freedom_fighta
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hi, i thought i would post this story of how God rescued me, so happy reading, some bits are creepy, and some arent easy reading issues....
My name is Bob, and i grew up in a small town called Oswestry, i was brought up in a christian family, my dad drove a great big mini-bus which was green, i wasnt popular at school, and i did usually get stick from people because of being a christian. When i was 16 i moved to a town called Shrewsbury, i started at college and didnt really know anyone. things werent amazing but life was life, at the age of 17 i gave my life to Jesus, and began my walk with Jesus.
because i didnt really know anyone, i ended up being in chat rooms, it did actually start off by trying to find out how to download games for free off the internet, i started to go to a christian chat site over the internet, the room is still open to this day. After a while God started to bring people my way, these things i had no idea of how to handle, there were alot of ppl who were being sexually abused and my heart cryed out for them. I got very close to one girl called lucy, i fell in love and spent pritty much everyday talking to her. Things got heavy on me and i started to get depressed very quickly, and she wasnt in a better state either. i prayed for her alot and over a short time she broke free from her abuser, God had heard our prayers. After a while more people started to come my way.
I met a girl called Tessa, she never talked or shown anything that was happening to her, it was her big secret, i put 2 and 2 together, she was a close friend to Lucy and i just blatently asked her if it was happening to her, it ended up being bad news. I carried on chatting, and oneday ended up in a depression chat room, and met a women called louise, she had it worst, suffereing from severe depression often having the crisis depression team at her door every nite. She ended up living in a hostal and as i talked to her each day offering support she got saved. things got abit better for her but to this day she isnt walking in the light, i pray for her alot. Because i was so depressed i went abit crazy myself, oneday i made a visit to my brothers house, he used to live a good 100miles from home, so i was well away. There i met a girl called amanda, she was another who was abused when she was younger and we started going out, things were great for a while, things got better for me or even for us both, but by the end of 11 months we broke up, she didnt love me anymore.
I was back home, with no job, no friends, with nothing going for me, i very quickly hit rock bottom, i went back to chat sites and there i met another girl called laura, he dad was the most evil out of all, he was selling and taking herion and other drugs, and worked as a hitman. Me and laura quickly got close and she noticed i would stick around to help her. i was praying for her, she was working as a prostitute at the time she was barely 16, but only after a short time her life turned around. Gods hand had moved once again but in a very big way. She got into college learning art theropy having not even being in school before. She was free as she could be, and met her real mum, her dad had told her a lie that her real mum has died at the age of 5, a women who died from herion overdose. Her life took off very quickly, Gods hand is still close to her today although she is having spirit problems at the moment.
Gods hand was close at all these pionts in time, God was listening and was acting, i was just the middle guy and was praying for each person as God brought me closer to them. by this time though, i was deeply depressed myself.
I was working myself in as ASDA store doing cleaning, i was very low and lost in life, totaly heart broken and tormented by things ive heard and things that happend in my life. Things from here got worse, Lucy got into wicca (witchcraft), i didnt know at the time what it was, but oneday walking from home something had turned up on the scene, i had a heavy feeling like i was being followed, like it was right down my neck, at night i would now and again see a dark shadow as if something was in the room with me. I was addicted to cannabis and was spending pritty much all my money on it, i was totaly lost in life and things were about to break me. I started to take anti-depressants for the first time, and was on prozac, things got worse, then it was citralapram, and things didnt get better, then mirzipine and then i crashed. One night i took an overdose, having losing control of everything i tryed to take my life, something stoped me in the middle, by the time i noticed what i was doing i had a mouth full of pills. The next day i was high as a kite, and feeling very rough, that was the last time i took meds for depression.
Having been so depressed and having a (shadow) follow me around i ended up smoking ever penny i could spend on cannabis, i was on rideculous amounts and was living in isolation, i had cracked up and was no longer chatting on the net or anything. One day i was looking on the internet, and started to take personal leasons in hand to hand combat.
I learnt a whole range of combat arts, close quarter combat (USA), russian systema, Taichi, and kungfu, and a mix of anything else i could find. On my search i found that Taichi can cure depression, its used mostly for health, but can be used in combat, but never practiced as such because its so destructive, this is the worst thing i had ever experienced.
