Need Guidance

[JesusIsMyLord]

Hi Brothers and Sisters,

I need guidance here, I was born Muslim and after battling many times with the devil, Jesus saved and I became a Christian, my mother passed away yesterday, her funeral is today I can not attend, because i promised God i will not hide his cross, i'll wear it for the rest of my life and won't take it off...not for a partner, family or 100 mothers. It feels like I'm cheating/betraying God to hide his cross and pretend that i'm still Muslim so that my family won't try to harm me.

But, she is my mother, and i want to at least say goodbye for the last time. What should i do? God showed me the funeral a day before she passed away in a dream, and it wasn't pleasant, everyone was chasing me trying to kill me.

"It's worth mentioning that i recently dreamed of Jesus, i was trapped in a dark place and a woman tried to give me a piece of Metal, suppose i take it and be trapped there for the rest of my life, i ran away and screamed Jesus a few times out loud, and didn't realise he was standing next me and he said "you don't have to scream, I can hear you. Even you call me in your heart, I will be there" then the door opens and i'm out of that horrible dark place, to a warm sunny super bright place (I didn't know what it was, all i could see is light)".

Is God trying to tell me something? what should i do today? attend the funeral and face the risk, or not?

Please help me here.


Many blessings
Mariam

 

[Brad Huber]

You made a promise to the Lord. It could cost you your earthly life, if you keep it, but what would it cost you, if you didnt.

 

[amadeus2]

Yes, as Brad already told you:

"When thou vowest a vow unto God, defer not to pay it; for he hath no pleasure in fools: pay that which thou hast vowed.

Better is it that thou shouldest not vow, than that thou shouldest vow and not pay." Ecc 5:4-5

Only the Lord knows your heart and the strength of your vow. I will pray that the Lord help you to do the right thing in His eyes