Misunderstood

[catseye]

I have a problem that hinders me in fellowship with other Christians. I'm 49 and was raised in a Christian home. I had a real conversion experience at about 11. All my life I have had a kind of "sensitivity" to things in the spiritual realm. I believe it is the "gifts of the Holy Spirit" and not some demonic thing. I base this on the fact that the information I perceive helps people draw closer to the Lord and frees them from bondage. I also base it on the fact that the demons and Satan hate me and have tried to discredit or destroy me countless times.

The problem is that I can't share much of what I know in a church because people get scared and think that I'm New Age, or into witchcraft. I can minister to people on the street, or to satanists, witches, New Age, etc but in the church or among Christian groups this isn't possible.

Even when I attend a church and "keep my mouth shut" something happens and I end up leaving the church because someone made accusations about me being New Age or "evil". People get scared...

I would appreciate any support, similar experiences, or advice.

My way of dealing with the situation is that I recognize that I am an intercessor so I just "pray without ceasing" and watch the change take place in the world around me. I realize that most people can't handle some aspects of truth so I "hold" that truth up (in prayer) and hopefully raise the level of readiness of the people involved.

 

[Faithful Son]

The Bible has the wisest words of all brother.

1 Corinthians 14:18-19 NASB
18I thank God, I speak in tongues more than you all;
19however, in the church I desire to speak five words with my mind so that I may instruct others also, rather than ten thousand words in a tongue.

Proverbs 23:9
Do not speak in the hearing of a fool,For he will despise the wisdom of your words.

Proverbs 18:2
A fool does not delight in understanding,But only in revealing his own mind.

This may not be what you want to hear. But those thoughts and revelations which you receive, maybe it's best to keep them in your own mind?

Unless, specifically told by God you should tell someone.

God bless

 

[catseye]

These are not only the words I want to hear, it is the very conclusion that I came to! Keeping things to myself and making them a matter of prayer.

Now for the problem which is the subject of this thread: Even when I "keep it to myself" it's like people start to hunt me down. Wherever I go, people gang up on me. It's something I've learned to live with but it makes fellowship with people nearly impossible.

I can't post on this web site the things that have been done to me or the falsehoods that have been spoken about me. I can tell you that I have been called just about every name in the book and I have lost three jobs as a result of false accusations. All this occurred while I was minding my own business and "keeping things to myself".

I'm REALLY sure the devil hates me!

 

[Tonyb]

Hi Catseye,

I'd go and seek out a Pastor from a Pentecostal or Charismatic fellowship, were such gifting's as the one you claim to have are not uncommon. I'd then suggest you tell him your story and ask for his advice. He would then be able to help and direct you. If you do have a gift of God it should be nurtured in the proper environment, a good church with a godly Pastor and leadership team.
If the gift is not of God then a godly pastor with the Baptism in the Holy Spirit would know it and he could help you.

Blessings,
Tony