While i was doing this art taichi, i began to learn more, i got deep into it mixxing it up with other fighting arts, it ended up being like turning your mind into a oijey board. i was begining to do things that normal humans shoudnt be able to do. but i was trapped. Istarted to read my bible again and wasnt understanding anything, God eventually shown me a kind of prophecy of when some people put something next to a statue, i cant remember it exactly but now i see, God was seeing what i was doing as idolism as it is a taoist art. By the end of this, i was totaly loopy a few years had past, still had my cleaning job but gave up on life, i was punching bricks for comfort, smoking cannabis like no tomorrow, i was in a mess a very big big mess.
eventually things started to get better, i had been moved to mornings and saw the sun for the first time in 3 years, i even started to thank God for breakfast. One day i went to where i used to practice kungfu and taichi but for the first time i took my bible, i opened it up and i cant even remember what i was reading but it was like something had happend with my mind, i still cant explain it to this day. I heard a voice from within me saying ''throw it away'' i carried on i was smoking my cannabis as usuall. It said again ''throw it away''. by the time this voice had said it a few times, i just decided to throw it into the bin, everything that was related to my smoking i threw away, this is what i had mostly used to help me through my depression, if i never had any i would sink like a rock.
A couple of days later it was sunday, i went to church i knew i was going for prayer about what i was doing (kungfu and taichi) but had no idea why, i knew it was dodgy and so i went. To be honest that day must of been the one of only few time i was in church, and pritty much all the times before then i slept. I admit it, over the last 7 yrs or so i sometimes would sleep at church.....sorry.
Anyways, someone cme forwards with a prophecy. ''someone here is serving 2 gods and God wants to free you from it, and bring balance to your life.'' This was for me, with no dought, no one else knew what i was doing and everything in the prophecy applied to me, so i went forwards for prayer. The guy actually checked me out to see if i was possessed, i left church actually it felt like i could feel the spirit in me, i was feeling amazing! as an understatement, i was feeling like i never did before, Gods hand had rescued me big time.
After that i started to read my bible and i began to understand, what iwas doing was part of the occult, and the shadow that was following me was a demon, I even know where this demon has gone, i know who it has made its new home with. Not that she believed me when i told her. As time passed things really good started to happen, alot of my prayers were being answered, to be honst it was most my prayers being answered, there are only a couple im waiting for to be answered and God is telling me to wait.
So this is my story, Ive been led to the best place in my life, and as time goes on God is doing more and more. In my book, God is real, Jesus IS the way, is the truth and the life, and its through Jesus my life turned around. God does love us, and even when we are so down in the dumps and so depressed God know what to do.
Im so happy that God found me and rescued me, and my life i live for him. Ilove my God and my God love me. =)
My name is Bob, and i grew up in a small town called Oswestry, i was brought up in a christian family, my dad drove a great big mini-bus which was green, i wasnt popular at school, and i did usually get stick from people because of being a christian. When i was 16 i moved to a town called Shrewsbury, i started at college and didnt really know anyone. things werent amazing but life was life, at the age of 17 i gave my life to Jesus, and began my walk with Jesus.
because i didnt really know anyone, i ended up being in chat rooms, it did actually start off by trying to find out how to download games for free off the internet, i started to go to a christian chat site over the internet, the room is still open to this day. After a while God started to bring people my way, these things i had no idea of how to handle, there were alot of ppl who were being sexually abused and my heart cryed out for them. I got very close to one girl called lucy, i fell in love and spent pritty much everyday talking to her. Things got heavy on me and i started to get depressed very quickly, and she wasnt in a better state either. i prayed for her alot and over a short time she broke free from her abuser, God had heard our prayers. After a while more people started to come my way.
I met a girl called Tessa, she never talked or shown anything that was happening to her, it was her big secret, i put 2 and 2 together, she was a close friend to Lucy and i just blatently asked her if it was happening to her, it ended up being bad news. I carried on chatting, and oneday ended up in a depression chat room, and met a women called louise, she had it worst, suffereing from severe depression often having the crisis depression team at her door every nite. She ended up living in a hostal and as i talked to her each day offering support she got saved. things got abit better for her but to this day she isnt walking in the light, i pray for her alot. Because i was so depressed i went abit crazy myself, oneday i made a visit to my brothers house, he used to live a good 100miles from home, so i was well away. There i met a girl called amanda, she was another who was abused when she was younger and we started going out, things were great for a while, things got better for me or even for us both, but by the end of 11 months we broke up, she didnt love me anymore.
I was back home, with no job, no friends, with nothing going for me, i very quickly hit rock bottom, i went back to chat sites and there i met another girl called laura, he dad was the most evil out of all, he was selling and taking herion and other drugs, and worked as a hitman. Me and laura quickly got close and she noticed i would stick around to help her. i was praying for her, she was working as a prostitute at the time she was barely 16, but only after a short time her life turned around. Gods hand had moved once again but in a very big way. She got into college learning art theropy having not even being in school before. She was free as she could be, and met her real mum, her dad had told her a lie that her real mum has died at the age of 5, a women who died from herion overdose. Her life took off very quickly, Gods hand is still close to her today although she is having spirit problems at the moment.
