::PreciousinChrist::
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Sorry if my english sounds weird... I was trying to make the whle thing short.. because its hard to write everything 
It all started when my “boyfriend” made me feel so worthless that he started to call me all kinds of names. I cried really hard that night and all I could think of was Jesus. I did not know which way to turn, I finally ran and e-mailed my Mum and said “I really need Jesus”. But before the time of May 2007, I wasn’t really following the Lord – I never liked to read the Word since it use to bore me and having lived in a boarding school for several years carried me away from God by my non-christian friends. I became proud and careless with my words but I didn’t care even though I saw a change in me.
Later in October 2007, I got hit by a football on my right jaw (T.M joint) while I was playing but didn’t really realize that my jaw that been stretched and it got dislocated even though I fell down. Unknowingly, it made me feel dizzy all the time and made me feel as if I’m walking on clouds (unbalance).
Going to school was very hard. It became my stronghold for the next 5 months that included my Christmas and New years. During the nest 5 months, It got worse, it was painful just to go to school! I couldn’t concentrate on my studies and my mind wasn’t peaceful- I was afraid that I would collapse and fall anytime because of the dizziness but didn’t know about the football incident until now in 2009.I couldn’t eat properly… I became weak, broken because I still carried those words that my “boyfriend” spoke to me.
I was definitely faithless. I cried everyday for 2 months, and that was the only “medicine” I had but things didn’t change. I was empty and needed love, so the only comfort I had left were my parents (since being ignored much at school also didn’t help either). But even my parents failed to understand my problem and were concerned and upset in a way. They asked me whether I was hiding anything from them and I suddenly remembered what sin I had done with my boyfriend and after much hesitation, I told them and they were serious but forgave me. I learnt that, dating isn’t right.
I began to have bad dreams and cried during night hours too. I was desperate for love, comfort, rest, help, happiness and peace.I began to look for books in which I could find encouragement and would help me.
I found a book called “miracle in your mouth” by John Osteen and in that book it said about speaking the Word of God and overcoming problems. I was determined to do that no matter how long it would take. There was a prayer written by the author which was filled with God’s Word. That same night, the most wonderful thing happened – I heard a loud but gentle and peaceful choir singing “ then sings my soul, my Savior God to thee how great thou art” and as it continued, I saw a picture of myself from behind standing on a platform preaching to people thought I didn’t see the audience. I believe it was a vision because this kind of image wouldn’t come after having dreams that were not pleasant. It gave me peace and an awesome sleep!
Soon it was time to go back to my school for the second semester. I was still afraid because of my dizziness. But I had no other choice but to commit myself to God – it was very hard but I had some slight confidence in God because of the Word that I had been speaking. For the next 2 months – I still struggled but I prayed even harder and decided to read the Bible everyday… and slowly my “mountains” began to move thought I didn’t know what faith really is but Habakkuk 2:3 kept me going strong. I also realized that the more I spoke to people, the more I got distracted from my deep mental pain. No one at school knew what I was going through which helped me a lot since they wouldn’t remind of it.
Slowly, my “mountains” began to move and somehow I knew that they will have to because I began to believe and trust God. One day, I felt heat passing through me which was gentle and slightly tingling and I began to be restless because I didn’t know what had happened but it lasted for 10min. After that, I was the happiest person!! I felt so free deep inside – it felt like as if I was new again… whole and just loved, strong, accepted. I finally became a new creature in Christ Jesus. I began to understand the scriptures a bit better and Jesus became my new friend.
But the most amazing thing was, people began to be nice to me, people noticed me and it gave me an opportunity to reach out to people by just sending them little notes with a verse written in it. I was reminded by God the other day about me being the “fragrance of Christ” !
On June 15th, I was baptized and I started a new chapter in my life… by taking a hold of Jesus’s hand and walking out of my boarding school; and I rejoiced because I found a new life in Him who loved me all along…..Glory to Jesus!
