I’m so sorry to hear about your situation, friend. This is a hard thing to go through after 14 years of togetherness. I just said a prayer for you and your husband, asking God to fill you both with His unconditional love and bring healing to your marriage. May you rest in the assurance the psalmist expressed when he wrote: “In the day of trouble I shall call upon Thee, for Thou wilt answer me” (Psalm 86:7). I know it’s not easy, but stay strong. Hugs!