Gods hand was close at all these pionts in time, God was listening and was acting, i was just the middle guy and was praying for each person as God brought me closer to them. by this time though, i was deeply depressed myself.
I was working myself in as ASDA store doing cleaning, i was very low and lost in life, totaly heart broken and tormented by things ive heard and things that happend in my life. Things from here got worse, Lucy got into wicca (witchcraft), i didnt know at the time what it was, but oneday walking from home something had turned up on the scene, i had a heavy feeling like i was being followed, like it was right down my neck, at night i would now and again see a dark shadow as if something was in the room with me. I was addicted to cannabis and was spending pritty much all my money on it, i was totaly lost in life and things were about to break me. I started to take anti-depressants for the first time, and was on prozac, things got worse, then it was citralapram, and things didnt get better, then mirzipine and then i crashed. One night i took an overdose, having losing control of everything i tryed to take my life, something stoped me in the middle, by the time i noticed what i was doing i had a mouth full of pills. The next day i was high as a kite, and feeling very rough, that was the last time i took meds for depression.
Having been so depressed and having a (shadow) follow me around i ended up smoking ever penny i could spend on cannabis, i was on rideculous amounts and was living in isolation, i had cracked up and was no longer chatting on the net or anything. One day i was looking on the internet, and started to take personal leasons in hand to hand combat.
I learnt a whole range of combat arts, close quarter combat (USA), russian systema, Taichi, and kungfu, and a mix of anything else i could find. On my search i found that Taichi can cure depression, its used mostly for health, but can be used in combat, but never practiced as such because its so destructive, this is the worst thing i had ever experienced.
While i was doing this art taichi, i began to learn more, i got deep into it mixxing it up with other fighting arts, it ended up being like turning your mind into a oijey board. i was begining to do things that normal humans shoudnt be able to do. but i was trapped. Istarted to read my bible again and wasnt understanding anything, God eventually shown me a kind of prophecy of when some people put something next to a statue, i cant remember it exactly but now i see, God was seeing what i was doing as idolism as it is a taoist art. By the end of this, i was totaly loopy a few years had past, still had my cleaning job but gave up on life, i was punching bricks for comfort, smoking cannabis like no tomorrow, i was in a mess a very big big mess.
eventually things started to get better, i had been moved to mornings and saw the sun for the first time in 3 years, i even started to thank God for breakfast. One day i went to where i used to practice kungfu and taichi but for the first time i took my bible, i opened it up and i cant even remember what i was reading but it was like something had happend with my mind, i still cant explain it to this day. I heard a voice from within me saying ''throw it away'' i carried on i was smoking my cannabis as usuall. It said again ''throw it away''. by the time this voice had said it a few times, i just decided to throw it into the bin, everything that was related to my smoking i threw away, this is what i had mostly used to help me through my depression, if i never had any i would sink like a rock.
A couple of days later it was sunday, i went to church i knew i was going for prayer about what i was doing (kungfu and taichi) but had no idea why, i knew it was dodgy and so i went. To be honest that day must of been the one of only few time i was in church, and pritty much all the times before then i slept. I admit it, over the last 7 yrs or so i sometimes would sleep at church.....sorry.
Anyways, someone cme forwards with a prophecy. ''someone here is serving 2 gods and God wants to free you from it, and bring balance to your life.'' This was for me, with no dought, no one else knew what i was doing and everything in the prophecy applied to me, so i went forwards for prayer. The guy actually checked me out to see if i was possessed, i left church actually it felt like i could feel the spirit in me, i was feeling amazing! as an understatement, i was feeling like i never did before, Gods hand had rescued me big time.
After that i started to read my bible and i began to understand, what iwas doing was part of the occult, and the shadow that was following me was a demon, I even know where this demon has gone, i know who it has made its new home with. Not that she believed me when i told her. As time passed things really good started to happen, alot of my prayers were being answered, to be honst it was most my prayers being answered, there are only a couple im waiting for to be answered and God is telling me to wait.
So this is my story, Ive been led to the best place in my life, and as time goes on God is doing more and more. In my book, God is real, Jesus IS the way, is the truth and the life, and its through Jesus my life turned around. God does love us, and even when we are so down in the dumps and so depressed God know what to do.
Im so happy that God found me and rescued me, and my life i live for him. Ilove my God and my God love me. =)