Thank you for taking you time to read my Testimony,
God Bless you always
It all started when my “boyfriend” made me feel so worthless that he started to call me all kinds of names. I cried really hard that night and all I could think of was Jesus. I did not know which way to turn, I finally ran and e-mailed my Mum and said “I really need Jesus”. But before the time of May 2007, I wasn’t really following the Lord – I never liked to read the Word since it use to bore me and having lived in a boarding school for several years carried me away from God by my non-christian friends. I became proud and careless with my words but I didn’t care even though I saw a change in me.
Later in October 2007, I got hit by a football on my right jaw (T.M joint) while I was playing but didn’t really realize that my jaw that been stretched and it got dislocated even though I fell down. Unknowingly, it made me feel dizzy all the time and made me feel as if I’m walking on clouds (unbalance).
Going to school was very hard. It became my stronghold for the next 5 months that included my Christmas and New years. During the nest 5 months, It got worse, it was painful just to go to school! I couldn’t concentrate on my studies and my mind wasn’t peaceful- I was afraid that I would collapse and fall anytime because of the dizziness but didn’t know about the football incident until now in 2009.I couldn’t eat properly… I became weak, broken because I still carried those words that my “boyfriend” spoke to me.
I was definitely faithless. I cried everyday for 2 months, and that was the only “medicine” I had but things didn’t change. I was empty and needed love, so the only comfort I had left were my parents (since being ignored much at school also didn’t help either). But even my parents failed to understand my problem and were concerned and upset in a way. They asked me whether I was hiding anything from them and I suddenly remembered what sin I had done with my boyfriend and after much hesitation, I told them and they were serious but forgave me. I learnt that, dating isn’t right.
I began to have bad dreams and cried during night hours too. I was desperate for love, comfort, rest, help, happiness and peace.I began to look for books in which I could find encouragement and would help me.
I found a book called “miracle in your mouth” by John Osteen and in that book it said about speaking the Word of God and overcoming problems. I was determined to do that no matter how long it would take. There was a prayer written by the author which was filled with God’s Word. That same night, the most wonderful thing happened – I heard a loud but gentle and peaceful choir singing “ then sings my soul, my Savior God to thee how great thou art” and as it continued, I saw a picture of myself from behind standing on a platform preaching to people thought I didn’t see the audience. I believe it was a vision because this kind of image wouldn’t come after having dreams that were not pleasant. It gave me peace and an awesome sleep!
Soon it was time to go back to my school for the second semester. I was still afraid because of my dizziness. But I had no other choice but to commit myself to God – it was very hard but I had some slight confidence in God because of the Word that I had been speaking. For the next 2 months – I still struggled but I prayed even harder and decided to read the Bible everyday… and slowly my “mountains” began to move thought I didn’t know what faith really is but Habakkuk 2:3 kept me going strong. I also realized that the more I spoke to people, the more I got distracted from my deep mental pain. No one at school knew what I was going through which helped me a lot since they wouldn’t remind of it.
Slowly, my “mountains” began to move and somehow I knew that they will have to because I began to believe and trust God. One day, I felt heat passing through me which was gentle and slightly tingling and I began to be restless because I didn’t know what had happened but it lasted for 10min. After that, I was the happiest person!! I felt so free deep inside – it felt like as if I was new again… whole and just loved, strong, accepted. I finally became a new creature in Christ Jesus. I began to understand the scriptures a bit better and Jesus became my new friend.
But the most amazing thing was, people began to be nice to me, people noticed me and it gave me an opportunity to reach out to people by just sending them little notes with a verse written in it. I was reminded by God the other day about me being the “fragrance of Christ” !
On June 15th, I was baptized and I started a new chapter in my life… by taking a hold of Jesus’s hand and walking out of my boarding school; and I rejoiced because I found a new life in Him who loved me all along…..Glory to Jesus!
Thank you for taking you time to read my Testimony,
God Bless you always
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