything will be ok. (no matter what happens) And I feel so much better during those times.
Then I read something on line, or see something on the news and I can feel the panic building back up again. I'm doing better at more positive thinking and I can feel some inner peace. Praying has help me so much, and I am trying to do it more often, not to just ask for things, but to thank and talk.
This sight has helped me so much in finding my way to God and what is right.

We are also glad you found this site I know what you mean about the news and almost anything making you anxious. I know what that feels like, and sometimes I think it is harder on a person than physical pain. I imagine the better your relationship is with God, the more you trust him, the more you then can find peace in times of terror etc. Like with humans our relationships build overtime. We get to know God better with time. So take comfort in knowing the longer you walk with God, the more often you feel the peace instead of worry.

I will continue to keep you in my prayers and I hope you feel like you are back on your feet soon.

 

[denise04]

worse then job

hi im new here to i understand what youre going through but you can make it with gods help, my life has been worse then jobs believeit or not since ive entered the world its been tragady after tradagy i beene n through abuse, losing 2 children, fightin a dark depression since i was young. may times i feel like givng up. ive never been happy although im a christian theres just to much hurtin my pastbut i no the happiest day is awaiting me when i see jesus face to face. many years ago at age 16 i was having a hard time, on my wa home from a fishing trip i was looking up a t the beautiful moon, there beside it sttd jesus with his arms streched out to me i actually saw him this wasnt a dream now i no why e came to me that night he knew the dificult life i would have that was just his wa y of saying ill be there. so my strength is him ive made it so can you!

 

[Boanerges]

Hi Jessica35m. Choosing to trust Christ when your flesh wants nothing but to run away takes real faith. You are stronger than you think.
Still I would recommend Pastoral or professional Christian counseling. Some depression can be prayed through but there are some forms of depression that need medical treatment to address a specific chemical imbalance in the brain. In either case talking to your Pastor can only help. I am praying for you and your family.

Many blessings in Jesus Name, brother Larry.