The few weeks i've been in a period of very dark depression one of the worst lows i've had. through that time i never turned awy from God, although i doubted my salvation at times I never doubted gods power to save.
Over the last few days I have felt much closer to God have been able to praise him and pray and read his word. I feel so much more safe and loved. All this result form the thought to pickup and read a book given to me b a friend so i can give it to her before i leave for uni.
The book on suffering dealt with depression from the very personal persepective of the writer and amougst over things reminded me thaat it was ok to be depressed being a Christian doesn't mean you have to be happy all the time and it made me turn around how i was viewing where i was.
dwelling on the why is this happening to me what did i do to deserve this was not helpful and would never give the answers i wanted.
I can't expain whats changed or exactly why but things don't seem anywhere near so dark. and when i try to pray the words will come and jst flow form me. i can loose myself in praiseing the lord.
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Over the last few days I have felt much closer to God have been able to praise him and pray and read his word. I feel so much more safe and loved. All this result form the thought to pickup and read a book given to me b a friend so i can give it to her before i leave for uni.
The book on suffering dealt with depression from the very personal persepective of the writer and amougst over things reminded me thaat it was ok to be depressed being a Christian doesn't mean you have to be happy all the time and it made me turn around how i was viewing where i was.
dwelling on the why is this happening to me what did i do to deserve this was not helpful and would never give the answers i wanted.
I can't expain whats changed or exactly why but things don't seem anywhere near so dark. and when i try to pray the words will come and jst flow form me. i can loose myself in praiseing the lord.
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