ChristianConsFurryGuy
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So I'm not doing this right now to broadcast sympathy or pity for my current plight, but to praise God that he has given me the strength and will to continue through this change in my life.
I recently left my home that I had been renting from my brother after suffering numerous times of mental and emotional abuse by them for mistakes that I couldnt prevent. I finally had enough of it and just left. Though my family and I reconciled to a way, I'm currently homeless, sleeping in my car instead of a room or home.
Now just cause I'm homeless doesn't mean I'm hopeless. I still have my job and I'm thankful that my workplace has a shower room so I can handle my daily hygeine. They also have a little store inside so I can at least get food when I need it. The only drawback is theBut cold nights sleeping in my car, especially when they start getting snowy and icy cold (Brrrr!)
I should be more upset and angry at my lot in life, and yet I'm not. For a long time, I felt like the Lord was telling me something that I would be living a homeless life in devotion to him. I never heard of such a thing, but even Jesus himself said that "Foxes have holes and the birds of the heaven have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay h is head." (Matthew 8:20). I at least got someplace, albeit cramped.
This time alone has given me time to reflect on what it means to suffer or to handle hardships. Sure I'm not doing as bad as other homeless people, but I still have to deal with the lonliness of not having family about or the security of a roof over my head. I can barely fathom what others are doing in these cold harsh times without even the luxuries I still have: A job, a place to sleep and funds to survive on. Do I even have the right to speak about this?
But I am reminded in my spirit about the words of our Lord, "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." (1 Corinthians 8:18) I know that my God will seek me out soon in that glorious day and all these past events: the abuse, the pain the suffering- will have faded away into immortal glory in heaven!
"And we know that for those who love God, all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." (1 Corinthians 8:28) What was meant by man to be done as evil, God will use for his glory. I have to believe that the current life change in my life, dangerous and uncertain as it is, will one day all fit into place in God's glorious plan. Perhaps me writing my thoughts and praise here is part of that too?
Either way, I am grateful for the prayers of the saints that have sought my well-being and the well-being of others in far worse situations than I am in. I praise God that I can even get a glimpse of the plight of the homeless and know in small ways their suffering. It is my hope to one day find a place of my own, but for now, I must praise my God knowing I am still in His will.
I recently left my home that I had been renting from my brother after suffering numerous times of mental and emotional abuse by them for mistakes that I couldnt prevent. I finally had enough of it and just left. Though my family and I reconciled to a way, I'm currently homeless, sleeping in my car instead of a room or home.
Now just cause I'm homeless doesn't mean I'm hopeless. I still have my job and I'm thankful that my workplace has a shower room so I can handle my daily hygeine. They also have a little store inside so I can at least get food when I need it. The only drawback is theBut cold nights sleeping in my car, especially when they start getting snowy and icy cold (Brrrr!)
I should be more upset and angry at my lot in life, and yet I'm not. For a long time, I felt like the Lord was telling me something that I would be living a homeless life in devotion to him. I never heard of such a thing, but even Jesus himself said that "Foxes have holes and the birds of the heaven have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay h is head." (Matthew 8:20). I at least got someplace, albeit cramped.
This time alone has given me time to reflect on what it means to suffer or to handle hardships. Sure I'm not doing as bad as other homeless people, but I still have to deal with the lonliness of not having family about or the security of a roof over my head. I can barely fathom what others are doing in these cold harsh times without even the luxuries I still have: A job, a place to sleep and funds to survive on. Do I even have the right to speak about this?
But I am reminded in my spirit about the words of our Lord, "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." (1 Corinthians 8:18) I know that my God will seek me out soon in that glorious day and all these past events: the abuse, the pain the suffering- will have faded away into immortal glory in heaven!
"And we know that for those who love God, all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." (1 Corinthians 8:28) What was meant by man to be done as evil, God will use for his glory. I have to believe that the current life change in my life, dangerous and uncertain as it is, will one day all fit into place in God's glorious plan. Perhaps me writing my thoughts and praise here is part of that too?
Either way, I am grateful for the prayers of the saints that have sought my well-being and the well-being of others in far worse situations than I am in. I praise God that I can even get a glimpse of the plight of the homeless and know in small ways their suffering. It is my hope to one day find a place of my own, but for now, I must praise my God knowing I am still in His will.
